He's gone, thought Padme. I've sent him away.
It was the morning after Anakin confessed that he loved her, and the morning after she answered his confession with her rejection.
"Padme I love you" Anakin said.
"Anakin stop it! Wake up, I'm a Senator you're a Jedi it is not possible for us to be together!" Padme retorted hoping to banish this foolish idea.
"Padme I love I do anything for you, I'd happily give up place in the order for you".
"No" I state. "Anakin I do not love you and I never will".
Anakin undeterred tried to change my mind. "Padme you can't say you haven't felt something like I have these past few days?!"
Sighing I reason that the only way I will be able to get Anakin to realise his naïve notion of us in love, is to give him cold, harsh reality.
"Anakin I do not love you, I never will. This naïve notion of us is stupid and foolish, and can never happen understand?" upon finishing my declaration I walk towards the door. I open the door before I go I turn and deliver a final crushing blow.
"Anakin I must report your unorthodox actions to the Jedi Council, I will have you resigned I expect you gone before tomorrow morning, understand?" I say questioningly.
Anakin looks at me with pain filled eyes. He looks at me and realises I am serious. He drops his gaze to the floor and looks so intently at it I would have thought he was trying to sink right into it.
I turn away and walk out the door, and carry through with my intentions.
Anakin is gone before I wake up.
Padme stared out onto the lake trying to bury her feelings of loneliness and loss. I'm confused as to why I think this way, I haven't lost anything.
Except perhaps love, I think.
It almost ironic that only now after the deed is done do I realise the truth.
"You were right Anakin, I was in love with you" I mournfully realise.
Though my actions towards him last night probably killed the love he had for me.
Slowly tears drip from my eyes at my remembrance ofmy treatment of him, and my hurtful rejection.
"What have I done?" Padme sobs as she clutches her hands to her face.