I don't own anything that Dick Wolf owns.

So I don't really like writing two things at the same time, but this idea came to me and I just couldn't help it. I promise to update my other fanfic soon.

(And just a little side note, I had a little SVU marathon and I noticed that in season 13-14 when Nick and Maria had problems he was often working with Amanda…I wonder what that means. But this has nothing to do with this fanfic)

Nick was at his desk going through some files. He was just back at SVU after what seemed like forever to him, even though it has only been a few weeks.

He was glad to be back. Sure, he had to be on desk duty for a few more days, but it was better than the alternative. He knew this was the last chance, he can't mess up anymore.

He felt like the job was the last thing he got left. His marriage was over, his daughter moved to LA, things with his son were fine but he could never get back the years he missed.

And Amanda, he managed to screw that up too. Maybe he should have gotten a job ruining things, he'd be great at that.

Seems like he's also good at regretting.

So his job was the only thing left. Still, he hated desk duty, he felt stuck, not being able to help. Fin and Liv left a while a go to a scene and Nick knew he would be more helpful there than at the precinct right now but he didn't say a word. He was on his best behavior.

Amanda was still at the precinct too, but she was interviewing a witness and he didn't get a chance to talk to her today. She's been acting like everything was alright between them, but he knew it wasn't and he really wanted to sort everything out.

"Excuse me" a voice brought his thoughts to a halt, Nick turned to see a man, probably in his fifties standing next to him "I'm looking for Amanda Rollins, I've been told I could find her here"

"I'm afraid she's busy right now, can I help you?" Nick wasn't sure he liked this guy, he looked a bit worried, like maybe he shouldn't be there.

"It's ok, I don't need help" he looked around, Nick was a bit suspicious, he didn't know why but there was something about this guy he didn't like. Could he be a bookie? Was she in trouble again? Nick got up from the chair, he was about to say something else when Amanda and the witness came out of the interrogation room.

The man turned when he heard her voice, she thanked the girl and told her that she'd call her if they need more help.

When she looked at their direction Nick knew he was right about this guy, he could see it on her.

Her face turned completely pale, she was just staring at the man. Nick wanted to ask him to leave but he just got closer to her.

"Amanda" he said quietly, he looked at her and when she didn't answer he continued "can we talk?"

She still didn't say a thing, but she nodded and headed towards the banks. Nick didn't like it. He hoped she'd look back at him, just to reassure him it was ok, but she walked straight to the banks and the man followed.

Nick couldn't concentrate , they've been there for a long time. He wanted to go in but he knew Amanda would not like that. He started feeling like he has a time perception problem, the minutes felt like hours.

But then he saw the man leave, he ran his fingers through his hair a couple of times while he walked out of the room without taking his eyes off the floor.

Nick was about to go and check in on her when Fin and Liv got back and she asked him to find something for her.

When Amanda finally got back she didn't look at him but he could see there was something going on, she seemed tense, and he could tell she was trying to hide it, joking about something with Fin.

He hoped to get a moment alone with her, to ask her what was going on. But he didn't get a chance because they got a call and she had to go with Fin to a scene.

Later that day, when he was at home, he thought about calling her. He was still worried, but he also wanted to just hear her voice. When they got together, a few months ago, it was a bit awkward at first. Working together and sleeping together had implications so they always had to be careful. But it also felt good. He wasn't blind, he always thought Amanda was beautiful and smart and interesting. But he was married so he didn't think about being with her. He would never cheat.

But he's marriage was falling apart, and Amanda had her problems, it just happened. They didn't plan it, but didn't try to stop it either. He messed things up though, she was nothing but supportive after the whole Wilkes thing, but after he was demoted he didn't call her, even though she tried to reach out. He just felt like a failure.

But it wasn't an excuse, he was just great at messing up good things. So that's what he did. Being back at SVU he wanted things to be back to the way there were. He just wasn't sure what Amanda felt, she didn't say anything. He knew he has to talk to her, but he was a little scared to do it, what if she tells him she doesn't want to go back to what they had?

He had to take his mind off of her. He took his phone and dialed.

Amanda was relieved to see Nick had gone home when she returned to the precinct. She knew he would try to question her about the visitor. He's probably already thinking about all kinds of theories. Right now she wanted to be left alone, to think about everything by herself.

She took Frannie for a walk and stopped to get something to eat. Bus she wasn't really hungry.

"What do you think I should do?" she asked Frannie who just looked at her. Amanda took a deep breath and then was pulled a bit by Frannie who seemed to want to keep walking.

After a while they were at a familiar neighborhood, Amanda looked at Frannie, as if she's the one who decided they should go there.

"This is not a good idea" she told her, but still walked to the house and knocked on the door.

She didn't wait too long until he opened the door, he had a surprised look on his face when he saw her.

"Amanda? What are you doing here" Nick asked "is everything alright?" he looked at her and then at Frannie.

"Who is it?" Amanda heard a voice from inside and then she heard someone walking to the door.

"Hey" the boy said when he saw her.

"Gil, I don't think you've met my Ama…colleague, detective Amanda Rollins"

"Nice to meet you" the boy shook her hand and she smiled at him.

"Likewise"

"Your dog is cute" he said as he reached to pet Frannie.

"Yeah, she's great, her name's Frannie" the dog seemed to like the boy too and sniffed him a little.

Nick took the opportunity to ask Amanda if she was alright again.

"I'm fine, I'm so sorry for just showing up like this" she apologized.

"It's okay, come on in, we're just playing video games" he looked at Gil who was still playing with Frannie "he likes her"

"Yeah" Amanda smiled as she looked at them "but I really should go, I'm sorry"

Nick wanted to just grab her and take her inside, but he knew that would not end well. He'll talk to her tomorrow, she clearly wanted to talk.

"We've got to go Gil" Amanda took Frannie's leash.

"Okay, it was nice to meet you" he looked at Amanda "and you too Frannie"

Nick smiled as he watched his son say goodbye to the dog.

"Dad" Gil looked at him "is she your girlfriend?"

Nick was taken aback by the question, he chuckled a bit, but decided to be honest "I'm not sure" he said.

Amanda felt like a fool for showing up at Nick's like that. And with his kid there. She promised herself she wouldn't make the first move. Not because she didn't want to, but because she wanted Nick to be sure he wants this. He was so distant after he was demoted, she thought maybe he didn't want this thing they had to go on. So she didn't push him.

But showing up like this. Not a good idea.

And Gil was there, she was happy for them, they were getting along. She knew it was hard on Nick to find out he has another kid out of the blue. But she never really though about how it made Gil feel. To all of the sudden find out you have a father.

Maybe she should have asked him. Since she was now in a similar position. When she saw the man in the precinct that day, even after all this years, she knew it was him, it was her dad.