i still do

by GhosthunterJen

naru is listening to a song in the office and he finally gets a few answers in his life

Naru POV

I was listening to the online radio Mai was playing on her computer very loudly and was about to stop her when a song came on the DJ called "I Still Do" by the cranberries

I'm not ready for this,
Though I thought I would be.
I can't see the future,
Though I thought I could see.

Yea just like I didn't see Gene's death before he came to Japan and I was not ok with him going without me

I don't want to leave you,
Even though I have to.
I don't want to love you.
Oh, I still do.

Just like I didn't want to leave Mai when I left to return Gene's body to England

Need some time to find myself.
I wanna live within.

I think the trip to England help me finally realize Why Gene said he had to take the trip on his own , because even if he didn't die I had to find someone as a outlet like Gene that I could truly love to move forward into the light

Can I go my own way?
Can I pray my own way?
I don't want to leave you.
Oh, I need you.

I will miss Gene but I think I need Mai more then I realized and how like my brother, she is my better other self.

Am I ready for this?
Did I think I would be?
Can I see the future?
No, I can't see.

Even if I can't see the future I can still walk toward the right path of my destined future Gene helped carve for me

I don't want to leave you,
Even though I have to.
I don't want to love you.

Oh, I still do.

I love Mai and I going to show my stupid medium of a brother I can live without him even if I still missed him

Ah, la la da da da.
Ah, I still do.

Ah, la la da da da.
Ah, I still do.

Thanks Gene, keep on helping Mai and be in peace for Mom, Dad and me