All right i know that i have no right to start a new story especially because there 2 that i need to update, Don't worry i will, But this idea popped into my head and thanks to my LBL lovers i decided to give it a try, i hope you'll like it,

Chapter 1

Darkness filled the room, you Alexandria Caroline Grrey are still in the bed, naked. You don't even find the strength to cover yourself. You curled up in a ball form, and you still think about when he came home and you were already in bed trying to find some sleep even though you damn know that it's been a long time since your soul and body has found some slight of peace.

A little while ago he ,your boyfriend David came up to and started to caress you and say things that he used to say to you before. But as always you can smell the alcohol on him and just that makes you wanna throw up. But you don't have strength for that either.

You hear him tell you how much he missed you and how much he loves you, you know deep down that he's drunk and that in the morning he won't mean what he said to you the night before. You also know that he's doing this just because he wants a good fuck, get himself lucky, but the problem is that you can't help yourself just to live up the fantasy that one day, he will come to his senses and tell you that he's sorry for all the things he's done to you and that one day you will have your well deserved happily ever after.

So he's kissing you just with passion and desire and you can't bring yourself to stop this. So you kiss him back with all the strength that you've got left. And again you give yourself to him, just like the other times.

When he penetrated you , there is no tender touches, slight kisses, just frantic thrusts which instead of bringing you over the edge of ecstasy, they're giving you pain. Not physical pains, but soul pain.
You don't know how to explain it, but you realized with each thrusts, your heart is aching more and more and wants to get out of your chest and explode in million pieces.

When he's done with you, he doesn't even cuddle with you but just lay down to his side of the bed.
So once again, you feel used, you don't even touch yourself. You want to scream, yell, cry but again you don't find the strength in you. Because you are shattered, broken and you don't want to let him see you like this. So you can still fell the tears wanting to flow, you can feel them on the edge of flowing.

Then, you decided to take a chance and longed for him, but you soon you meet with the coldness of the bed instead of his body. You didn't even feel when he sneaked out of the room.

Still thinking about what happened tonight, you don't know how and why but you start to cry, the tears are flowing ,wetting your pillow at the same think about the time when you were happy, enjoying life together planning projects for the future.
But now you don't even want to wake up in the morning because you have no reason to keep on living.
You also think about when you told him about your father and his alcohol addiction and he swears to you that you would never go through that now you're reliving this nightmare which is even worse now because the man that you love is putting through hell and yet you don't know why you still think deep down in you that he'll change for the better or that you'll wake up and all of this would be a bad dream.

Your father destroyed you but the man under your roof right now is killing your soul little by little. And you don't know how pull to yourself together and leave because you still hope, hope for a change, hope for tomorrow,

I know that was a sad chapter and that Mark wasn't in it but you'll see later where i wanna go with this story i just hope that you'll enjey the ride with me,

Reviews please :-)