November rain
The rain was falling frosty and ruthless on the bleak blue anti-fairy world, flailing with hatred the windows of the sad buildings. A low thunder shook the houses and icy white lightings illumed the dark night. A cold wing passed through the ebony leaves and entered hissing into Anti-Cosmo's sombre castle.
'A.C.…please, don't go… don't leave me alone…please…not anymore…I beg you…' Cosmo begged softly while warm tears were falling from his closed eyes.
'Cosmo…' he spoke softly when a sudden pain came to his noble heart, making him hold his counterpart tighter in his arms. 'Cosmo…Cosmo, please, don't cry…' he said with a wracked voice 'Cosmo, please… stop… stop, I beg you, because if you cry…' Anti-Cosmo's emerald globes shone more little by little 'because if you cry… 'Anti-Cosmo felt crimson drop of blood dripping from his heart down to the midnight-coloured glossy floor of his black soul. ' if you cry …' cold little swords pierced through his pained heart. 'I will cry too!!' his arm tightened even more around Cosmo holding him close, while bitter painful tears slipped down his fine face.
As Cosmo felt the coldness of his tears, he himself hold close, but couldn't help his breath becoming harsh and heavy every moment passing more.
Cosmo slowly raised his head to look into Anti-Cosmo's lambent eyes.
'AC…I'm so sorry…' he couldn't stand the aching pain who flew through his whole body. He twitched as a silver sword trespassed him merciless and started trembling, trying to hold Anti-Cosmo tight frantically, grasping with his nails, but losing the grip several times like he was searching for air in smothering terribly in a frore ocean.
Anti-Cosmo closed his eyes and hold him closer, caressing his check with his own, terribly scared by Cosmo's ceaseless quivering.
His hand moved slowly up along his back to dig itself in his green hair and lovingly caress it.
'you have no reason to be sorry.' Spoke Anti-Cosmo gently into his ear, feeling the urge to comfort his dearest counterpart.
He was almost sure cosmo felt better, when he let out a sad sob. Anti-Cosmo frowned and with his middle finger under his chin made the weak fairy look at him. He budged his wet hair from his moist face and stared concerned in his blank eyes, looking for an answer.
Cosmo's face suddenly twitched in pain and he attempt to bow and look away, but ac forced him to look in his green emerald eyes.
He saw Cosmo's expression became painfully desperate, tears falling like blood down his cheek and his aching heart beating sorely, trying to escape from his ribcage while his breathing turned into choking.
In confused fear, anti-cosmo grabbed Cosmo's arms, but he could only hear his shirt ripping by the extremely tight grip the fairy had had on it and see his white knuckles still holding pieces of cloth in them.
'Cosmo! Cosmo!' he screamed shaking him in desperation really not knowing what to do, but Cosmo's face became only even more sadder and tears fell down his cheeks unstoppable.
For the first time in his whole life Anti-Cosmo felt himself useless.
In trying not to let the pain come out, he gritted his teeth and his face assumed a dread immensely sad look.
He felt suddenly extremely weak and abandoned his arms along his body, bowing his head, his eyes staring blank at the cold marble floor.
Cosmo grew worried but felt not able to do anything, when his heart beat slowly pumping all the crimson blood in and then out like in a marvellous passionate waltz.
His hands went up to caress gently Anti-Cosmo's cheeks and there rested, their warmth spreading around, the same tender warmth than make the children come to life and teach them what is the true happiness.
Anti-Cosmo slowly raised his head, breathing heavily but peacefully. His eyes were still searching in the fairy's ones a reason for his bitter tears, when he saw a slight sweet smile drawn through the tears of Cosmo's face.
Anti-Cosmo couldn't say why he closed his eyes when Cosmo leaned on and softly kissed him on his lips. 'Cosmo…' he murmured sweetly, still not understanding what was the weird magic happening between them.
Cosmo trembled slightly caressing Anti-Cosmo's cheek with the back of his hand, the other lightly pressing itself on his body going down to eventually rest on his chest.
Cosmo's smile seemed to fade away, when he tilted his head down to kiss his anti delicately on his abyss-coloured lips again. as cosmo was about to shift, Anti-Cosmo leaned to extend the kiss, his hands holding him closer and closer.
Slowly they let their tongues touch, passion growing at each mouthful.
Cosmo's hand moved from his lover chest up through his hair, stroking them while deepening the kiss. His legs went on searching for Anti-Cosmo's body heat, like they were alone freezing in a cold white wood in winter. Even the time stopped his run to let them stay together the most possible.
Anti-Cosmo's intense kisses and mellow caresses finely let his dearest lover calm down, but couldn't stop the tears falling from his closed eyes.
Their kisses died slowly on their enamoured lips.
Cosmo's sweet smile became wider when, for the first time after years, he saw Anti-Cosmo perfectly happy. As the anti stroked his lips finely, the fairy felt his heart smiling. It was like the spring has blossomed again through them.
They didn't need words to talk, their glossy eyes were like ancient books already read that have always something to say.
Cosmo leaned on with closed eyes and rubbed his cheek against Anti-Cosmo's neck like a kitty then shifting sinuously to his lips, leaving behind a soft trace of slight kisses. He breathed in his breath a bit before moving away a few centimetres. Anti-Cosmo had never been in such a serene mood.
Everything seemed to be alright. Even the rain outside has stopped, and the cold shadows weren't scary at all, but it seemed they wanted to keep them in their care.
A last soft tear fell down from Cosmo's globes and shattered on Anti-Cosmo's hand.
'Cosmo…' he gently murmured 'tears are like diamonds. You can't use them to pay cheap things.'
Cosmo's smile faded as he swallowed once. He took a deep breath before speaking 'AC… I… you… you came here to comfort me and… and I… and I wish I had never fallen in love with you!' he cried before sad sobs took away his breath.
Anti-Cosmo looked at the fairy startled. He had never thought that something like this could happen. Yes, they had kissed each other, but… and now he was staring at his counterpart destroying himself little by little by loving him.
His thoughts were still confused, when he loses completely control of himself and went towards him, really caring about his feelings, and took his hands in his own. As cosmo bowed his head he slowly took the rose-coloured hands towards him, making them rest crossed on his chest.
There was no noise around, no sound, nothing. Only Anti-Cosmo's heartbeat.
Cosmo raised his head and looked at his hands behind his counterpart's.
'AC…'Cosmo whispered frowning.
'sssh…' Anti-Cosmo said back. 'can you hear it?' he asked with a gentle smile.
Cosmo kept silent for a bit and nodded.
'Yes…' he responded. Anti-cosmo smiled serenely.
'It's yours.'
Cosmo hugged him suddenly, shaking his head against his chest. ' I love you, AC! I love you! I've always loved you!' but when cosmo raised his head there was only pain on his twitched face. 'but I can't love you'.
Anti-Cosmo stiffened. He didn't have to ask why, he already knew the answer. Everybody knew.
He glanced at Cosmo, his finger budged gently his hair behind his ear.
'we can't love each other, Cosmo. But if it was only for a night, if I was allowed to have you as mine only for a night, if I only could touch you, make you scream, mine for a long desperate cold night, I would break any rules. I would do anything for you, Cosmo.'
Anti-Cosmo looked dreamingly at his lover. 'anything…'
'I want, AC. I want it with every single little part of my fairy being, but I can't! and you can't too. And we can do nothing about it, AC. We can't.' cosmo cried, resisting the urge of tightening the hug. 'we can't…' he whispered sobbing.
'why are there rules?' Anti-Cosmo asked abruptly.
'what?' his sighs stopped.
'why are there rules, cosmo? Why they made up them, why must we follow them?' Anti-Cosmo repeated.
'I think rules are made to help people' Cosmo answered after a bit.
'that is right, Cosmo. And why would someone like to help others?' Anti-Cosmo asked then.
'because he has a gigantic heart.' Cosmo replied.
'and what does one with a gigantic heart wish the other to be?' Anti-Cosmo questioned.
'I think he would like the other to be happy…' Cosmo said back, then raised his head to glance at him.
'why are you asking me those things?' he had a confused look on his face.
'cosmo, would you make love with me?' Anti-Cosmo asked suddenly making Cosmo blush hard both in shame and anger.
'do you really find so funny me not being allowed to love you?' Cosmo cried offended.' I thought you were different, but I was wrong. You're only a monster who likes to torture others!' he added.
'and you're a twit that fell in love with me.' he replied.
'sorry, I can't help it!' Cosmo screamed back angrily.
' are you happy now, Cosmo?' he asked.
'what?'
'are you happy now, Cosmo?' he repeated.
'w-what do you mean?' Cosmo felt a shudder running through his back at the coldness of his counterpart.
'are you happy now that we're arguing like they told us to do? Are you happy now that you're behaving like a fairy, hating me because I'm your anti? Are you happy that we live separated and you have to ask permission to meet me? Are you happy that you can't love me?' Anti-Cosmo almost shouted in his face.
Cosmo looked away. A heavy silence fell between them.
'no.' he whispered.
'what?' Anti-Cosmo teased to test the truth of what he had said.
'no, AC. I'm not happy.' He said louder.
Anti-Cosmo shifted fast towards him and tenderly caressed his cheek. 'then, why don't you give it a chance?'
'AC, I…' cosmo started saying, but he was silenced by his finger placed on his lips.
'please…' Anti-Cosmo whispered in his ear kissing his cheek gently.
'A-AC…' cosmo said in a breath as his anti pressed his knee between his legs. 'n-no, stop…please…'
'I know you want this…' Anti-Cosmo whispered.
'please, I can't…' Cosmo spoke softly.
Anti-Cosmo slowly let him go and got away a few steps.
'w-what?...'Cosmo asked.
'you wanted me to stop, am I wrong?' Anti-Cosmo said smirking.
'stop?…oh, ehm…yeah…' Cosmo said clumsily, a hint of red appeared on his cheeks.
Anti-Cosmo merely glanced at him before stepping away.
'where are you going?' Cosmo asked confused.
No answer came.
'AC, wait! Don't leave me here!' he stood up and ran towards the anti climbing the stairs.
He went upstairs and the last thing he could see was Anti-Cosmo's wings disappearing in a dark room.
A bit frightened, he walked towards the room. It seemed having the darkness in itself, neither the light coming from the corridor penetrated inside.
Trembling by fear, cosmo put an hand in the darkness an saw it disappearing. Horrified, he shuddered as he heard a distant male voice calling him from the black.
Terrified, he leaned against the opposite wall trembling.
'Do I love ac that much?' he wondered. He stepped towards the door and entered.
'yes.'