Title: To All My Lovers …
Author Name: Becominglight
Rating: M? for language? (or rather for one word…)
Pairing: Kalinda/Alicia… ish
Summary: Short and sweet reflections on Kalinda's many loves.
Spoilers: Season 2 finale
Disclaimer: I love Kalinda, I wish she was real. But she isn't so I'll write fanfic instead… and clearly I profit not at all from it, so don't sue, okay? Thanks.
To All My Lovers…
Peter:
It was gratitude and youthful stupidity that led to that night. It meant nothing to either of us but has made us both loose the one person who matters. I couldn't know it then, but you are my biggest mistake.
Sophia:
I didn't used to care that you were married. Now I do.
Cary:
I see your desire. I know you want me, that you do things for me because of it. Beware, I will continue to let you. I know you'd use me too given the chance, we are cut from similar cloth you and I. I will only ever let you in as far I have to, to serve my purpose because of it. Just so you know.
Donna:
I broke your heart because I was afraid to break mine. You were not meant to get that close. When I think of it I wish it had gone down differently because I did care. Mostly I try not to think of it.
Lana:
There is almost something charming in your totally lack of finesse. It's enough to make me fuck you, but that is all it's enough for.
Blake:
I wish I had never set eyes on you even if I perversely enjoyed our stand-offs (it got my blood pumping). Sorry about the bat to the ribs, but I did warn you: do not mess with me. But you get that now, don't you?
Alicia:
You, my Achilles heel. I don't know what to do with you. I was meant to hate you and I did for all of one minute. And then your quiet, unassuming manner burrowed itself under my skin, lulling me while you circumvented my defences. You knew all the right moves without knowing you knew, damn you. You saw me without judgement, you saw someone decent, honest, loyal and I began to question who saw more clearly: me or you? I wanted to be that woman for you, to deserve you. It's shattered now, all shattered. I want to hate you so I can forget. I can't. You've changed me.