A/N: This story is inspired by BM:Before Milk by Music of the wind. Although this is a once off, it will be considered cannon to provide some more development in current and future stories. This Story will be continued on March 20th and this first Chapter can be considered a preview.
Alex came home from school feeling sad and confused. It was the day after mothers day, and they had spent the day telling the class what they had done for the mom's. Well everyone except Alex.
Alex just dumped his bag on the ground and dropped himself on his bed, cuddling his bear. It was the only thing that Alex knew came from his mom. He didn't know anything about her, no one ever talked about her, the subject seemed to be taboo around the apartment.
Nat came home from school and found Alex clinging on to his bear.
"Hey Alex, you ok? You look a bit blue," Nat said, Alex wasn't usually the type to get down.
"Hmm, yeah," Alex said looking up from his bear.
"You sure? You look blue," Nat said
"No I don't. We didn't get to play with paint today," Alex said, he enjoyed painting though he always seemed to end up absolutely covered in the stuff.
"No I meant you look down, is something bothering you?" Nat asked .
Alex hugged his bear tighter.
"Do you know what day it was yesterday, Nat?" Alex asked quietly.
"Sunday?" Nat said unsure if that was what Alex was getting at.
"Mothers day," Alex said sadly.
"Alex," Nat said uncomfortably and took of his bag and dropped it on the ground. Nat sat down on Alex's bed and put his arm around him.
"Where is our mom, Nat?" Alex asked feeling empty inside.
Nat wasn't sure how to tell his five year old brother, Alex was extremely young when it happened.
"She's um," Nat said quietly, he had never talked to anyone about his mom since she died. He knew how much it hurt his dad and didn't want to bring it back.
"Does she not love us. Is that why she is not here?" Alex said hugging his bear even tighter still.
"No Alex!" Nat said shocked, "She loved us lots,"
"Then why isn't she here?" Alex asked, school that day had never made him feel so alone, despite the fact that day after day he had watched other kids being picked up by their mom's it was this day that seemed to drive it home.
"Why are you asking this Alex?" Nat asked hugging Alex tighter.
"We had to tell the class what we did for our mom's for mothers day. And everyone else stood up and said all the cool things they did. And then it was my turn, I just stood there until…" Alex said before bursting out crying.
Alex laid down and buried his head in the pillow. It had been bad enough at school, Alex had stood there for five minutes while his teacher tried to coax him into sharing with the class. Alex was never shy like this, but the teacher didn't think about it until Alex suddenly burst out crying and ran out of the class.
Nat didn't know what to say or do. He had assumed that since Alex didn't really know his mom that it wouldn't bother him. Nat instinctively just ran his hand through Alex's hair. He remembered when he was crying his mom would do this to try and calm him down, he hoped it would work on Alex.
"Why don't we have a mom?" Alex sobbed harder into the pillow as Nat futilely tried to calm him down.
Nat tried to calm Alex down, but it took 2 hours before Alex stopped crying, Nat was scared, he had never seen Alex like this before and didn't know how to explain it to Alex. He hoped it would just blow over.
By the time Nat had managed to coax Alex off the bed and out of the room. They saw that Jessie was gone. Jessie had been babysitting until their dad got home.