Anthems of the Gray

by Uptown Downs

When Jade starts having dreams about her past, she starts uncovering some things about herself. Like the reason why she's so uncomfortable when she's around men, around Beck. But Jade can't handle knowing. How far will she go to forget about what she has uncovered. What will Beck do to save her?

1. Anthems of the Gray

Takes place after Tori Goes Platinum.

Jade's Point of View:

I wake up and I turn over to find Beck next to me. Beck I call, I feel so lethargic it's a wonder my eyes opened. I lay there a couple of seconds before I gather enough energy to shove Beck. One shove... Wooh... I'm exhausted. I lay there again in stillness before I shove again. This time I use all my might, which is not much considering. Two shoves... Oh my goodness... still no answer. I lay there for more time, which seems endless, until I gather enough energy. Brace yourself Jade... Three shoves...and I do not understand if had woken him or not. I guess that shove was to much for me. Because once I rest my hand, my heart goes insane and starts throbbing in my chest. It's to much for my already broken body and I'm plunged into a deep sleep without my consent.

When I wake again, I feel fully energized. Normally fully energized. Like what coffee used to do to me. Beck is still laying beside me. In front of me now because now I am on my side. This time I lift up and shove him. It takes him a while to wake up and turn around and when he does... My heart begins to race at the sight. This human being next to me is not Beck Oliver, this human being next to me is none other than Perry Eagan West... my father. What the heck, is he doing here. Then there is blackness and he is carrying me into a . I don't feel as big. It's because I'm not. When he puts me down and my little size 3 child feet hit the floor, I can see my self in the room I am in that its filled with mirrors. I am a little girl. I have snow white skin, big bulging blue eyes, bark brown hair and dimples. I am dressed in a light yellow skirt with the matching jacket. Under my jacket is a white shirt. Then my dad pulled me close to one of the mirrors. He's saying something, all I can here is the sound of party music being played, children laughing. Then he kneels down on one knee and brushes my hair back with his fingers. Then he kisses me on my neck. Then suddenly his fingers travel from my hair to my...

I awake in great terror. The gray walls greet me with sorrow and let me know I am in my room. The melody of my heart sings through my head. Sweat drowns me, and I can taste the salt of it in my mouth. Finally, when the drumming stops in my head. And my resting heart rate becomes normal. The memories of my dream come flashing into my mind.