A/N: This is just a drabble/one shot about the relationship between Sasuke and Naruto from Naruto POV. Hope you like!
Guilt
I look at you everyday. I feel your body with my fingertips every night. I see you scowl ever minute and your smirk every hour. I kiss when you want me to and make love to you when you beg. I smile for you when I'm happy and I smile even wider when I'm sad. I try my very hardest, Sasuke, you know I do. You said that given time, I can learn to love you like you do, but I can't.
I can't love you, not like that. I love you like a friend and a brother, but not as a lover. You will always have a place in my heart. Whenever you need me, I'll be here and waiting. You snuggle closer to me; your arms are wrapped around my waist in a protective embrace. I sigh and look down at you pale, sleeping face. You look so innocent and vulnerable in this state. A state you have only allowed me to see. You save all your smiles for me alone, even all your laughter and tears. I wish with all my heart and soul and with every fiber of my being, that I can return your love for me.
When we are in bed together, I let you control our love making. You kiss and bite and scratch and suck and I let you. I feel guilty that you love me so much and I can never feel the same. I pretend that I love you that way, because not only does it satisfy you, but it gives me a sense of peace. I know that I may never get a chance to show my feelings to the one I really desire. Everyone knows about our 'relationship'. I saw the sadness and disappointment flicker quickly through her pale eyes and then a sense of understanding. I gave up everything for your happiness, Sasuke and honestly I don't know why. Maybe it was because it was the first time I ever saw tears in your obsidian eyes and heard pleas roll off your tongue. I felt my heart break and shatter in a million pieces when I saw you like that.
Secretly, I would have preferred your stoic attitude and nonchalant gaze. Emotion coming from you just makes me feel even guiltier and I'm sorry. That's all I could say these days, I'm sorry. When I can't love you enough, "I'm sorry."
When it seems as though I hurt you, "I'm sorry."
When I can't make you smile, "I'm sorry."
Those words help me alleviate the pent up grief inside and the endless guilt that weighs heavy on my mind every day.
You kiss my temple in your sleep and mumble, "I love you, Naru." The guilt just eats me up even more, and if you wanted to kill me, I would let you. My dear Sasuke, what I feel for you isn't a lover's love, but an overwhelming sense of guilt, and there's no hope that it'll ever go away.
A/n: I know it's short, but that's exactly what makes it a drabble. The one that Naruto loves is actually Hinata (in case you didn't kno). I don't know how well written it is, so flames are welcomed at this point (plz don't take advantage). Anything you have to say is always read and taken into consideration (if it is advice). I LOVE YOU!!
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