To Make You Happy
Chapter 1
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It was yet another cold night, winter would be in full force in another couple of months. A chilly gust blew through the quiet camp, causing the raven haired girl to pull the sleeping bag closer to herself. She felt a slight pull on her soul, very faint, but still there. She turned to the branch her best friend would have been perched on…
Though he had already gone.
Not even spared a glance, She thought, letting herself feel darkly about it for a second before casting the emotion away.
"Kagome?" Sango asked genteelly, Kagome sat up, finding everyone else wide awake and sitting up.
Kagome let out a long heavy sigh, full of her emotionally exhaustion. The exhale letting her feel weightless for a split second, allowing her to pretend – a bit for a moment – that none of this bothered her.
"Please try to understand." She whispered in return. It was obvious they did, after watching their friend suffer again and again as the half demon, time after time, chose the undead miko. Darting off at first sight or scent. Never once taking a second glance or thinking of the young miko and how much she was pained by his absence.
"He will look for you." Miroku stated, looking her dead in the eye.
"I will be prepared." She stated back.
"Let me come with you. I don't want to stay! Not if you're not here!" Shippo yelled out, shaking in his desperation.
"Shippo, please keep your voice down." Kagome hushed, taking him into her arms, "I need you here, to help me keep Inuyasha away for as long as possible and only you, my big strong boy, can do that." She assured him.
"..Ok," he reluctantly agreed, closing his eyes, he held her tight. Breathing her scent for the last time in what he knew would be a long time.
Kagome got up and began packing her things, leaving items like the medical kit and extra bandages for the remaining members. All too soon, it came time to say goodbye.
"Remember, if you ever need help. Find us. We'll always be there for you, please don't forget that." Sango hugged her, tears pooling in both girls eyes.
"I won't." She smiled, turning to Miroku next.
Before she could say anything, he pulled her into a big brotherly hug. "Never forget us, ok? And remember all the extra side training I've done with you."
After saying her good byes to Shippo and Kirara as well, she headed off, leaving a barrier over the camp, once Inuyasha entered it would activate and he wouldn't be able to get out either.
Perhaps we'll meet in our next lives Inuyasha, maybe I'm just not enough in this life for you as I am now. I won't make you decide between Kikyou and I, because while you don't love me as I do you, you still feel our bond of friendship. You'll be hesitant to hurt me when it comes to that time. Kagome paused in her steps for a bit, raising her head to look at the stars shining brightly over her. So I'll save you that hurt, the hurt you'll feel in making that decision known to me.
She continued her path once again, I don't have anything left for me in this world or my own, your presence in my life and my falling into this time will never allow me to have a normal life on my side of the well. Though I would never take the opportunity to change anything. No matter of the times I've cried, or the anguish I've felt over the years. I would never change it if I got to know you Inuyasha, my strong hanyou protector, my best friend… and the love of my life.
Kagome continued her path through the night, keeping her aura out to sense her surroundings, careful of lurking demons.
By morning she had reached the village she was looking for, she hadn't expected to reach it so soon, perhaps another two days or so. Well at least she was able to get ahead of her schedule.
If there's one thing I want for you Inuyasha. It's your happiness. And doing what I'm about to do, will guarantee that you happiness will be everlasting, and no matter what struggles you face later on, you'll always pull through.
Walking down the sloped hill, she preceded to walk into the town. Perhaps a stop would be good for her aching back and legs.
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Miroku sighed, facing the others who were both wiping there tears away. "We're not going to see her again are we?" Sango choked out. It was all to obvious.
"I have a feeling we will, though she's set on whatever it is she's planned. If she succeeds, then I doubt we will." He stated, there was no point in hiding his premonitions from her, seeming as she had picked up on it too.
"She's throwing everything she has away for him." Shippo spoke up, sniffling slightly, "She cares too much, she's too kind to everyone." He gave the other to a watery smile, straining to keep himself from bursting out into tears. "But it wouldn't be our Kagome if she wasn't."
"Shippo…" The others whispered softly.
Kirara mewed sadly, running against his furry legs, trying to reassure him in her own way.
Miroku's head suddenly snapped up, his staff jingling with the movement. "His coming."
Sango frowned deeply, he fists clenched so tightly that her knuckles turned white while Shippo wiped away his remaining tears on his little cheeks.
"No one say anything, nothing about where she is, or of what we think her plans are. It's best if we let him find out at his own pace. Whether that's now or years down the track, do not let your emotions get the best of you. This is for Kagome." Miroku stated wisely, the others nodded in response.
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Inuyasha feet pounded at the ground as he ran, something felt wrong. The entire time he was away, from the moment he left the camp, something felt gut wrenchingly wrong.
It wasn't the usual guilt of leaving his Kagome without protection while he met with the dead priestess. Or the horrible feeling of knowing Kagome hurt over him while he met with his "lover."
Urgh. Even thinking of that word while referring to Kikyou made him want to hurl.
He knew what everyone thought when he left, but he couldn't correct them until this thing with Naraku was over. Until he wasn't a threat to Kagome's safety. If Naraku found out his true feelings, Kagome would be a main target, his only true weakness.
He wouldn't let her be harmed.
He justified hurting her emotionally now and fixing it in the future, to her being physically hurt and even killed… he couldn't fix that.
Though now he was wondering if that hadn't been such a great idea. Maybe it was too late, hurt to many times, for him to fix this.
Just before he bounded into camp he picked up on the end of there conversation.
"...anything, nothing... she is, or of.. her plans are…. let him find.. own pace…. now or years… not… emotions…. of you. This.. for Kagome."
That was Miroku!
The second his feet touched the camp grounds, before he could get a word out, a white light flashed around them, creating a dome shape before dissipating into thin air again. "What the-?"
He looked around, naturally seeking out his miko, only to find she wasn't where he left her. He instantly glared, turning his heated stare at the four retreating to there beds. "Where the fuck is she?"
No reply, no one even seemed to notice his presence.
"Tell me where the fuck the bitch is, I know you know, or I'll force it out of you." He cracked his knuckles to emphasise his threat.
Yet again, no one reacted.
He walked over to Shippo, snatching his tail and bringing him to eye level, "Tell me you little brat." Though what surprised him was the utter lack of response, looking at him Inuyasha could see tears had been freshly shed.
He started to panic internally, Shippo never cried – like this – when Kagome returned home.
"Where is she?" Inuyasha asked softy, his eyes darting from everyone and back to Shippo. "Shippo, she could be in danger. She needs to stay here, with us." He tried reasoning.
He glared back, "I wonder who's fault that is."
"Shippo," Miroku warned.
Inuyasha growled deeply, his chest rumbling. No one was giving it up, not even Shippo. Something bad was happening or about to happen.
"Fuck this." He said before leaping into the sky.
…. only to be stopped by a barrier.
"MIROKU!" Inuyasha bared his fangs at him, "Take. it. Down."
"I cant do that, Kagome's powers are too advanced for me to even attempt it." He stated calmly.
Kagome did this…? Inuyasha couldn't believe she was putting herself in danger like this, all because he went and saw Kikyou.
"Inuyasha," Sango spoke up, ignoring Miroku's glance, "Why do you want to know where she is?"
"That's a stupid fucking question." He glared at her.
"Answer the 'stupid fucking question' then. Truthfully. Or I wont say anything." She glared right back. Everyone was taken back, Sango rarely swore.
"Urgh, fuck it." Inuyasha turned around and started pounding on the barrier, hoping to weaken it with brute force. The others just looked on in sympathy.
"Inuyasha," Sango started softly, and he stopped hitting it for a second though didn't turn around, his fist resting on the barrier, "Tell me why. I need to hear for myself. I can't let you keep hurting Kagome like you have."
His shoulders slumped as he breathed heavily, "All of you can see my feelings for her, Kagome's the only one blind to it."
"Do you love her?"
"I will not say those words unless it's to her, no one else will hear it first." He turned around to glare at Sango, she just smiled in return and nodded in understanding.
"There isn't anything we can do at the moment, Kagome has improved immensely without our knowledge over the past few months. It makes me wonder how she could pull such an advanced technique off and walk away, I mean, she should have collapsed in exhaustion using that amount of power. I did give her some extra training but nothing like this." Miroku pondered out loud.
"I can't just let her wander around the forest at night! It's too dangerous! We have t-"
"She's been planning to leave for months because of you!" Shippo yelled cutting Inuyasha off, "You weren't the one that listen to her cry each night. You weren't there to console her and tell her everything was going to be ok. You didn't see her hopes and dreams grow darker and darker as she watch you run off to Kikyou every damn time! Don't you dare pretend to care about her now, after you caused this!" He was breathing heavily, tears streaming down his cheeks yet again, "I know exactly what she's doing, I know what she's planning to do right now, I pretended not to but I can't any more."
He looked up at Inuyasha, complete and utter betrayal in his eyes, "And I can promise you, you will never see her again."
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The village people had been kind to her, feeding her and giving her a place to stay for the night, they had even given her new clothes. Kagome thought it would have been a good idea to blend in a bit more, however would wait till later to change.
She was currently sitting in the headman's house, telling him of her plans… well, leaving out certain details.
"So miss, what is it you seek permission for?" He asked, his eyes scanning over her form, trying to figure out where she had come from – He had never seen such clothing before. His wispy long beard piled on the floor from his position on the floor.
"Please hear me out, I know my request may sound stranger than my clothing but please listen to my reasons." She bowed her head low to the ground, holding her position for a few seconds before rising again.
He nodded, smiling in encouragement.
"I request access to Lady Izaiyo's grave."
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