I wrote this in March 2007. It's a Rexis fic that I didn't complete. I don't know if I'll ever finish it, but I want to. I have tons of other fics that I have to finish first.
Back to Life
Chapter One
"My life is spiraling out of control. I've lost my daughter, my brother, my step-daughter, my career, and the love of my life." He let out a small noise as he smiled quickly and shook his head. The therapist across from him grew curious at the action. He continued, "I used to think Elizabeth was the love of my life, and then I met -- her. She was," he corrected quickly, "IS the strongest woman I've ever met. That made her unattainable for me. I was married to her, she loved me, but I never felt good enough. She never belittled me, it wasn't her. It was me. It was my childhood following me, screaming at me that I'd never be good enough, not for this woman. I realized that too late. I did the unthinkable and sent my life to hell. The thing is," he looked to Dr. Winters with the tears now softly falling, "I can't seem to correct it. I can't find the opportunity to tell her, that she's the best thing that has ever happened to me. She's one of God's greatest creations, and she doesn't know it. Her whole life," Ric stopped and looked down to his finger that was fiddling with his wedding ring, "her whole life has been painful, excruciatingly so, and I did the worst possible thing to her at the worst possible time. I'm lost without her; I'm lost without Molly and Kristina. It's taken me this long to realize that they are the reason that I'm alive. Those three girls are the only people in the world that I need, and I'll never have them again."
Lainey watched as he broke down. She knew Alexis Davis. She knew that she was a strong, independent woman -- a wonderful mother -- but she had never heard someone described this way before. The man before her needed help, but she couldn't do it alone. She needed this unattainable woman he spoke of to break this thing in him -- to bring him back to life.