Sinning.
(I was taught the meaning as a child.)
It's become natural to me.
Like breathing.
(just easier.)
But all this sinning..
(It's building up.)
Making it harder for me to breathe.
But, it's what other people are doing.
(Do I want to blend in? Or stand out?)
I feel like I'm suffocating.
(just because I'm "not perfect.")
…
No.
It's because I didn't care.
(didn't? right, I do care now.)
I do care. I want my life back.
(Give it back.)
I want to be innocent and pure again.
(How I was before I gave in.)
I want to be able to breathe again.
…
God,
Be my inhaler.
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