My Andre…
He was laying there, on his bed, and she was sitting there, on the chair beside his bed…
-you should take a rest, mademoiselle Oscar…you're hurted too…-said the old woman was standing
-I'm fine nanny…you are the one who should rest…you was taking care of us all night…
-but…
-don't worry, just leave all this to me…-she said with a smile, a sad smile, verry sad…and her nanny know how stubborn she is
Now Oscar was alone just sit there…her body was full of contusion, it's hurt, but she didn't care…the man was laying there was the only thing in her mind…
What did I say? My Andre?...my Andre…Andre…
The doctor said he's ok, but he lost too much blood…Andre…I remember what I said "he's not a noble, leave him alone!" but they didn't listen to me…and I remember what he said "run, Oscar, run…" and I ran, how could I? left him like that? How could I? No, no, that wasn't my fault…I was faint and Fersen had saved me…Oh Oscar, how could you? That's definitely your fault! He had never left you, he was always with you…no matter how unreasonable you was, no matter how coldly you pushed him away, he would always be with you, he would always come near you…quietly, too quiet… too quiet for you to realize how his present was important to you… Oscar, how could you?
I though you was the only thing that was etenal in this world…now I'm afraid I was wrong…he's still sleeping, a very deep sleep…his eyes was closed…his eye, his death eye…he lost his eye because of me, because of my stupid idea…and he said he really glad that wasn't my eye…Oh, Andre…how could I just left you like that? I cried when Fersen gone to America, but I never afraid I might lose him…how can I lost him when he wasn't mine? But Andre…I never thought I might lose you, never…you was always beside me…it was normal to have you by my side, even I told you that you aren't my servant anymore, that you don't have to be with me, that you can do whatever you want to do…and you was still there when I turn around…you was still there…oh, Andre…please, open your eye…please be with me again…please open your eye, Andre…my Andre…