PROLOGE

Okay, so, sometimes even the best of us make rash decisions. Decisions we pretty much know we are going to regret the moment, the minute, especially the morning after.

I mean, maybe not regret, because at least you know you saved the person you love.

But...still.

Something inside us decides to do a crazy thing. A thing we know will probably kill us and hurt everybody around us.

Yet, we do it anyway.

Chapter1

I remember when i was a little kid and believed in fairy tales. I was dreaming how my life would turn out – castle, prince charming who would carry me away with his white horse. Now, when i do not believe in this crap, it turns out that my fantasies came true, but they are just slightly different than i dreamed.

The castle, well, it may not be a castle. And it is not so important, when i can have prince charming in my own bed.

And the white horse, well the horse is replaced with a expensive car.

„Bella!" said Edward with a weird expression on his face.

„Mh, what?"

„I have been trying to get your attention for minutes. What were you thinking of?" he asked. Edward always needs to know my thoughts, well why shoul i hide them from him.

„I was thinking about fairy tales" I said honestly.

Edward just laughed and shook his head .

„What??" I asked. I really don´t like when he does that.

„Nothing, I just...I just love you, thats all" said Edward with a smile on his face.

Suddenly Edward pointed to the door and jumped out of the window. Great... Charlie couldn´t pick a better time to wake up.

I came out of the bead and went to take a shower.

I have always wanted to be like others. And i have tried so hard to be an ordinary person. Everyone, who have tried it, know how imbossible this mission is.

When I came out of the shower I was suprised of my own thoughts. I don´t understand where my thoughts are coming from.

„Come down to eat, Bella" yelled Charlie. Does he think that I am deaf. I think the whole Forks just heard him. Charlie put my breakfest on the table and went out of the door to drive to the police station. I just ate and let my mind wander.

To understand myself, I have to go to the beginning. This is possible, I guess. Humans brain is amazing, it can remember everything. Well I just have to make those thoughts come up. That is complicated. It seems i can´t read myself. Thats why i have to ask a question: Why? And after every answer, I have to ask myself the same question over and over again til I reach the beginning.

Argh, my head is going to blow up, I just have to stop thinking. Yeah, right like thats ever going to happen.

Perfect! Someone just rang the doorbell. I wonder who can that be? Yeay, okay you guessed right, its my prince charming on foot.

„Edward I´m coming, wait for a second." I threw my plate into the sink and ran to the door.

Damn, I hit my hand against the wall. Ouch! Great, just wonderful.

Finally I made it to the door.

„Hi, Ed...?"

This was definitely not Edward, but it was a vampire. Fortunately, his eyes were golden.

At least sometimes fate is on my side.

„Hi I´m Chris" said the stranger.

But from experience, i know that fate is a funny thing and it always changes sides. And that sometimes, despite all your best choices and all your best intentions...Fate wins anyway.