Oh God. Tonight was the night... I didn't think I'd be this nervous, but I was.
Edward was waiting out there for me, and I didn't know if I could walk out. I sat in my towel on the edge of the bathtub, my own stupid issues holding me back. Suddenly I became ultra conscious of every flaw on my body.
"Get it together Bella," I said to myself as I forced my legs to stand and a rush of adrenaline went through my body when my toes hit the cold tile.
I walked into our bedroom and instead of him being on the beach he was staring out our bedroom window. He turned when he heard the bathroom door open.
"I was worried you weren't going to come out," he said jokingly as he made his way across the room.
I suddenly felt all of our pent up sexual tension as he drew closer to me. When he put his hand on the small of my back, I about lost my composure.
I looked at him for a moment and tried to memorize the look on his face, the glow of the moonlight off his skin, the feeling of his soft cotton shirt bunched up in my hand, the feeling of his lips on mine.
He kissed me softly at first, our lips barely moving. Sweet and tender turned into quick, desperate kisses and I lifted his shirt over his head.
Yeah the nervousness was fading.
" .You." I breathed between kisses.
He moaned and he sat on the bed and I sat on his lap, continuing to kiss him.
Suddenly my heart stopped, his hand was on my towel.
I held onto the front and paused and his lips stopped moving.
"Bella?" he said confused and I looked at him.
"What..."
"Let go,"
I thought about it for a minute, frozen. I was ready.
I lowered my hands from the knot on the front and pushed my lips back to his.
"Okay," I mumbled as the towel slipped down my body and I felt the air bare against me. I pressed my body against his chest and moaned at the contact. Cold against hot. I felt my nipples harden against his chest.
I pushed him onto his back and pulled his shorts off, too nervous to look down. Was I supposed to look, or is it wrong to look? My heart beat sped up and I just avoided looking. He laughed at my nervousness.
"Calm down," He said as he kissed my neck and postioned himself behind be. He rubbed my shoulders and my neck and I felt the stress of the plane ride and the wedding fade away.
I felt his cold lips on my back. Goosebumps erupted all over my body. A rush of wetness flowed out of me.
I moaned as he kissed his way up to my neck. I turned around and kissed him back, slowly slipping some tongue into his mouth.
He laid back onto the bed and I straddled him. I was ready for this.
He looked into my eyes worriedly. "We don't have to Bella..."
"I know. I want to. I love you." I said running my hands down his chest
"If I hurt you, you have got to tell me Bella." He said sternly while holding my hands. "I'm serious,"
"I know and I will, I promise," I said as I bent down to kiss him.
He moved his hands up my thighs and up to my hips. I looked down to see... him and what I saw made me suck in a gasp. It was big. But I kept going. I postioned myself over him and put the tip in. It didn't hurt so I continued slowly moving and I felt tension as I slid down. I felt a pinching sensation at my barrier and I froze for a second.
Don't chicken out Bella, just do it. I did it quick, before I had time to think, I forced my weight downward and a burst of pain went through my core. I looked down to see a little bit of blood. I bit my lip hard and pinched my eyes shut. Edward's hands were on my hips, lifting me off.
"What are you doing?" I asked, my eyes wide open, panicked.
"I thought... are you okay, you're in pain,"
"Yeah but we just got to the good part, stop," I said in a breathy tone, positioning myself back on him. "Is the blood too much for you?" I asked, suddenly aware.
"No it's barely phasing me, don't worry," He said, still holding my hips above him.
"Come on," I said, impatient.
He let go and I brought myself back down on to him, cringing a little bit, it was still painful.
He brought me down to his lips and kissed me hard. I felt his tongue slip in between my lips and his mouth wandered to my neck. I slowly continued moving up and down. The pain was starting to fade. I felt a wave of ecstasy go over me.
"Oh, this is good," I whispered into Edward's neck as he ran his hands up my bare back.
suddenly I was on my back and Edward was on top "My turn," he smiled as he picked up the pace. I felt my muscles begin to tense and I could feel an orgasm coming on. Suddenly Edward slowed down.
"Faster, please," I clawed at his skin, my eyes focused on his,
He smiled a ornery smile and whispered, "Patience,"
He began to speed up again and I felt my muscles tense like they did before, here it came.
Suddenly Edward slowed down and I gripped the sheets even harder.
"PLEASE." I said sternly, "This is TORTURE,"
He sped up and moved his fingers down to my core, slowly rubbing while he moved inside me, I felt his muscles tense, he was as close as I was.
Suddenly a wave of pleasure ripped through me, all my muscles twitched and I screamed out. I felt his cold liquid inside of me as I felt him come with me.
I laid on top of him, silent, with him still inside of me.
"I love you. So much." I whispered into his chest
"I love you too,"
I lifted off of him and flopped down beside him, quickly drifting to sleep.