The light swirled.
She stared into the yellow eyes of a red-tailed hawk.
She watched as he stared back into her own blue eyes.
Rachel
and
Tobias
it's all in how you mix the two
and it starts just where the light exists
it's a feeling that you can not miss
and it burns a hole through everyone that feels it
Again she wondered why blue and yellow light combined to make white, but the paint mixed made green
There was some scientific explanation ... she remembered learning about it back in fifth grade ... something about the additive and subtractive process
she didn't care
she only saw
the green
the white
the blue and yellow swirling into both colors
she had forgotten almost everything she'd known before
she couldn't remember the person she was back then
there was only now
the Yeerks are here
even as the light kept swirling
her mind kept whirling
the Yeerks kept coming
Death approaches you, Rachel Berenson.
The white polar bear.
You are strong, yes; you are brave, yes:
but your time has come.
you're never gonna find it if you're looking for it
it won't come your way, yeah
How many times had she wished to die?
How many times had she asked for a glorious death in battle?
always her instinct had saved her
now she had been asked to take on this suicidal mission
she had accepted
... your time has come ...
i should've done something, but i've done it enough
by the way, your hands were shaking
i'd rather waste some time with you
he told himself he should have stopped her
but no, no matter how hard he tried
he couldn't stop Rachel
and he knew it
well you never would've thought in the end
how amazing it feels just to live again
it's a feeling that you can not miss
and it burns a hole through everyone that feels it
Tobias remembered ...
happy came
before she became a killer
before he became a bird
happy was
and he knew all the pain had been worth it
he'd have done anything
to achieve this kind of happy
too good to be true
happy ended too soon
like a Dracon beam shot through the heart
well you're never gonna find it if you're looking for it
it won't come your way, yeah
How many times had he lain awake
praying, hoping, wishing
wondering if his life would ever get better
wondering if happiness was real and if it could be attained
he had stopped trying to find happy
but happy found him one day
suddenly
unexpectedly
surprisingly
... your time has come ...
i should've done something, but i've done it enough
by the way, your hands were shaking
i'd rather waste some time with you
happy had been slowly dying
as they became predators
and learned to conceal their hearts from their minds
why hadn't she known what was happening to both of them
it was the same way with the Yeerks
they searched and searched for happy
but couldn't find it
happy doesn't come from killing people
and now she knew that happy didn't come from dying either
not when there was a special person who was being left behind
left to swim in an ocean of despair
she regretted her decision
but it was too late
... your time has come ...
i should've said something, but i've said it enough
by the way, my words are fading
i'd rather waste some time with you
he wanted to tell her something
something he'd told her so many times
very simple
three words
but he knew that she already knew.
waste some time with you..
why couldn't they go back in time?
he remembered flying
blue sky
yellow sun
the two of them together
doing nothing in particular
just flying
i should've done something, but i've done it enough
by the way, your hands were shaking
i'd rather waste my time with you
she should kill the other Controllers
take as many of them down as she could
before she fell to the mercy of the polar bear
but no
there had been enough killing
even for her
she demorphed
her paws transformed into quivering human hands
she was scared
not of death
but of her decision to die
... your time has come ...
i should've said something, but i've said it enough
by the way, my words are fading
i'd rather waste my time with you
he morphed to human
the wings, the feathers, the beak, the reddish tail all disappearing
but although they changed form
the eyes remained yellow
she whispered three words
he couldn't hear her
but he saw her mouth move
and whispered the same words back
but the polar bear had struck
waste some time with you ...
he wished with all his heart they were somewhere else
away from the Yeerks
but all he could do was look on helplessly
as the light flickered out
and he wondered when it would be lit again
waste some time with you ...