Story: Together.
Summary: Garnet couldn't remember when it started, but slowly she had kept receiving more and more mixed possible visions of Amethyst getting hurt or worse. That's when somebody noticed that she had apparently phased herself into a long sleeved shirt.
Warnings: Self-harm involved. PLEASE NOTE that this story may seemed rushed at some points and OOC, but it's because I wrote this more out of stress than anything else and I've literally just got into the SU fandom, so try not to be too harsh. I may edit this first chapter in the future. I'll try to update the next chapter whenever I can. Also, the reason I used Amethyst for this idea is because many people write Pearl or Steven self-harming, but I wanted to write for Amethyst since there's not a lot out of it there.
Amethyst had always seemed to be a fairly carefree person, but, at the same time, preferred doing and dealing with things alone. Little did many of the others know that she had had a serious problem with depression in the past. Although, most of the time she could handle it by simply dismissing it, without others noticing anything. But some days were just extremely hard to live with, and she had been a lot of those lately. And, as many could tell, just by being around her, she wasn't exactly the best at expressing her feelings in positive ways, and didn't really think things through at times. She had always been a bit... rambunctious.
However, it didn't take Garnet and Pearl long to notice how she had began withdrawing to herself more than ever and wasn't eating as much lately(not that she needed to, she supposed, since she was a gem). Pearl had scolded her several times, for not paying proper attention to details anymore or getting distracted on important missions, along with leaving bigger messes around than usual. But she still tried to act casual and such despite not feeling up to it at the slightest anymore. Even the things she used to enjoy didn't appeal to her anymore. These feelings had gotten worse after the Kindergarten incident, but only recently had she started feeling this overwhelmed. At times, it felt as though it was literally weighing her very being down.
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Garnet couldn't remember when they started, but slowly she had kept receiving more and more mixed future visions of Amethyst getting hurt or worse. She couldn't tell if they were by accident or on purpose. However, when anybody tried to approach her and ask if she was feeling okay, she simply put on a facade of casualness. Still, Garnet knew better, and wasn't sure if the others could tell that something was off or not. Eventually, Ruby's side of her began to seethe, knowing that Amethyst was possibly endangering their team, yet she acted like nothing was wrong at all. Garnet considered that maybe it would be better if she stopped Amethyst from going on missions for a while until she had some time to herself. Still, why wouldn't Amethyst just let somebody in?
Sure, she could read certain possibilities into the future, but it was limited, as well as the fact that it took energy to do so, and she couldn't read a person's mind. And while, in certain ways she felt helpless, she knew she couldn't keep wasting her powers on this, because it was taking a toll on her own physique.
Even so, she couldn't just things to persist like this, so since she refused to speak on her troubles or even acknowledge them in the presence of the others, Garnet decided she would have to discuss this with Pearl to see if she too had noticed anything herself.
So, one day, Steven was preparing to go to the movie theater to watch a movie with Sadie, Lars, Sour Cream, and a few others that he had personally invited.((forgive me, I had to come up with something)) He had initially wanted to invite them all to come, and Pearl seemed to be interested, but Garnet told him that her and Pearl had something to do, but that Amethyst was free, and suggest he should invite her, which he naturally did.
When Amethyst heard about it, a small part of her almost seemed reluctant, but in the end, she decided to go, obviously trying to act casual. That's when somebody noticed that she had apparently phased herself into a dark long sleeved shirt, which seemed out of place since she always wore a tank top of sorts.
"I rarely ever see you wear long sleeves, Amethyst." Pearl commented, raising an eyebrow. "If I may inquire, what is with your sudden decision to change?"
Amethyst wasn't in a good mood to begin with, and ended up taking offense to her question and comment even though there was no logical reason. It was none of Pearl's business what kind of clothes she wore. On the other hand, Amethyst didn't really feel like arguing. She looked away briefly. "No reason. I just felt like wearing something different is all."
Pearl was about to press further, but Steven spoke first. He seemed doubtful. "Are you sure you wanna wear that, though? It's kind of hot outside..."
"Nah, I'll be fine, buddy." Amethyst shrugged, briefly patting Steven's head, nonchalantly, but yet slightly tense as if hiding something. Truthfully, it was her arms. The night beore, she had been caught up in a fit of depression, and was extremely frustrated, because she couldn't cry. She wasn't thinking straight, and punched a mirror in her room, not caring anymore at that point. In fact, if anything, she was even more irritated that that's what it took to release her emotions. Pieces of the mirror flew everywhere. Upon seeing the shattered mirror on the ground, she had grabbed a broken shard, instantly digging it straight into her 'skin' to 'feel more', as she generated blood, watching it flow down her arm. However, it wasn't something she was exactly proud of, and perhaps she was a little scared of herself after last night, but she had no intentions of letting anybody know. Besides, she had no plans of going back to that again.
"Alright then. We should go before we're late. C'mon, Amethyst!" Steven said, pulling her out the door with him. She flinched at the contact, but allowed her to be pulled.
"Yeah, I'm comin."
Pearl looked to Garnet, who seemed to be tenser than ever. It admittedly made Pearl feel anxious. Was there something Garnet was upset with her over? With her shades, it was hard to tell what Garnet was feeling.
"Garnet...? Is everything wrong? Why did you need me to stay?" She asked, rubbing her own left arm awkwardly, eyes darting away.
"Pearl. Something is really off with Amethyst." Garnet said, her voice sounding troubled.
"...I... noticed it too... but I... I'm not sure what could be upsetting her... She has everything." Pearl stated.
"I can't be for certain, but... I think she's wearing long sleeves because she may have hurt herself."
"What...? But Amethyst hasn't been..." Pearl's eyes widened. "Oh my stars. You don't mean..."
"Yes, I do." Garnet confirmed her suspicion. "I keep getting future visions on missions and elsewhere... As such, we can only assume Amethyst is a danger to herself right now. We should to talk to her."
"I would agree, but it's not like she'd even listen, Garnet... Amethyst is simply too stubborn and set in her ways to let anybody else influence her opinions of herself, whether they are negative or positive." Pearl seemed abrasive yet distraught suddenly, folding her arms, averting her gaze as if she knew something.
Garnet couldn't deny it, but Amethyst was a friend. She wouldn't simply give up on her. She was about to say something, but Pearl suddenly tensed up, speaking. "I mean I want to help her, but she... We don't get along... I would only make things worse if I tried to..."
"No, you're wrong." Garnet said, suddenly taking her by surprise. "That's precisely why. It may be true that you and Amethyst argue a lot, but... You're also rivals. She looks up to you. That's exactly why you're just as suited confront her as I am, if not more."
"But I... No,... you're right... And Amethyst is my friend. I should be there for her in whatever way I can, and keep her straight."
"We'll both be there for her, Pearl. Together."
Even though they hoped that Amethyst hadn't done to herself what they thought she did, Garnet, unfortunately, was usually spot-on when she 'suspected' something.
End of Chapter
A/N: As I said, I'll try to update when I can. Please do review if you want.