He was there. He looked happy. Never did I see that happy expression in his face. Not once. Not when he's.

With me.

I can never make him happy like how Rei-chan can make him happy. I should be happy too. I gave my love his freedom to love the one he truly did love. I don't deserve to be with him. He's just too.

Too perfect.

I'm just a clutz, ditz, whiny airhead girl who eats worse than a pig. I know my love won't give him what he craved for. I can never love him like how Rei-chan loves him. I know I should be happy for them but I.

Can't help.

But.

Cry.

He never did love me. I don't blame him. No one can love a horrible creature like me. Yet, I love him so much. I would gladly give him my life just like how Serenity did for Endymion but he will just.

Refused it.

Saying my life is worthless and he has no business with it. No, he wasn't that cruel. But it's just like how it will be. My life is worthless.

I'm worthless.

I know he loves Serenity. But not me. I'm no princess. I'm not whom he is inlove with. He loves the princess I was not the girl I am. Theres a big difference between past and now. Princess and a common girl. Serenity and Usagi-baka. How can he love me? Its just me who loves him. And shame on me, I forced him to love me to by using destiny. I want him to be happy even if it.

Hurts.

Now I looked at him far of corner. I wish he knew just how much I love him. I will never gonna see him ever again. I cant live without him. I tried, it just wont work.

I looked at our picture together. We looked happy. But we both know that its all for naught, yet.

I love you Mamo-chan. Maybe you hurt me, but it doesn't matter. That wont change how I feel for you.

Tittle: Love Denied 09-03-2002 ~ 8:45 - 8:57 pm