A/N: Italics are lyrics.
I do not own Rent, nor do I own "Salt for your wounds" by AFI.
"I can't do this anymore. I'm done, Maureen. Get out." I pushed her out the door. She stumbled backwards, hurt and betrayal gleaming in her eyes, her face was squished up with anger. Her dark orbs pierced mine, I knew she was trying to think of another excuse. It wasn't going to work. She knew what she had done. She wasn't sorry. No matter how many times she said it. No matter how many tears she cried.
Theres a tear in my heart where the blood ran out.
I began to close the door, her pale white face slowly disappearing out of site as the door crept closed. She quickly threw up her left hand and haulted the door from closing.
"Joanne, please! Listen to me!"
Listen to her? Right. How many times before have I listened to her? I'm so sick of her excuses, her lies, her flirting, cheating ways. I'm done with her for good. I feel nothing towards her anymore. I'm numb.
Theres a tear in my heart where the love ran out.
I stood there, the door half closed, her hand still resting on it, fearing at any second, I'd slam it in her face. I pressed my head against the edge of the door, my eyes tightly closed, I felt a headache coming. I wanted to listen to her, but I couldn't make myself. I trusted her. I trusted her to be with me, and only me. She said it in her wedding vows. She wanted no one but me. What a load of shit.
I thought we worked, pushed toward the same ends,
I'll never be so quick to trust again.
"Joanne?" Her voice was soft and comforting, but I wasn't going to fall for her trap.
"Go, Maureen." My voice was stern and low. I meant it. I wanted her gone. Forever.
Her hand pressed on the door, causing it to creek open. Her face came into view. It was red and blotchy from crying. It hurts me to see her like this, it really does. But it hurts even more than she fucked another woman in our house. Did she have no self control? Did she have no love for her own wife?
Disenchanted, disgusted, I regret that I trusted.
I put my faith...
...My faith in you, you poisoned me through and through.
"I'm sorry, Jo. You have to believe me! You're everything to me..I don't want--I can't loose you!"
She was clearly lying. I'm a lawyer. I see past all the lies. Despite how amazing her acting skills were, I see past her; I see inside of her. I know she's just saying this because she doesn't want to be alone. She knows that all of her other affairs will have nothing to do with her. They're just like her. They just want a one time fuck, and they move on to the next. No strings attatched.
I though we both shared the same injuries.
Now I've found it's you who injures me.
"Goodbye, Maureen." And with that, I pushed her one last time, this time with more force. I watched her stumble back again, I took one last look at her before slamming the door shut.
Tears threatened to live outside my eyes, and I let them. I let them fall freely down my face, and die on my lips.
It was over.
The salt to my exposed wounds was gone. I never had to hurt again.
Hm, okay. So, this came from no where, really. I've had a horrible month and I guess this was my release. Review if you want. Tell me how much you liked or hated it.