CHAPTER-1
"The first step"
The time has arrived. I can't take it anymore. I can't keep this feeling inside me anymore. It's killing me every second. I have been trying to do this 'confession' indirectly for about a week. But Akira ignored it and simply thought, " Mami's just playing around " and pretended he didn't understand anything.
As I don't have the guts to do this love confession in front of him… I decided to text him. I already wrote it. The only thing left was pressing the "send" button. My heart was hammering in my chest. Everything seemed to move in a slow motion. I could feel my heart screaming out.
I closed my eyes and pressed "Enter" in light speed before I changed my mind. I couldn't believe I DID IT ! my heart felt lighter and a bit relieved. But that lasted only for a moment. The next moment I was filled with curiosity, fear and nervousness. Fear of being rejected filled up my heart like poison. What if he rejects me ? Even worse ! What if our friendship comes to an end because of my STUPIDITY ?!
Now I felt even worse than before ! Wish I never sent that message ! or the ground could just open up and swallow me whole ! I don't know what to do now ! All I can do now is just there and wait for his REPLY ! I found myself checking my cell phone every 2 minutes. I can feel my stomach giving twist and turns and tying into a knot. It's already been 2 long hours but still no reply.
The more I wait, the more I feel like killing myself. At last I lose hope of getting a reply and just let it be. Then a miracle happened. My cell phone made a jingling sound. I thought it would be from school or work but when I saw it my heart started hammering again. I knew that I had more chances of being rejected than being accepted but I was ready to take the risk. I was ready to face it….