Got it Memorized?
The darkness surrounds me, oppresses me. I am not alone because I am with Sora, yet I am yearning for someone, someone who's not here. I remember getting my heart back, becoming one with Sora again. But it felt like I lost it, or it broke but not. Because Sora's heart is whole, but my "heart" broke, but not Sora's, his felt lighter again. His heart was filled with happiness, love, but my "heart" was broken. I can't remember why it broke or why I got my own consciousness again. But I remember someone… fading, someone who was in my heart before I went back to Sora. All I can remember is fire. I believe he will be upset that I can't remember his name. That I haven't got it memorized. It has been a long time since he faded, but my "heart" is still breaking for every day that passes. I met Naminé for a short time but I could not remember and then I returned to the darkness and days passed. I can't see through Sora's eyes; I am surrounded by the darkness, I can't open my eyes. Maybe I will never break free from this darkness, it isn't evil, it just is, and I can't open my eyes. Once, I had someone to show me the light. I remember the sunset, and that he was with me. But I can't remember his face, I can't remember his voice… and I miss it. I know he could make me laugh and I know I cared for him even if I didn't have a heart, but now I can't remember. The memories connected to my feelings now belong to Sora, so I try to not remember. My memories are vanishing, like I am.
The darkness begins to diminish and I find myself on an island, Sora's island. He meets me and actually says that I can come back, come back and live again. But he faded away, he would not come back, he didn't have a heart, and I would be alone if I left this place, without him there is no point. My "heart" is fractured and it's probably better to fade while Sora grows stronger, so I decline. Maybe one day I'll be reborn and we'll meet again. The island disappears and the darkness returns. My eyes close again. Time in this darkness doesn't exist. I can't say how much time has passed, I am still I, I am not gone, but I wonder if it would be easier if I were. Maybe I would meet him again but he didn't have a heart. Maybe I'll never meet him again. Has time moved on, has it been days, weeks, months, or even years since I met Sora again? I will probably never know.
Something is happening to Sora but I still can't see and I won't be able to help him anyways. I remember my name, I remember fire, but all else seems to be gone now. It makes my "heart" ache, but Sora doesn't feel it so he can't help me. The darkness is thick around me, I don't even know if I can open my eyes or not because nothing changes. A tremor goes through the darkness and I feel something approaching. I don't know what it is; I've never felt anything like it. Maybe it's a sign of me vanishing, maybe something is changing. I don't know if I care, do I want the change? Through the darkness light is shining through and I open my eyes. The light shimmers and glitters and approaches me. My eyes burn when it comes closer and I have to shut them again. I feel the light grabbing me, taking it with me, back to where it came. The nothingness disappears and I stand on something solid. It is similar to when I stood on Sora's island, but this feels more… real. I feel the air around me, the space. This is not Sora's mind, this is how it felt outside, when I was alive. I open my eyes blinking to see clearer. I see Sora standing in front of me grinning. I look around and see other people, some I feel I should know, but I can't remember. I haven't felt any feelings in a long time, or has it not been that long? I don't know. I shift my gaze back to Sora and the grin wavers. His friend… Riku, I believe it was, puts a hand on his shoulder. Sora asks me of the people present, of what I remember. I cannot hear the names and I feel like someone should be here. I cannot answer.
"Oi, Roxas! You look as gloomy as you did the first time I met you." I turned to the familiar voice. It was a person with red hair and green eyes. He reminded me of fire. "I can't believe it, you've forgotten my name, again." He sighed and moved closer. "The name's Axel, got it memorized?" Memories I couldn't remember I had were returning. I remembered the sunset, the clock tower, our separation and I remembered how Sora watched him die.
"Axel?"
"Yup, in the flesh. Though, my real name is Lea but everyone sticks to Axel," He sighs then smirks again. "But what can you do, eh?"
"You're really here." I take a few steps closer, afraid that he will disappear, that I will wake up from this dream.
"Didn't we say we would meet again, partner?" Axel smirks.
The pain in my heart is dissipating. My heart is mending. The one I was yearning for in the darkness has returned, the one to show me the light. I take hold of his hand just so I can feel him, feel that he is real. He envelops me in a hug and the pain left. My "heart" is whole again and from now on I will always have his name memorized.