Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And the worst part is there's no one else to blame

I chose wrong again. I try and I try, but I just can't seem to find that one guy who needs only me. Sure, Steven only slept with that nurse because he thought Michael and I were up to something in Donna's den. That's a lack of trust, something I never lacked in him…not until now. How can I, Jacqueline Burkhart, be having such a hard time finding my one true love? I can't believe Steven led me down the same road as Michael. I thought he was different.

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me

I've changed a lot since Steven and I started dating. At least, I think I have. Steven never mentioned it. No matter what anyone says, I'm not as shallow or as superficial as I used to be. It's pretty easy to act a part when that's who you were for 17 years. Steven knows who and how I am in private; he knows my secrets and my innermost thoughts. Steven had my whole heart and he knew it; I told him everyday. But I guess that still wasn't enough, was it?

I am small
I'm needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

No matter what I say to him or the guys, I still love Steven. I know he's sorry, I heard it in the way his voice trembled in the El Camino. He thinks he's so tough, but inside he's just Steven, and Steven cries. Sometimes. Not that I've ever seen it. I want to be done with him, because he treated me the way Michael used to. I can't help but give him points for coming clean, but this isn't really my fault. I don't jump to conclusions and sleep with nurses. I use my loud demanding voice and that works just fine.

Ouch I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,
Yeah I think that I might break
I've lost myself again and I feel unsafe

What Michael did hurt, but what Steven did kills. My whole body aches, like I've got the flu, and my stomach churns as the very idea of Steven with someone else. I've never had my body physically react to heartbreak; this is how I know I love Steven. I've never felt worse or more betrayed, but I ache when he's gone. No one will ever know how hard it was to tell him I didn't love him in Donna's bedroom.

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me

There has never been a worse match than Jackie Burkhart and Steven Hyde. A rich, spoiled cheerleader and a poor, cynical criminal in love? No one bought it, but Steven and I knew. Or at least I thought Steven knew. When we were alone Steven really was Steven. All traces of Hyde were gone. He was gentle and he listened, even said nice things to me, though I had to force them. Steven's actions spoke louder than his words, because he didn't believe in words. Words failed him, especially words like love. So instead of telling me he loved me, he would show me, like when he shaved his beard. I never loved him more than I did that day.

I am small
I'm needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Sometimes I wonder if I made a mistake giving my heart to Steven. I knew his track record; I'd seen the way he did it with girls and then never spoke to them again. I don't know why I thought he was different. I wonder if Michael would have transformed and treated me differently. Maybe it's too late, because if there's only one person I need more of, it's Steven Hyde.

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy
Warm me up
And breathe me