Hey people! Look, I'm sooo sooo sorry for deleting Did I Mention I Love You? Because I know some of you really wanted to know what happened but I kinda lost the plot. Actually, I was having a problem with the plot and I also realise that for the plot to take place, there were alredy too many flaws because I kinda rushed it.

So, I hope this story makes up for it (I personally think this one is better) and, as usual, reviews, comments, tips or anything are appreciated. Besides that, blah blah blah I own none of the characters, I own the plot and so on and so forth.

Yours truly, Diffyprincess. (God, you know, I seriously don't know how I came up with that username or why I even stick to it)

XoXoXo

Holly's Pov

Some people are telling me that I'm simply depressed. They're telling me not to worry. That I would get over it. You know, I try to believe them. But they only say that because they don't know the true story. And I bet if they did, they probably wouldn't care a damn of how I am now. Because now, I'm not okay. I know I'm depressed. I know I'm not eating enough and whatever else they say.

I know there's no use trying to get over him. I love him. That's it. It's not peppy talk. It's the truth. It's a fact. And it means everything to me. When I was younger, I had a simple fantasy of how my life would be like. Become a LEP Captain, find a elf to fall in love with and live happily ever after. That's it. Simple, isn't it? Sometimes I still wish I had stuck to that plan.

Instead, something completely different happens. I get kidnapped by a human. Become his friend. Go through adventures with him. Swap an eyeball with him. Kiss him. Fall in love with him. Secretly date him. Secretly marry him. And in the end, when I thought we would have a happily ever after. He leaves me. He deserted me. He died. At only twenty years of age. And that was young, even by human standards. So that brings us back to square one, I'm depressed.

Which now brings me to where I am. And I am at his funeral. My husband's funeral. His entire family knows who I really am. They had ever since we got married. Of course, they were the only ones who even knew that we were actually married. I was using one of Foaly's inventions (one he actually invented four years ago) to make me look human, the one I usually used when I would some up to the surface to be with Artemis.

And I'm crying. I mean, I was there when he died. I could've saved him. If only I had done the ritual earlier or-or if I had taken the shot Opal had fired. Even if her whole plan didn't work, she did suceed in finishing half of it. She killed the one person I had loved the most. And I just feel…so lost now. I can't stop the tears, I don't even have the spirit to. I thought we would last, unlike so many other things in my life. Everyone I loved, looked up too…they were gone. My mum, dad, my commander, and now the man I vowed to live together for the rest of my life.

He was gone. In only after two years of marriage. So I'm crying. I can't help it. I love him. Suddenly I see Angeline coming towards me. I turn to her, my face red and tear-blotched. From the look from her face I knew she been too. She had been crying. Arty was gone…and he wasn't coming back this time. No matter how much I wanted him too.

"Mum."I say to her when she comes here. Mum. I remember the first time I said that to her. She had tears in her eyes. I saw it. And I felt like crying at the time too. It had been so long since I've said that. And I look up to her just as I did with my own mum. I had been so happy in those two years, albeit a short time. I had a family. Little brothers, mum and dad, Artemis. Always Artemis.

"Holly, dear."she says, but I can see the effort she puts up to keep her voice even. I know she's hurt too.

"Yes, Mum?"

She puts a hand on my shoulder, and said, "I know how hard this is for you. To lose the one man you love.I know what it's like." I gulp, and a new batch of tears starts flowing down my cheeks but she continues anyway, "but you - you'll live for a long time, Holly. A millenium is too long a time too be alone. I want you to be happy."

I manage a small, barely visible smile. She wanted me to be happy, even if it wasn't her son. "I know, Mum. I, can't promise you though. I – I'll try."

Mum nodded and smiled at me. "You'll always be a Fowl, Holly. We'll always be there for you. We're your family."she says softly.

I nod. "Thank you, Mum."I whisper. Mum smiled again, then said, "Are- are you comin back to the manor, Holly?"

I hesitate. I – it was the place I would usually stay. But being there. Seeing everything that has so many things to do with him. I couldn't. It would hurt. Too much. "I-I'm sorry. But, I think I want to go home for a while.I'll come and pack later."I said. Mum nodded, and I knew she understood.

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I'm in my room in Fowl Manor. Our room, actually. I had been sitting on the bed for an hour now. I glance at the clock. Two forty. Foaly said he would help me get some stuff from the manor at three. I had lied, of course. I had said I just left some stuff here that needed to be brought back.

Then I turn to the picture frame in the middle of the room. The frame was made of pure gold, (Artemis had idnigantly stated he would have it no other way) and it was a picture of us. Our wedding picture. Happiest day of my life. There were about half a dozen disks on the recordings of that day, and a dozen more on the two years of our marriage. I climbed onto the bed the bed to reach for the frame and brought it down.

I lay it down on the bed and stare at it. I was in a hand embroidered wedding gown, with Artemis in a specially tailored Armani suit, a genuine smile on his face. We were in the Fowl gardens, and he had his arms around me from the back. It was my favourite picture, because of the flowers surrounding us. I remember he used to catch me staring at it sometimes, then laugh and put his hand around me. Then we'd play around for a while before going down to dinner with our family.

I missed those moments.

Okay, people. That's the end of chapter 1. Okay, I know it sounds rather uninteresting now but just bear with me people. It will get better. I promise. In fact, this might be the best fan fic I have written so far…which isn't many. But anyway, don't judge it too soon cause this will be a blast. Chappie 2 coming up!

XoXoXo,

Diffyprincess,

Your ever idiotic friend.