Don't Say Goodbye

By: Iceyicecream

Chapter 1: Snow

This is the first time I've written something like this so, I hope all of you enjoy! This is for both Mistress of Madness and magicalnana! Thanks a bunch for giving me the idea!

It's near winter time but tennis practice is still going on so you wait for your boyfriend Tezuka to finish his practice. You two have been dating for 6 months but even though you've been dating for that long, it seems that he still chooses tennis over you. Whether it's for a practice, some sort of training camp, or a tennis match. Never once has he put you first before tennis and you were getting sick and tired of it. Tezuka had finally finished and quickly changed into his school uniform. "Like I told you before, you didn't have to wait for me." He tells you with his usual hard look.

You shake your head and smile. "It's alright. Besides, I wanted to talk to you about something."
He nods his head and the two of you walk to a family restaurant to grab something to eat. On rare occasions, Tezuka would hold your hand and only once before had he hugged you only because you had almost tripped and hit the ground hard. You sighed and looked at his back and hand at longing. You wanted to hold his hand…it looks so warm but it was too far. He would never let you…he would be the only on to make the first move. The two of you were seated in a booth across from each other and a waitress had already come to take your orders. "What can I get you sir?" The waitress asked Tezuka as if he was the only one sitting in the booth.

Tezuka looks up from the menu and glances at you and then at the waitress. "You should take her order first." Tezuka said.

Yes, that was all he called you. It was either by your name or 'her' never by my girlfriend or anything of the sort. You sighed to yourself. "I'll have your hamburger and a coffee."

The girl writes it down but her face with a displeased look. She turned back to Tezuka with a smile. Tezuka sets down the menu. "I'll have the same thing she got." He says.

"Alright, then, I'll be back in a moment."
The waitress strides away leaving you two in a quiet booth. You look up at Tezuka to see him looking out the window. He was never one for talking. It was mostly only you babbling on about your day or your complaints and every now and then he would speak but in short sentences or one worded answers. "So what is it that you wanted to talk about?" Tezuka asks you as usually getting right to the point without beating around the bush.

You hoped the topic would be put aside for a little bit at least until after you get your food. "It's just a simple question." You say.
Tezuka watches you like a hawk. "What is it?" He asks you blandly.

You fidget in your seat. His eyes were piercing and made it awkward to talk like talking in front of a class or an audience. "Why did you say yes?" You asked him serious, "You seem to have no interest in woman yet you accepted my request to be my boyfriend even though you knew nothing about me."
He stays quiet and your heart aches. You don't understand this feeling but you want it to stop and go away. The waitress had come back with out food. "Enjoy your meal." She said to Tezuka and walked away.

Tezuka calmly grabbed his silverware and began to eat as if he wasn't asked such a question. I watched quietly for a moment and did the same. Once the two of you had finished, Tezuka had paid for your meal and the two of you headed out. It had begun snowing and it amazed you like a child. "Aren't snowflakes amazing?" You ask him.

Like always, he doesn't say anything but just watches you. You reach out to catch one but it melts at your warm touch. "Each one is unique in their own way." You say, "But, you can only see the difference if you look rreal closely."

You spun around with the flakes falling around you. You laugh at yourself and feel hurt. You stop spinning and look up at the sky. It's filled with clouds and the sight of snow falling down. "I think we should break up." You said.

He doesn't make any moves to reply. You turned to see him with that same empty look that befuddled you. "Why did you say yes?" You asked again.

You kept quiet and so did he. It was useless. You sighed. "I didn't and probably still don't know much about you Tezuka." You say as you face him, "I saw you working so hard practicing tennis and working hard for nationals that I was curious."
The snow continued to fall and was making a small layer on top of your head. "I watched you practice and play for over 2 months and still was confused. Why would someone try so hard for a sport?"
You smiled. "And when I heard your speech to your teammates I was touched." You whispered, "I wanted to feel that same warmth and strength you gave them."
You frowned. "I got to…but it would never last long." You shook your head as you speak, "It was always just a moment's worth and then it would disappear as if it never happened."

You lock your fingers together. "And I was happy that I got to see a few things that most people didn't see but, I wasn't happy."
You laugh at your selfishness. "I know that it seems like I'm being selfish but…I want you all to me" You say with your chest tightening, "I want you to only think of me."
You turned to see him with a curious animal that he had never seen before. A new species that he had never seen before. You wait a few minutes to see if he was going to say something but he doesn't. You sigh but you smile at him. "I guess it was just my dream." You said, "If you didn't like me, you didn't have to say yes."
Tezuka stares at you. Always staring never making a move as if he was just at a movie theater watching a movie. "Don't you think that was a bit mean?" You ask him, "Just saying yes knowing that I liked you?"
"Did you do it out of pity?" You asked him.

Your chest was aching and your throat was getting clogged by something. It was getting harder to breath and the tears were stinging your eyes. You could feel the cold on your face and it stung. "Did you think that it would okay?" You asked.

Tezuka didn't say anything. You sighed and readjusted your bag. "I'm going to go home." You tell him, "I'll see you tomorrow."
And then you walked away leaving him standing in the snow. Warm salty tears run down your cold cheeks and you can't cold them back. You cover you mouth to muffle your cries but it's no use. They still escape and you still feel the pain. Your heart felt cold just like the snow.

I hope you guys liked it! Sorry I couldn't think of a fitting character for him! Please review and tell me what you think