Parting Words

One-shot of Mikan and Natsume of course

Mikan = Normal

Natsume = Italics

Both = Underline

You would tease me, hurt me, sexually harass me and burn my hair. Basically you were mean to me. You would never say 'I love you' or 'I miss you'. You would always smirk at me and act like an arrogant, obnoxious guys with your nose so high up in the air that you couldn't see the ground. You were so filled with darkness and despair that you locked your heart away in a cage and created a fire wall around it ensuring no one could break through...

But you doused out that fire and broke through. You were the only one who annoyed me so much that I still couldn't help loving you. You were happy, so happy that your stupid smile etched into my mind. Your ridiculous laughter was and still is my favourite sound in the world. Your naivety makes me mad and frustrated... and a bit happy as well I guess. Your stupidity had no end just like your bottomless pit of a stomach. The way you attracted and enticed everyone amazed me and angered me. You captured everyone's heart and the only one who ever fully touched my heart in this way.

You're stupid and sly.

Annoying and loud.

Rude and obnoxious.

Stupid and cute.

Secretive and charming.

Sweet and sour...

And now gone.

You died for my sake. Trying to be the big and stupid hero, you saved my life. Not just that night but many times before, but now you're gone. Gone from my life physically. Spiritually you're always with me... but it's not the same.

I never regretted saving you. Not even once. I saved your life a few times but compared to the countless times you saved mine… The only thing I regret is not being able to keep my promise.

You said you'd always stay by my side to catch my tears and hug me when I'm down. Even though after that incident you denied the fact that you ever said it and every time you do comfort me, you would say it's annoying, but your voice was gentle as well as your eyes.

I can't talk to you anymore. All I can do is watch you go on with your life everyday with smiles and laughter, but at night when no one can see you except me I notice you crying... crying for me. I wish I could stop those running tears. I don't want you to cry for me. I want you to smile when you remember me and laugh and do your stupid little smile. I wish I could help you again, hold you again. Not one more time but many times.

I want you to hold me again. To be held by you and your warm protective embrace, not just because of your fire alice mind that. It hurts without you here. We were supposed to grow old together. You promised me that as well. Not in those exact words of course but in your special mean way. We didn't even make it past high school together. Apparently your health was getting worse anyway and you only had a few months to live, according to the teachers. Now I'm in the clutches of the high school principal without you by my side, Without me saying properly…

Goodbye.