My take on what happened to Morgana in the year between season 2 and 3 and what made her so evil. It is about how Morgause corrupted and manipulated her, and how she was betrayed.

Disclaimer: I do not own Merlin, but I do love it extremely much!

Note: The first chapter is the scene from 2x12, where Merlin poisons Morgana.

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Full of Regrets

Merlin turned to Morgana.

"Here, have some water." He urged her, handing her a pouch of poisoned water.

Morgana looked up at him and shook her head. "I'm not thirsty." She replied.

Merlin tried to think of a half decent excuse to convince her to drink it.

"If we get out of here you may not get another chance to drink."

"If we get out of here." She said with a lot of doubt.

Both Merlin and Morgana heard Arthur yell from outside the throne room. Merlin walked towards the two doors down the other end of the room, handing Morgana the pouch of poisoned water. She threw it down beside her and continued to tear the cloth. Merlin picked up the pouch as he walked back, thinking of another way he could convince her to drink it.

He turned his back to Morgana and pretended to drink from the pouch. He wondered if she was even paying attention. He turned back to face her and handed her the pouch.

"Here." he said.

"I'm fine." She refused.

"No, no, you have some before I finish it." He urged.

She looked up with him with a smile and took it from his hand.

"Thank you." She said. Her green eyes looked straight into his blue eyes.

She took the lid of the pouch and started gulping the poisoned water down her throat. Merlin watched her drink down the poison, but then couldn't bear to watch. He turned so he wasn't facing Morgana, and started wiping the tears streaming down his face with the sleeve of his brown jacket.

She finished the water and placed the empty pouch beside her. Within seconds the poison was kicking in. First, she coughed. It sounded like she was just clearing her throat after drinking a large amount of water, but Merlin knew that she wasn't. She then grabbed onto her neck and began to gasp for air, realising what had just happened. Realising that Merlin had betrayed her, and poisoned her. Her lips were quivering, and tears were sitting in her eyes. She started gasping more and more. She was struggling to breathe.

Merlin wiped even more tears from his face. He turned around and crouched down to Morgana. She was absolutely terrified of him, herself, of everything. She was crying as she was gasping for air. Merlin tried to pull her into his arms and hold her, but she began fighting him away with the little bit of strength left in her. Eventually, it became too much for her and she became too weak. She clenched onto the shoulder of his jacket, turned around, and sunk into his arms.

Merlin couldn't watch anymore. He looked up, his arms wrapped around Morgana. Still gasping for air, her face was going paler and sweat was dripping down her forehead. She took her final breath, and every motion in her just stopped. The tears on her face began to dry up.

Still holding on to her, with regret in his eyes, Merlin had realised what he had just done. He realised that she was dead, and he was the one to kill her.

Sensing her sister's distress, Morgause destroyed one of the doors to the throne room, and ran over to her sister, who was lying dead in Merlin's arms.

Morgause dropped to her knees and snatched Morgana from Merlin. "What has he done to you?!" she asked.

"I had to." Merlin panted.

"You poisoned her," Morgause said with shock.

Merlin stood up. "You gave me no choice."

"Tell me what you used and I can save her!" Morgause begged, looking down on Morgana.

"First, stop the attack!" Merlin responded.

Morgause looked up at him like he was crazy. "You're nothing but a simple servant, you won't tell me what to do!"

"If you want to know what poison it is, you will undo the magic that drives the knights!" Merlin said firmly.

"Tell me the poison or you'll die!" Morgause demanded.

"But she'll die with me" Merlin stated.

Morgause started to tear up. She looked down and hugged her sister.

"I don't want this anymore than you." Merlin said. "But you give me no choice."

Morgause looked up at him.

"Stop the knights, and you can save her."

Morgause said a spell that caused the knights of Medhir to collapse onto the ground.

Merlin showed her the bottle of Hemlock which he used to poison Morgana. Morgause took it from his hands.

Arthur ran into the throne room. "What have you done with my father?" he yelled.

"He's safe!" Merlin told him.

Uther started to wake up, although he was unaware of what was going on around him.

"Morgana!?" Arthur yelled.

"Keep away from her!" Morgause ordered.

Arthur got ready to strike at Morgause.

Whilst holding Morgana, Morgause said a spell which caused both Morgana and herself disappeared.

Uther, now aware of what is happening, ran over to try and save Morgana from being taken by Morgause, but by then they had already disappeared.

Morgana was gone.