title is from the song see you again by tyler the creator ft. kali uchis
'maybe if you weren't a boy...' whispered sirius.
'what's wrong with me being a boy, pads?' remus asked in an equally low voice. he stroked the other boy's hair, who leaned into the touch, eyes dripping close.
'i can't do this to reg... he-he can't have a brother who likes boys,' sirius' voice cracked. 'i can't be gay, remus.'
'i'm sorry you feel like this. how can i help?' remus slipped both his hands into sirius' hair, slowly massaging his scalp.
'just... just do whatever you do, moons.'
remus slid his hands to the back of sirius' neck, using his thumbs to lightly tilt his face and leaned in enough for their breaths to ghost on each other's lips. 'tell me to stop,' he whispered, before softly pressing his lips to sirius' who seemed to have tensed for a second before immediately relaxing into the kiss.
'tell me to stop,' remus muttered as he pressed a kiss to the corner of sirius' lips, and then to both of his cheeks, his forehead, his nose and then back on his lips.
he cupped the other boy's face and felt wetness, with a startle, remus pulled back. 'pads, what-'
'don't,' sirius choked. 'don't stop, please. please, remus.'
remus let out a breath he didn't know he was holding. 'okay,' he said, softly. he moved to cup sirius' face again and slowly kissed away his tears and his wet eyes. he kissed away the frown on sirius' face into a small smile, he kissed away his worries and anxieties until all sirius could think about was remus and remus' hands on him and remus' soft, soft lips sliding against his own and how finally everything seemed to make sense.
hello this is my first ever wolfstar fic thing lmao hope u all like it ! feedback is really appreciated !