Is This Really Love?

Chapter 1

Naruto looked up at the pale blue sky as the soft wind played in his spiky, blond hair and sighed. Everything seemed quiet in Konoha after so long of fighting Orochimaru and his curse-marked followers. Sadly, Sasuke wasn't even spared. None of them were.

The boy pulled his knees to his chest and laid his forehead on them, sobbing quietly as he remembered all the times Sasuke had saved him, the kiss they'd accidentally shared. The accidental kiss that sparked that feeling within him. A feeling of need and want both, but also a need he couldn't satisfy with Sasuke gone. He wanted him like he'd never wanted a guy before. He wanted to kiss him and hold him and just all out be with him. He didn't care how many people would've looked down on it for what it was. All he cared about was that the feeling was there.

Slowly, after it seemed that hours had passed, Naruto pulled himself to his feet and, slowly, made his way down to the street-side restaurant that made his favorite ramen. Yet, instead of eating bowl after bowl like he normally would he paid for just the one and stirred the noodles and beef together as his mind lingered on that one image of Sasuke's face.

I love you, he wanted to say, but the chance would never again come.

He had debated on dying, but quickly talked himself out of it when he realized that he needed to stay to protect Konoha. The village was safe, but that was only for now. Who knew when enemies could attack again.

Having the nine tailed fox inside of him gave him extra strength and chakra reserves, which came in handy and made him a good ninja to have around when one needed help. When the fox was willing to help Naruto, that is.

Having touched almost none of his ramen, Naruto stood suddenly, just as Iruka was approaching the restaurant to get himself something to eat. Noting the nearly full bowl of ramen that the blond haired boy had left behind he turned to call out to him, but saw him missing and frowned.

"What's gotten into him..." he mumbled to himself as he sat down to order.

*~*~*~*

Back at home, Naruto laid down on his bed with his face in his pillows, wishing that his depression would just go away and fade into nothingness along with himself. He didn't want to linger in this world without Sasuke. Part of him just wished that Sasuke would walk into his room, turn him over roughly and kiss him deeply.

Part of him wanted to be dominated by Sasuke here and now...but it couldn't happen and he knew it. No matter how much he wished that Sasuke could take him and make him his, it could never happen.

Slowly, with the depressing thoughts still lingering in his mind, Naruto drifted off into a restless sleep and a tall, white haired figure entered his room and approached his bed where he sat down on the edge of it, waking Naruto prematurely.

The blond blinked his eyes slowly. "Sasu...?"

Then he saw who it really was and opened his mouth to scream and tried to get up to fight him, but the man pinned him down, pressing himself against Naruto's body and rubbing a hardness in his clothing against Naruto's own crotch.

The blond gasped and shuddered some from the feeling of it touching him and slowly stopped his struggle against the white-haired man that had entered his room. His libido was talking more than his actual senses and he just wanted to give into his lust for one night. Whether it was real love or not, he didn't care right now.

Slowly, the hand was taken away from Naruto's mouth and replaced with the man's lips. Skillfully, his tongue entered the boy's mouth, too. The two tongues danced together and Naruto's own member began to press uncomfortably against his clothes.

In the heat of the moment, the blond haired boy ripped the kimono off the man just as he ripped Naruto's pants and boxers off. Naked, they lay entwined with each other, kissing each other deeply and roughly.

The white haired man pulled away from the kiss briefly and, after taking a moment to catch his breath a small smile took hold of his lips. "I love you, Naruto... I'm so glad I survived to find you and tell you..."

Naruto stared almost in shock at the man.

At Kimimaru.