I didn't expect life to turn out like this. I didn't expect to be sitting here at your bedside, watching you struggle to take another breath. There were supposed to be so many other things that I could watch you do.

I wanted to watch you grow old alongside me.
I wanted to watch you send our child off to school.
I wanted to watch you hold our newborn baby. I wanted to watch you accept your first award.
I wanted to watch you walk down the aisle towards me, dressed all in white.
I wanted to watch you freak out when I proposed.
I wanted to watch you see our first apartment together.
I wanted to watch you walk into your first college class.
I wanted to watch you cannonball into the pool at my graduation party.
I wanted to watch you walk across the stage to accept that diploma.
I wanted to watch you come down the stairs in a gorgeous dress for our prom.
I wanted to watch you open that acceptance letter to college.
I wanted to watch you unwrap the Christmas present that's already in my closet at home.
I wanted to watch you march into school the first day of senior year.
I wanted to watch you accept the promise ring I had for you at the end of summer party.
I wanted to watch you GET to the end of summer party.

But instead...

Instead I watched the blood drain from the face of every other Glee club member when we got the call.
Instead I watched the EMTs load you into the back of the ambulance.
Instead I watched the towtruck haul away the mess left of your car, because I was late and didn't pick you up.
Instead I watched the doctor's come out and tell us that there wasn't much time.
Instead I watched the club members one by one come and say goodbye, leaving me for last.
Instead I watched the one person who has supported me no matter what slip away.

I'm home now. Someone from the club is downstairs, making sure that I stay here and don't freak out and run. I don't know where I'd go anyway. So I sit here and stare at our pictures. Each one of them tells a story, tells OUR story. And there will never be another taken. The camera that was ready and waiting to capture your face when you saw the banner our friends had ready for you is actually broken. Quinn dropped it when we got the call. The banner, however, is laying across my bed. I'm going to make sure it's up at the funeral, however weird people might think it is, because I never got to watch you see it, but it was something I know you wanted to see.

"Brittany and Santana: Together, Forever."