Summary: What if Bella gave in to Jacob, when he kissed her, just for a night? What if she gets way more then she bargained for? What about Edward? Rated M.. a twist on Eclipse. My FIRST ever Fan Fic, or writing for that matter. Not a one-shot. more chaps to come. R and R plz.
" His lips crushed mine, stopping my protest. He kissed me angrily, roughly, his other hand gripping tight around the back of my neck, making escape impossible. I shoved against his chest with all my strength, but he didn't even seem to notice. His mouth was soft, despite the anger, his mouth molding to mine in a warm, unfamiliar way. I grabbed at his face, trying to push it away, failing again. He seemed to notice this time, though, and it aggravated him. His lips forced mine open, and I could feel his hot breath in my mouth. Acting on instinct, I let my hands drop to my side, and shut down. I opened my eyes and didn't fight, didn't feel... Just waited for him to stop. It worked. The anger seemed to evaporate, and he pulled back to look at me. He pressed his lips softly to mine again, once, twice...a third time. I pretended I was a statue and waited. Finally, he let go of my face and leaned away..." Eclipse, Chapter 15, Page 300-331.
As he leans back and looks me in the eyes, I realize three things; the pleading, the hint of happiness, and that I DO love him. I can see us, what our life can be together. The warmth, happiness and the love. I can see that but, its not enough. Seeing the pain in his eyes, starts to break my heart. He has given me so much, that its time to be that selfless person everyone sees me as. For him, Jacob, my son.
" Jake, I love you I do, with all my heart. Hurting you, hits me hard all the way to my core. I'm with Edward, maybe if things were different when I moved here and it was you who captured my heart first there would be not a doubt in my mind. But.." I try to explain, but he cuts me off.
" Bella, please just give me a chance, you admitted yourself, you love me. All I'm asking is for a chance, to give you what your leech cant. Please. Just one night. Just to be us, you and me. Jacob and Bella. No Edward, no vampires, heck no werewolves for that matter. Please." He pleads with me, reaching his hand out and cupping my face. Pleading with hes eyes.
I sigh and think to myself. For everything he has done for me, and everything I have done to him. I owe him this. This one night...because I love him...I do.
" Okay. Okay Jacob. Just for a night, I'm yours. Just tonight" I whisper, ordering the tears welling in my eyes to stay at bay. He sighs and a warm smile graces his beautiful face.
" That's all I'm asking for...for now."
With that he pulls my body to his and press his lips to mine. This kiss was different. It was warm and passionate. Sweet. I didn't fight it this time, I let my self feel this, his love, that he is pouring into this kiss. Before I know it my body wakes up and response to his arms around me. His warm chest pressed against mine. I can feel his heart beating in time with mine. His tongue begging for entrance, and I let him in. This is my first real kiss, yes I've kissed Edward but this is different, with Edward it was guarded, no passion. this kiss stirred up something in me, not sure what but its there.
He pulls away, with that smile I love so much, there's my Jacob. My son.
" Come on baby, lets go to my place. My dad and Charlie went away for a overnight camping and fishing trip in the mountains. So we don't have to worry, just us, Jacob and Bella. Remember. If I only have one night I'm going to make it one the both of us will never forget."
With that, we set off to his place, hand and hand. I'm trying to clear my head of nothing but Jacob, I owe him that much. Then I remember, Edward. What am I going to tell him. He was not happy about me spending the day in La Push, let alone spending the night or with Jacob period for that matter.
As if Jacob can read my mind, he ask, " What are you going to do about your blood sucker? Don't want him to worry" I can tell hes rolling his eyes.
"I'll just text him and let him know I wont be home." I was too afraid to call. I don't know why, I know he will be upset but why should I be afraid for someone, I love.
" Yeah, that's going to go over well. Don't you think he's kind of controlling? I mean come on..." I cut him off before he can finish.
" Jake, I thought today was about us. Jacob and Bella, remember?" I don't want to have to think about Edward, at the moment. He just smile and says, " Your right. Just you and me, baby. You and me."
When we reach his house, I excuse myself to bathroom. I sigh and sit down on the toilet and pull out my phone. Its now or never. I send HIM a text.
" Staying out in La push tonight, don't worry, I'm safe, I'll call you tomorrow. Love you."
It took me a few, but I finally pressed, "Send". Since I used the excuse that I a needed to use the bathroom, I decided I should. As I was washing my hands, my phones starts dancing along the counter. Edward.
" Bella, I don't think that's a good idea, come to the boundary line, and I'll pick you up"
Sigh, did he really think I was going to just jump up and do what he said and when he said it? This has got to stop, I'm giving up so much and still he treats me like a child.
" No Edward, I said I'm staying please respect that, I'm not a child, I'm a grown woman and I can do, What I want. okay. Now I love you. I'll talk to your tomorrow, I will catch a ride with Charlie, when he gets back from his trip."
I started to get upset, when I pressed "Send". Wow its like I have two fathers now, I love Edward, but this has got to stop. Things have got to change, wither he likes it or not. I do what I want. Just then my phone starts vibrating again, but it wasn't a text. Edward was calling. I push the bitch button as Jake colorfully puts it, and send a text.
" I said TOMORROW, Damn it!" with that I slam my phone down and power it down. Just Bella and Jacob. I repeat in my head. over and over.
I exit the bathroom and find warm sodas and popcorn on the coffee table in the living room. Jacob's back is to me as he looks over the DVD self.
" Hey, I'm back. what are you doing?" I said him when he turns around and notice I'm standing there.
" Oh well since, its getting a bit late and you already ate, I thought we can chill out here and watch a movie." He smiles warmly at me, but he seems a bit nervous, I would be lying if I said I wasn't either.
After he pops in the DVD, we get settled on the couch. We start off the movie sitting a few inches apart. I can feel Jake peering at me from the corner of his eyes. After a while, laughing and getting into the movie, I end up with my legs across his lap and my head laying on his chest, with his arm around me. I'm practically sitting on his lap... Later I can not concentrate on the movie anymore, all I can think about it the very warm hand that is currently rubbing up and down my back. Again more things or feeling are awaking in my body. I need this..this warmth I'm feeling building up inside me, all from this boy, no, man, right next to me. Edward has never stirred up this much in me before. I want more. I need more.
I bring my hand to his chest, slowly rubbing up and down, to the same time the heat is rubbing on my back. Innocent enough right? Right, but I still need more. I snuggle up to the nook of this neck, yawning, pretending I'm tired and falling asleep. I take a deep breath, and his sent fills my nostrils, making my eyes roll in the back of my head. GOD! He smells good. Like a summer breeze in the woods. So warm and woodsy. Goodness me, I start getting a tingly feeling starting my belly down to my lady parts. God! Why have I not smelt this man before. I'm getting wet just from his smell.
As I finish that thought, I feel his heart skip a beat and hear a low groan escape slip from his mouth. Can he tell I'm turned on? Oh god, can he smell my arousal? Stupid fucking werewolves and vampires, and their super since of smell. Oh wait, there is no vampires or werewolves, just Jacob and Bella, even if its just for a night.
Then a thought crosses my mind, I know I'm not suppose to be thinking about vampires, or Edward for that matter, but, this might be the last chance I have to have the one human experience I actually want. Waiting on Edward, I'll be old and gray. I shudder at the thought. Jake must of thought I was cold, he pulls me tighter to his body.
I could do this, for him, but for me too. Once again I owe him this much if not my life. Right there I made up my mind, I will deal with the consequences tomorrow. Tonight...Just me and Jacob.
With my mind set, I pull my head away from Jacob, and look him dead in the eye. I can see the love and confusion in his eyes.
"Jacob. I love you. I want to give you something, something that only you can have, not even Edward, just you."
I stand up and grab his hand leading him out the living room, down the hall to his room. When we enter, I close the door behind me and have him sit on the bed.
"Bella? what is it, you look like your gonna lose it?" he looks at me. Haha funny he should use those words exact words. I thought. I walk up to him slowly and stand between his legs, now he's definitely confuse. I take a deep breath. I'm ready, I can do this.
"Jacob..I want you..." I stop and think to myself... this is it.
" What Bella? what to you want? You really starting to freak me out here." He chuckles nervously.
I take a look in his eyes. I see how much love is there for me. My mom always told me, when I was ready make sure it was with someone I love and that person loves me back. In this case, I do love him but is it enough, I don't know. But I know he loves me.
" Jacob, I want you.. to make love to me." I finally say it out loud in the open.
" Bella do you know what your saying? What your asking? Are you sure?...What about Ed-" I cut him off. I know what he's going to say.
" Don't...say his name. Just you and me Jake I'm sure, I'll deal with him tomorrow. Tonight is just about us. Make love to me Jacob Black, I love you, I want YOU to be my first. Make love to me" He stands and pushes me back, then starts to pace back and forth.
"Bella..I...You...Edward.." he sighs and stops with his hands in his hair. " If I wanted too lose my virginity to Edward I would wait, but I want you to have it, something no one can take away from you not even Edward. Let me give you a part of me, even something this small. Jake please let me show you that I do love. Please Jake let me give this to you"
By the end of my little rant, I realize there are tears running down my cheeks before I can stop them. So I drop my gaze to the floor. Next thing I know that warmth I crave so much is back. He grabs my face in his hand and wipe my tears way.
" Okay, Bella. If your sure, yes... I know you love me and I love you so much that I will take any part of you that you give me."
With that he tilts my chin up, and looks me in the eyes for doubt I'm guess, but he wont find it. When he was satisfied, he crashes his soft warm lips to mine and I immediately open myself up to him. Letting him have all of me, even if its just for a night.