CCX: First off, you should know that I've spent so much time searching for the perfect place to use this song for a songfic, and here it is. Hope you enjoy it. Without further ado…

The Disclaimer! Disclaimer: Characters are property of CLAMP. Song Lyrics are by Daniel Bedingfield. Now, for real…

If You're Not the One

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?

My Sakura-chan is coming over, and she says she's got something to show me that she thinks is going to make me really happy. I know, I know, I shouldn't be doing this. Deep down, I know she's better off with Syaoran. But she seems to have been drawing away from him recently, and much of that time is spent with her best friend—me. One of these days, very soon, I'll tell her how I feel. I used to be afraid that she wouldn't feel the same way about me, but now, I just feel like…like we're meant to be together or something. Oh, here she is now!

If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call?
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all?

"Sakura-chan!"

"Tomoyo-chan! I have great news!"

"Yes?" She didn't say anything, just put out her hand. "Ooh, that's quite a nice ring you've got there. Where'd you…oh…no…way. That's not…"

"It is!" she squealed. "Syaoran asked me to marry him, and I said yes! And I want you to be my maid of honor."

"Wow…this is so unexpected. I thought you two were growing apart."

"Well, yeah, silly, he wasn't going to propose to me when he was so content. I had to show him just how much he needed me by his side."

"Oh…" I said, trying to mask my disappointment.

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

"So, will you do it?"

"Do what?"

"Be my maid of honor. I can't imagine it being anybody other than you, Tomoyo-chan."

I rued the words as soon as they came out of my mouth. "Anything for you, Sakura-chan."

"Oh, thank you thank you thank you! I love you, Tomoyo-chan!" Then she ran off.

"Yeah…I love you too…Sakura-chan."

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

"Stupid Sakura!" I fumed in the privacy of my own room, "How could she not see how much I love her? How dense can she be?" I picked up the eraser she'd given me when we first met. "I hate you!" I screamed, hurling it across the room. It hit the power button on the radio, turning it on. An English-language station. I started across the room to turn it off, but then I stopped. Even though I couldn't understand much of what was being said, something about it just seemed like something I should be listening to right now. (Note: English-language music really is popular in Japan. Music, apparently, is universal; understanding of the lyrics is not necessary.)

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I didn't know why, but I found myself trying to sing along with the unfamiliar words. The song sounded…sad. Perfect for my current mood.

And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with
I hope, I love you all my life

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

A word I understood, that I'd recognize in almost any language. "Love." This singer is lamenting about a lost love. Oh, how I could relate. Sakura!!

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight and know my heart is by your side

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

The song ended. I was in tears. Maybe that wasn't the best thing for me, after all—now I wanted Sakura more than ever. That's it…I can't keep my feelings inside. I'll explode if I do. I know I can't change Sakura's mind…but I can't let her get married without knowing that I've loved her all these years. Ever since she came into my life eleven years ago…things have never been the same. I've been fully devoted to her, and her alone. And in return…nothing. Have I been a fool all of this time? By now I was on autopilot, and I was screaming at myself inside, "Wait! Think this over first! Don't do it! Don't…no, put that down…no, don't you dare…!"

"Hey…Sakura-chan? I'm sorry, but…I don't think I can be your maid of honor. It would be a conflict of interest. You see…I love you. I've always loved you. I've tried to keep it quiet all of these years because I didn't think it was right to burden you with my feelings, but I can't keep it to myself any longer. I couldn't just let you get married without at least telling you how I feel. I don't expect you to return my feelings, but I just wanted to tell you…"

BEEP!

CCX: I do hope I was convincing at the end there. It just sort of came to me at the end, to do it like that. As for the issue of why the song started before the radio turned on, I figured it would be too strange if Tomoyo turned the radio on right at the beginning of the song. More plausible this way.