Written In the Stars
I am here to tell you that we can never meet again. Simple really isn't it? A word or two and then; a life time of not knowing where or why or when, you'll think of me or speak of me and wonder what befell someone you once loved so long ago so well.
Bella took Jacob's hand and said "Jacob we can't see each other anymore."
Jacob winced and said "What are you getting at Bells? I don't understand we've known each other since we were in diapers."
Bella started to cry and said "Jacob this isn't easy. God I thought saying goodbye would be painless. I'll always remember you Jacob I love you."
Jacob sighed and said "Bells I'll always think of you. I think that's what hurts the most. I know that I'll always remember your face, and your smile. I won't know when it's coming and when the rest of the pack speaks of you I'll have to pretend that it doesn't hurt."
Bella sighed and said "I won't forget you either Jacob. I love you but this just isn't going to work. Please don't make this any harder then it already is. I'll always wonder what happened to you. I'll always love you."
Never wonder what I'll feel as living as living shuffles by. You don't have to ask me and I don't have to reply. You are all I ever want but this I am denied. Sometimes in my darkest thoughts; I wish I'd never learned what it is to be in love and have that love returned.
Jacob turned away from Bella and sadly said "Bells I don't know what I feel right now. Without you my life is just going to shuffle past me. I'm going to miss you Bells."
Bella sighed and said "I didn't ask you how you felt. Jake I know you're going to miss me but this needs to stop. I love Edward and nothing on this earth is going to change that. Please don't tell me how you feel or it will just make things that much harder."
By the time Jacob and Bella had finished saying goodbye it was well past sunset. Jacob sniffed and said "Bella you are all I've ever wanted. This life has denied me of so much. I've been ok with it though because I knew that once it was over I could still have you."
Bella hugged Jacob and said "Jake please don't cry; I'm sorry that I ever feel in love with you. If we had just stay friends none of this would have ever happened."
Jacob pulled Bella closer and wiped a single tear from her cheek. Then he said "Don't you start. Bells don't ever feel sorry for loving someone. What we had was fun right? Come on Bells I was just trying to lighten the mood. I know what you mean when you say that you wish you'd never met him."
Bella frowned and snapped "Don't ever say that! Jacob I hate that I fell in love with you! I never should have and now our friendship is ruined!"
Jacob sighed and said "Sometimes I wish I'd never fallen in love. Having the feelings that I felt for you returned by you even for a short time, that was the most beautiful thing. I'll always love you Bells."
Nothing can be altered. There is nothing to decide. There is no escape, no change of heart, or any place to hide. Is it written in the stars? Are we paying for some crime? Is that all that we are good for, just a stretch of mortal time? Are we some God's experiment in which we have no say, in which we're given paradise but only for a day?
Bella hugged Jacob one more time and said "I have to call Edward to pick me up. I'll miss you Jacob."
When Bella was at home tears poured down her face. Edward lightly kissed her neck and said "Bella love are you alright? You don't have to do this."
Bella sobbed "Yes I do, Edward I can't love you both. I've made my choice and there's no way to change it. I made my bed so now I have to lie in it."
Edward sighed and said "Bella he's a part of your life. I don't want to you hurt. You have to go see him tomorrow. I don't want you to cry anymore."
Bella sighed and said "Edward it's written in the stars. I was meant to fall in love with him and then never see him again. You're the one I need to be with forever."
Edward sighed and said "Bella Jacob made you happy. Is this God's idea of a joke? Give a girl the best friend she's ever had and then one day make her fall in love with him; but he isn't finished yet, he then has to take all the happiness away and leave the boyfriend to clean up the mess. Don't cry Bella, I wasn't trying to make you cry."
Bella sobbed "Edward I deserve this, I've hurt every body so much, hurting you is the worst thing I've ever done, I'm now paying for the crime of breaking your heart."
Edward softly said "I don't mad if you're friends with Jacob. No, Bella look at me. Werewolf or not Jacob makes you happy. I'll be dammed if I'm going to let you throw away that happiness because of a simple misunderstanding. Lie down and try to sleep. I love you Bella."