Disclaimer: Alas I still own nothing but my own ideas, and I'm pretty sure that no one else would want them anyways... But here is the season finale with a slight twist on who gets shot...and almost dies...and such...

JPOV

I flipped through the pages to a medical book trying to figure out what the heck tension pneumothorax was.

"Tension Pneumothorax is when the lung continues to leak air into the chest cavity and results in compression of the chest structures, including vessels that return blood to the heart and can result in death if...not treated immediately, Christ Maura. You have to help him!" I said as I cry realizing how close my brother is to dying this very moment.

"Jane, I'm not that kind of doctor. I'm just guessing, I could be wrong..." Maura said desperately.

"Your guess is better than most doctors!" I yelled begging.

"I could make it worse Jane. I'm not a doctor. I-I don't even have the equipment." Maura said exasperated.

"Maura, please." I cried.

"Fine. Get me some alcohol, and some tubing, and some cotton balls." Maura said running to Frankie's side. I handed her the supplies as she sighs and looks defeated. She began working on him by shoving tubing into his side, and draining his lung. After she is done she sighed and sank against the counter in defeat.

Everything that happened after that was one giant blur. The guy storming in making us put the walkie talkie telling us Bobbie was in on the whole thing. Then Bobbie getting the cigarettes, and then shooting the guy. Then Maura, sweet beautiful Maura holding the button and allowing Korsac to hear it all. Then Bobbie grabbing Maura. And taking her outside at gunpoint.

I screamed, literally screamed a scream that would have scared me if I hadn't been so focused on the gun at Maura's head as she was drug out of the building by Bobbie. A minute too late SWAT busted in the morgue and took care of Frankie as I took off running. I could hear Maura screaming for them to shoot Bobbie. She was begging, sobs shaking her voice as she screamed that Frankie needed help, but no one would shoot. There was no shot. I ran out of the building in time to see Maura pull the gun to her stomach and pull the trigger, before she collapsed on the ground next to Bobbie's dead body.

The closer I got to her fallen form the farther her eyes slid closed. I yelled her name as I threw myself onto the ground, as she slowly let go.

"No! Maura, no! God, oh God no! Please open your eyes! Just open your eyes!" I screamed as I put pressure on the wound pouring blood. I tried to stop the bleeding, but it just kept going, there was so much blood pouring out of her body that I yelled furiously for someone to help Maura.

Finally some EMTs came and started working on her. I ran behind them and tried to get into the ambulance.

"Miss family only." the EMT said with his hand stopping my entrance into the vehicle.

"I am the only family she has! And I'm her best friend, and I'm a cop! If one of those does not gain me an entrance into this freaking ambulance then I might have to hit you!" I yelled angrily. He sighed as he allowed me to jump in before closing the door.

I watched as they intubated Maura. It was one of the most horrendous things I had ever seen, but I was sure it was only going to get worse as they tried to save her. This was all my fault. If I had held down the walkie talkie button instead of her maybe Bobbie wouldn't have grabbed her. Or maybe he grabbed her because he didn't think they'd listen to her and shoot him. Or that the innocent genius doctor would have a stroke of idiocy and shoot herself.

If, if, if, my life was surrounded by ifs. If I hadn't just shrugged and left Maura alone. I always went with her while she autopsied bodies, but I was mad. Mad that Bobbie didn't know anything. Mad that there was a dead cop, and I took it out on her and left her alone. She was alone, in the morgue when a bunch of homicidal maniacs had come in with guns looking for evidence and killing anyone they saw. If I had taken care of her like I had promised her I would. If I had been grabbed instead of her. If it was me on the table instead of her. If Maura survived.

I shook the last thought out of my head immediately. Maura would survive. She had to. It was Maura, strong, sweet, innocent, beautiful Maura and I could not bear it if she died. So there was simply no way in hell I was going to let her die. I'd be darned if those doctors didn't kill themselves trying to save her for me. And the moment she was alive and concious and semi-healthy, I'd tell her how I felt about her. She had to know becasue I couldn't keep it inside after this.

The EMTs had finally slowed down in working on her, but then the machine started beeping rapidly before stopping altogether. I sobbed as they once again picked up the pace and brought her back again before we jumped out of the ambulance at a hospital. I ran as far as they would let me and I stood outside the door watching them work on her through the window. A few minutes had barely passed before a nurse was ushering me to the waiting room as they rushed Maura off into the opposite direction. Off to surgery, the nurse had said.

I stood pacing in the waiting room for who knows how long before I remembered Frankie, and Korsak and Frost. I walked to the front desk quickly and prayed that I wouldn't get anymore crap from the nurses.

"Umm, I need to check on the status of a Frankie Rizzoli." I said as calmly as I could manage under the circumstances. The nurse looked up, and opened her mouth to ask something, but I cut her off. "Look, my best friend, who I'm in love with is in sugery. And I'd really appreciate it if you could just tell me how my brother is." I say sighing.

She blinks a couple times before going to a stack of folders and looking through them. "Ma'am? Can you spell the last name?" she asked as her brows furrowed in confusion. I spelled out my last name slowly as the nurse looked through the handful of folders. Twice.

"Ma'am, are you sure he was brought to this hospital?" She asked looking up confused.

"Yeah. He left right before me and my friend did. He was in the exact same type of ambulance, and this is the only hospital near the police department for thirty minutes." I say panicking as a wave of nausea swept through me.

"Hold on, let me go ask a doctor." she said sweetly as she ran to the doctor five feet behind her. I watched as they talked and she looked a bit alarmed, before pointing to me and walking away. The doctor walked slowly towards me, pulling his glasses off his face, and pinching the bridge of his nose.

"Ms. Rizzoli?" he asked slowly.

"Detective Rizzoli." I corrected as I stared him in the eyes.

"Detective. Is your brother officer Rizzoli?" he asked looking up slowly.

"Yes. What happened? Where is my brother?" I asked as panic started to control my voice.

"Detective, I'm sorry. We did everything we could. Whoever helped in the field did a tremendous job and that would have saved him had he gotten here a little faster. Whoever put that tubing in his chest saved his life, but by the time he made it here he had drowned on his own blood in the ambulance. They didn't have the equipment to do it there, and with him choking they couldn't intubate. I am so so sorry, for your loss." he said sadly as he turned to walk away. I let him as I slowly walked back to the waiting room. I sat down and put my face in my hands as I sobbed.

After a few minutes I composed myself and called Korsac. He answered the phone immediately asking questions about Maura and Frankie.

"Korsak, Maura's in surgery. She's been in surgery for two hours." I said looking at the clock and immediately wanting to get up and check on her too.

"Jane, what about Frankie?" he asked after sighing in relief.

"He...he...didn't make it." I say trying not to cry again.

"Oh Jane I am so sorry. What about your parents?" he asked sadly.

"C-can you bring them to the hospital? I can't leave Maura." I asked my voice quivering a tiny bit as I think about Maura.

He agreed and hangs up, and I ran to find a doctor. I found one a few feet from the waiting room, and asked him if he knew the status of Maura Isles. He looked at my tear stained face and told me to give him a minute. He picked up the phone on the wall and called the O.R.

"They said that she's doing great. She's held on fairly well through the whole surgery and they're almost finished." he said smiling. I thanked him profusely before turning back to the waiting room. An hour later my parents came running to me and my mother hugged me tightly. Then they asked how Frankie was and looked at me expectantly.

"Mom...Frankie di- Frankie didn't make it." I said my voice cracking as I spoke the words. My mother fell into my father as she sobs. He soothed her and looked a little sad, but immediately took in my appearance.

"Janie, what about Maura? Korsak said she got shot?" he asked watching me flinch at the memory.

"She's been in surgery for three hours." I say sinking into a chair as I run my hands through my hair. Just then a doctor comes into the waiting room.

"Maura Isles?" he asked looking around the room as I immediately jumped up and ran to him.

"How is she is she ok?" I asked impatiently.

"She just got out of surgery. There were some complications of the surgery though." he started but I intterupted.

"Wait. Complications, what complications?" I asked worried.

"Well, after we began the surgery we saw how extensive the damage was. The bullet missed all the major organs, but we saw some underlying lung and blood conditions that was making breathing impossible. We had to give her nitric oxide in order for her to be allowed to breathe with the intubation tube. The problem is that she can't stay on that forever, and if her numbers don't come up soon, then I'm afraid the nitric oxide will kill her instead of helping her. She's stable for now and in room 248 if you'd like to see her." he said slowly before walking away.

I ran all the way to her room, and almost broke down when I slowly opened the door. She looked like she was dead. She honestly did. She was so pale to begin with and now it was even worse. She was lying in a hospital bed that was so much larger than her she looked like a kid. She had an IV in her arm that went up to about five different bags of medicine. She also had about three tubes surrounding her head, which eventually went into her mouth; helping her breathe. She looked so little and frail and all I wanted to do was take her away from here. Take her from here and make her safe again. I entered and sat down in the chair next to the bed. I carefully took her small cold hand in my larger warmer one and let a small sob escape me.

I didn't know what numbers had to rise, and I didn't know if she'd be able to get them up fast enough for the doctors. She was a fighter, she honestly was, but she wasn't strong. She had her mind working for her, it gave her an advantage on how to win fights with brain alone, but she wasn't physically strong. She wasn't physically a fighter, she never had been and I was afraid that that would hurt her now. I was afraid that she wouldn't be strong enough to fight through all this medical mumbo jumbo. I laid my head gently on her hand and before I realized I had, I fell asleep...

X 4 DAYS LATER X

I was still in the room with Maura while she slept. I hadn't left her room once, and the only reason I had left her side was to go to the bathroom in her room. I hadn't changed in days I still had on the bloodstained clothes. The clothes covered in Maura's blood.. Korsak had brought me clothes earlier that day, but I was hesitant to leave her side to change clothes in case she woke up, but I realized that when she woke up she didn't need to see her blood covering my clothes. I walked into the bathroom and changed my clothes as quickly as possible, but when I came back out of the bathroom she was still asleep.

I walked over to the chair and sat back down watching her sleeping form. She had gained a little more color over the past four days, and her numbers had improved, but she still needed to shoot up another two or three numbers in order to wake up and get off the tubing and such. I sighed holding her hand once again as I picked up a book that had been brought to me sometime in the blur of days.

I started reading the back and shrugged flipping it over and opening it with one hand. I started reading but soon there was a subtle movement of a hand holding my hand back. I looked up quickly and saw Maura's beautiful grey eyes looking around confused.

I jumped up and threw the book on the table, long forgotten. I pressed the call button for the nurse, and started trying to make sure Maura stayed calm until the tube could be removed. The nurse and a doctor ran in and checked her vitals, and removed the tubing before leaving.

"J-Jane?" Maura said my name a bit confused, her voice cracking from the lack of use.

"Maura, sweetie can you remember anything? Anything at all?" I asked gently.

"T-the shooting. I-I shot myself so th-they'd help Frankie. W-where's Frankie?" she asked looking into my eyes. I looked deep into her eyes and saw nothing but innocent concern for a friend, but I was going to break that.

"M-Maura...Frankie didn't make it." I said looking at her eyes immediately tear up.

I-it's my f-fault. I s-screwed up. I-I'm so sorry." she said as she started to cry a little.

"Maura you listen to me. You did not kill my brother. The doctors said he would've been dead before the ambulance got there if you hadn't helped him." I said putting my hands on either side of her face, gently wiping away the tears.

"I-I'm so sorry." she said again as started to hug herself.

"Come here." I said pulling her into my arms carefully, and hugged her tightly as she cried. She clung onto me like she was going to die if she didn't have someone to hold onto, but a few minutes later she had at least stopped crying.

"Maura there is something important I need to tell you." I said pulling back only far enough to see her face.

"What?" she asked slowly.

"I love you. I've been keeping it inside because I know you're straight. I know you are and I know you don't love me like that, but I had to tell you because the thought of losing you without you knowing, almost killed me." I said slowly as I hugged her a bit more.

She whispered my name before leaning towards me. She looked at me and I was sure I had seen all the emotions I was feeling for her mirrored back to me in her eyes. I leaned down slowly and gently pressed my lips to her, sighing as she kissed me back.

"I love you too." she said resting her head on my shoulder...

AU: To continue, or not to continue that is the question. No seriously I am asking you *points dramatically* for advice on whether I should continue. I'm pretty sure I will anyway just because I love Jane and Maura, but still tell me! Oh and I apologize for the overload of storyline in the first chapter, but if no one wants me to continue I at least wanted it to end and make sense!