This is it.
This is the last scan Augustus will ever have. They gave him a few weeks left to live, if he's lucky. I'll throw a million coins in a wishing well just for it to come true.
They want to check to see if the cancer had spread to any other parts of his body. Not that it mattered. He would die anyway.
I'm in the room with him. The doctors wanted someone familiar to him to be there. His mother had insisted that it would be me. Augustus had agreed.
I wasn't about to say no. I wanted to spend what time I had left with him, actually being with him.
So, here I sit. Watching the screen that will 'light up like a christmas tree' as Augustus had put it. Any minute now, it will. I wonder what it will look like. Would it have spread to other parts of his body? Would it have reduced some? I want to smack my self for thinking that. Of course it wouldn't.
I'm so caught up in my thoughts that I don't notice the nurse trying to tell me something.
"I'm sorry. What did you say?" I ask politely. She just smiles.
"I was just asking if you wanted to see the results. No one has seem them yet. Everyone wanted Augustus and you see them first," she tells me. I nod my head quickly. Of course I wanted to see it. "Well, Augustus is waiting to come in. So I'll go get him," she says. I nod my head and she leaves to get him. A minute later he walks in, slowly. He didn't want to use his wheelchair anymore. Everyone argued, even me, about it. He just said he didn't want to spend that last moments of his life in a wheelchair.
He gingerly sits down in the seat next to me. I take his hand and he smiles at me.
"Whatever the results are, I'll still love you," I tell him. He smiles, but stays quiet. The nurse walks back in with a shocked expression on her face. I get worried quickly.
"What is it?" I ask frantically. She shakes her head, like she can't believe something.
"His scan," she says. I close my eyes fearing the worse. I hear Augustus inhale a sharp breath as the picture comes on the screen. I slowly open my eyes, waiting for the bright light to come.
It never does.
The scan is blank. Theres no lights. In some areas there are, just a little, but in others there aren't.
"Why is it so…blank?" Augustus finally asks.
"Thats what I was wondering," I add. The biggest grin ever is put on the nurses face.
"Augustus, you beat the cancer," she says excitedly. My eyes widen.
"What? How is that possible?" I ask, hopefulness exploding inside of me. I look at Augustus and a shit-eating grin is on his face.
"The cancer…it lost. He got rid of it. All of his medicine…it actually worked," she tells us.
Augustus is going to live. He's going to live with me.
I grab his face in my hands and I kiss him with everything I have.
Its finally going to be okay.
So, I recently finished the book. It was an amazing book, but I hated that Augustus died. Even John Green regretted killing him. He says that he wished that he had killed the cancer instead. Well, here you go.