Hey guys! Look I know that I have another story I'm working on hand have been for a while, but I couldn't help myself. I started watching Attack on Titan a while ago and just now went to re-watch and when this idea popped in my head.
I really hope you guts like it, I know there may be mistakes hidden in here somewhere, but there isn't much I can do about that. I'm a writer, not an editor.
Do not expect a new chapter really fast. I will try my best to get it out as fast as I can, but I am a busy woman. I have a kid and everything, so its hard enough to get it out.
I DO NOT OWN ATTACK ON TITAN. JUST MY OWN PERSONAL CHARACTER.
The names Katerina Weis. I am twenty-five, and have been in the Survey Corps for about five years now. I'm one of the oldest members along with being one of the very few that have lasted this long without getting eaten, or killed by a titan. I have gotten bit by one, but all I got was a nasty scar from my left rib, up my back. Even though the Titan bit me all around, this was the only part the scared.
Today I get to meet my new Captain. I got transferred due to the discovery of a human named Eren Yeager who can turn himself into a titan. I was ordered to help keep watch, as the Captain would need it since he has to watch out for his entire team.
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I woke up at the same time that I do every day, 4AM, and got into a white tank top, and some black cargo pants. I threw on my running boots and threw my mid-back length, dyed red hair, in a ponytail. I make my way outside and start to stretch my legs and arms. It was a chilly morning, but I didn't mind. I like the cold so it all works out for me. After I was done stretching I started to jog my way around the camp. Everyone was still asleep. The first people to get up wouldn't wake till about five or six in the morning, so I had enough time to myself before having to have actual responsibilities.
By the time the sun was starting to show, indicating that it was about five-thirty, I was already back inside and in the communal showers, panting and turning on the shower. I strip down and catch myself in the mirror. My green eyes stared at green before they travel down to where my scar was. I run my hand along the part of the scar that was visible. Even though it happened a year ago, I still have nightmares about that day. I can still feel that titan's mouth slowly tearing my flesh open. I still don't know who saved me, the one who killed that titan. I know that the person belonged to the squad that I will be joining today, but that person was probably dead by now. I hop into one of the showers and start to wash up. I wonder what the new captain was like. I mean, he had to be good for staying alive for as long as he has. But I wonder if he will be cocky about it all, like all the other captains that I've had.
Who knows.
I turn off the water and grab a white towel to dry myself off. I walk out and to my bedroom to get changed into my uniform. I put my still damp hair in yet another ponytail as well. Even though today I was only going to meet my new team, and Eren Yeager, I still wore it anyways, the only part of the uniform I didn't wear was the 3DMG, seeing as I shouldn't need it today. I wasn't even going on rounds after, which was strange to say the least.
I got to the mess hall at around six-fifteen, there were only a few people there, but more were slowly arriving. I grab myself an apple, a bowl of porridge, and a cup of coffee, black. I sit down in a corner of the room, not like anyone would bother me. I don't make friends very easily. I apparently give people this look that says 'go away, or I'll kill you'. I don't see how though because I just have a neutral face on most of the time. After I finished eating breakfast, I made my way to the office building on camp, where I would be meeting my new Captain and Yeager. What was the captains name again? Levi? I think that's it.
I make it to the room and knock. I hear a muffled 'come in' before I opened the door. As soon as I took a step in I gave my salute.
"Ah yes, miss Weis. Please, come in." I brake my salute and close the door and walk towards the desk were two men were. One was behind it, the other, who was leaning on the wall to the left, was probably the new captain. He had this black hair that was short, down to the top of his ear, it was also shaved underneath, giving it this finished, clean cut, look. His stare though. It pierced right through you. It was blank, no emotion. Grey looking down at my own green orbs. I could feel something inside me, like I knew this man in front of me. But where?
"Please, sit." I nod and take a seat in front of this blonde man, Commander Erwin. I was told he was a nice guy. I never had the chance to actually meet him, although I have been on missions with his team before. I keep my hands rested on my knees. Even though I know why I'm here, and it's not a big deal or anything, but this man, my potentially new captain, is staring holes into the side of my head. It makes my breath hold in my throat, my palms sweaty, and my spine straight.
"Now you know why you're here, Miss Weis? Your original captain told you yes?" asks the commander. I just nod, not really trusting my voice at this moment. Commander Erwin leans forward with his elbows resting on his desk, and his chin also resting on the back of his hands. "Then we can make this meeting as short as possible before heading off to train the new recruits. This man here is Levi. You and him will both be co-captains, leading his team, but your main job is to keep an eye on Eren Yeager. You are aware of his...condition, yes?" I nod. Wait...did he just say co-captain? "Wait sir, I'm sorry to interrupt, d-did you say, co-captains, s-sir?" I ask with a shaky voice. My other captain never told me I was being promoted..
Commander Erwin raised an eyebrow at me, letting his hands fall back down to the desk, but still leaning forward. "Your captain didn't tell you?" I shook my head and glance down at my hands. I hear a sigh and some shifting. I look back up and Erwin had leaned back in his chair, his hands resting on the arm rests and he was looking over at Levi. I glance over at him with enough time to see his eyes flicker just the slightest bit in annoyance. That wasn't towards me was it?
"Well, I guess this news to you is new. I hope its a happy one. Congratulations on your promotion. But, the reason that I'm not having you lead a team right off is because we have had some problems in the past. For now, we will have you and Levi both be captains till you can venture off on your own. Although of course Mr. Yeager is our top priority at the moment. We have a mission coming up, and I want you, and him to be ready for whatever could happen." I nod, flexing my hands, they seem to be very stiff at the moment.
Erwin stands up and I do as well. "Well, its time to meet your new team. Welcome to the Special Operations Squad, Captain Weis." I smile and Salute him. He smiles back and also salutes. I start for the door and before I could get there, Levi had already beaten me to it and was waiting out in the hallway, looking impatient. I raise my eyebrow at him. We were supposed to be equals, so why would he be so annoyed with me? Was it because he thought that Commander Erwin's actions were to punish for something? Could it be that he thinks that the Commander doesn't trust him enough to be able to handle Eren and his team by himself? Or was it just the fact that he just didn't like me? I guess I'll never know.
I follow next to Captain Levi as we head to the part of the training grounds where I would be meeting the team. We walked in silence, which, was anything but comfortable. When we got close, I saw them either standing around, or sitting on the ground talking and laughing. One of them spotted us and smiled, letting everyone else know. The people who were sitting stood up and brushed themselves off, giving a salute like the rest of them. When Levi and I stood in front of them, we both gave them as quick salute before dropping it, Levi with his hands behind his back, staring down a brown haired boy, and I, with my hands crossed against my chest with a blank face. I studied each and every one of these people, starting from the right to left.
The one that Levi was staring down was sweating and trying to look anywhere but him. There was a black haired girl next to him standing closer than the others, They obviously must know each other. She had a closed off expression. My gaze falls on the next boy, who was also standing close the the boy. He was sweating, obviously nervous, but very determined. He had blond hair that fell to his shoulders, he stared straight ahead, trying not to show that he was scared as shit. The next man, also had blond hair, but it was tied back. He also had a little bit of a beard as well. He didn't look nervous he just stood there, staring forward, holding his salute. The next was girl who wore a small, warm smile. Her light ginger hair rested on her shoulders. She seemed pretty short, but the shortest seem to be the fastest ones on the 3DMG's.
This next man seemed to be older than the rest. He had pronounced wrinkles littering his face. He had slightly curly light brown hair, styled into an undercut, somewhat like how Captain Levi's hair was. He also, like Levi, wore a cravat. He just stood in the same manor as the man next to him, yet his eyebrows were down more into a scowl. Lastly, this, boy, who had brown hair, cut short and styled to be pointed in the back, stood with a stoic facial expression, but had a few beads of sweat on his temple. He kept glancing down the line to the first boy, then back forward. Well, if they're part of Levi's team, they probably expect to take it a little hard. Looks like I got to get my acting skills out.
I let myself shift on my feet till I was standing with my right hip out a bit, and my hands on my hip. I snort and roll my eyes, making everyone look over at me. This, is supposed to be our most elite team?
They look like a bunch of idiot children! I bet they're good though.
"Look brats, Commander Erwin has it in his brain that my team needs a second captain." so he did think that the commander thought he wasn't capable! "This here is Katerina Weis." I just roll my eyes and look over at Levi. Seriously hate me already? I didn't even get to say a single word to you yet!
"Listen here you little shits, as much as I would love to be somewhere else, I'm stuck here with your stupid baby faces! Except for you grandpa, how old are you anyways!" I got glares from each and every one of them, all but two. The one Levi was staring down, and the blond one that seemed to be attached to him. The brown haired boy just stared forward, while his blond friend looked to his feet. I walked up the the brown haired one and got in his face as much as my short ass could.
"Whats your name slinky?" The kid didn't falter. He may be scared as shit, but there's a fire in his eyes.
"Eren Yeager, Ma'am!" Ah, so this is the titan boy? I look him up and down, while slowly bringing myself to look at the girl next to him. I stepped back next to Levi. "Starting with you and skipping slinky over here, state your names."
"Mikasa Acerman."
"A-Armin Arlert."
"Eld Jinn."
"Petra Ral!"
"Oluo Bozado." He more growled his name than anything.
"Gunther Schultz." I look at each and every one of them with a blank expression. Okay, now I guess I know why people don't like me much.
"Pathetic." They all dropped their hands to their sides as mine waved at all of them.
"Excuse me?" The one named Gunther stated. I suck at my teeth.
"All of you are pathetic! Get to the forest. I want each and every one of you to show me what you got and maybe, just maybe I wont think you're pathetic. Go!" They all start to make a run for the forest.
"Yeager! You stay here a minute!" Eren Yeager stopped and turned around, a confused look played on his face. I walk towards him and put a hand on his shoulder and smile. "So I hear you're the titan shifter huh?" He flinched a little before nodding. I gave a small chuckle as I push him forward a little, indicating that I wanted him to walk. I could feel Levi's eyes bore into the back of my neck, making my hair stand on end.
"Don't worry, I'm not afraid of you. Calm your nerves." He looked over at me in disbelief. I can understand that. I did call him slinky and treat every one of them like shit. I gave a goofy smile and waved my hand in front of my face. "I'm not really like that. I was putting on a show for mister 'stick up my ass' back there." He seemed to relax a bit and rub his shoulder.
"Well it is nice to know that someone here at this camp doesn't think I'm going to eat them ma'am. Of course except for Armin and Mikasa. We grew up together...er, ma'am" I clicked my tongue. I knew it. "I figured that was the case. They stood quite close to you in line there. Also, quit with the ma'am thing, I feel old when you do that! Just call me Captain Weis, and when were alone feel free to just call me Kat." I stick my tongue out at him while he raised his eyebrow. "Alone, captain?" Ah, no one seemed to tell the boy anything!
"The commander actually put me on the team because he wanted an extra pair of eyes on you. I'm also supposed to help you with your special training to control your titanus form." His brow formed a frown while his mouth fell. Poor kid. I ruffle his head just as we reached the forest edge, the rest of the team already swinging away, waiting for us to arrive. "Look, I know that a lot of people are afraid of you, hate you, et cetera, but I'm here to help you. I may not be in an expert at this thing, but I believe if you can get complete control of this thing, then we just might win against these damn titans out there. Sweetie you're our best bet at beating these things!" That seemed to perk him up a bit. I push him towards the forest. "Now, get out there and show me what you got. Just try not to go all beast on us though. I don't want to have to explain that to the Commander and mr. fancy pants." Eren flashed me a smile before using his gear to shoot him into the forest. I sighed before swinging in myself. Watching each and every one of them. They were good on their feet. I should have known that they would be good, this team was hand picked specifically.
For the next few weeks, Levi stood back and let me lead the team in their training. We did hand to hand, practice formations, we went over everything that we could think of, and later when everyone went to bed, Eren and I stayed up to train. He was tense. He was so afraid of changing while on camp. He wasn't a monster like everyone thought he was, he's just a boy that is so determined to destroy the titans. More determined than the whole damn army combined!
Even though we didn't make any progress the mission was right around the corner. Just a few more weeks. Levi's team was getting irritated with me. They don't understand why I am so nice to Eren, but a hard ass with them. Is it a valid reason to say that it was fun?
"I can't take this Captain Weis, You push us to see what we can do but haven't seen you do shit! How do we know you're any good!?" I raised an eyebrow at the girl. They're shitting me right?
"The hell you getting at there cadet." She's usually reserved, a lot nicer. I must have made her snap. She growled in my direction. Yup, finally snapped. "Why don't you get in the ring!?" I clicked my tongue before giving a short chuckle, pointing at her. I catch Levi glance at me from where he was leaning on the wall of the building. We were inside sparing, using the punching bags, et cetera. "Look here cadet, I would flatten you in two seconds, what makes you think that-"
"Get in the ring, brat." I sucked through my teeth and glared at the man. Levi had been quite for almost this entire month while I train his team without a single incite on what I should and shouldn't be doing. Frankly, he started to test my patience. "I'm sorry, are you talking to me?" I said through my teeth, obviously trying to show some kind of restrain. He clicked his tongue in disgust and shrugged his scout jacket off. Neatly folding it and placing it on a near by table, also pulling his cravat out and placing it on top of the jacket. He loosened a few buttons and rolled his sleeves up. He walked towards the ring and climbed in. My jaw dropped. He wanted me to fight him!?
"Get in, brat." I growled at him. "You expect me to just up and follow your orders? After the almost month long silence?" He just glared at me. Finally I gave in and groaned. I would have to show my stuff at some point. I head over to another table, one that had fighting gear laid across it. I shrugged my jacket off as well, stripping my button down shirt off, leaving me in my white tank top. I grabbed the chalk and clapped some on my hands in a puff of white smoke before wrapping both my hands in the cream colored wrapping. I stretch my arms and neck as I walk to the ring. I hop in and put my hands out, my fists up in my face, palms facing me, and my legs bent and wide apart. He just stood across from me, staring. We stood like that for a few minutes. Getting irritated, I decided to speak, not breaking my form. "Take a picture it'll last longer." Well that was a mistake.
Shit.
This jerk was fast.
With a flick of his eyes he lunged at me, sending a kick my way. I was just able to block in with my arms. With a twist, I grab his leg and pull, hoping to throw him down to the ground and be done with it.
Again, big mistake.
Somehow he used it to his advantage and kicked my feet out from under me. He grabbed my arms and flipped me so my face smashed against the not so soft floor of the ring, his knee in my back and arms pinned. Shit this guy was good, and man did this position hurt. I could hear cheers from the team and I just shoot a glare their way.
"We're done for today. Now get out of my sight you little brats." Still pinned, I watch the team give another cheer as they leave. Eren shoots me a look saying that he will see me later. He had look of pity also plastered on his face. I guess he's no stranger to this either. From what seemed like forever I heard a sigh before finally being released. I groan as I flipped over on my back, looking up at the ceiling. I'm pissed he beat me, but my pride is hurt more than anything. I look over and watch the man dress. The way he keeps the same stoic expression all day I don't know.
Although, I will admit, that look, disheveled hair, and small bit of sweat on the back of his neck, it set a fire in me. This man, is hot as fuck and I don't even think he tries. I blush and sit up, my muscles screaming at me from being man-handled. I just sat up and watched him dress himself, the pull out a handkerchief and wiped the back of his neck before running a hand through his hair. I swallow, the fire burning hotter and hotter. He looks over and catches me staring. I just blush harder and stand up quickly, flinching. Damn he really did a number on me.
I turn away from him and hop out of the ring, heading towards my things. I have my hand on my clothing as I hear him walking out of the building, and the door close, I let out a long grown. That man could be so enchanting. For some reason anger bubbled to the surface of my skin. I bare my teeth and let out a yell. This same man is the one that lazied around watching me with no intent to help. What a bastard. I stalk over to a punching bag, needing to get rid of this fire in me. I imagine the mans face on the bag and growl as I punched it over and over again. Sweat eventually started pouring down my body. I pause to pull the tank top off, leaving me in my sports bra, and wiping my face. I threw my shirt to the side, continuing where I left off.
"Bastard, bastard, bastard, bastard…"I just keep mumbling through my grinding teeth as I watched the wrap around my hands start to seep a dark maroon color. I don't stop. I don't care that I'm bleeding. I need to get this frustration out. I hear the door open and close but I just keep going. I hear footsteps walking up to me, and a hand on my shoulder, finally making me stop with one more punch of the bag, making it break open and sand pour over my bloodied hand. I was painting. I look over my shoulder at the hand, then at the hands owner. He smiled at me with a small smile. He looks at my back, the smile fading as his brow dips.
"He really did a number on you, he left a bruise." I look away from him as he stepped around me, my hands falling to my sides. Eren reaches down and grabs one hand and unwraps it. My knuckles were bloodied and bruised, Eren flinched as I just look up, and to the side with a sigh. "Looks like you did a number here too. Come on, let's get you cleaned up." He grabs my wrist and leading me to the sink in the back room. I winced my hand stung as he ran my hands under cool water. I look at this boy's face. So concentrated, concerned. How anyone could think that he was dangerous I will never know.
When he was done with patching up my hands, which only had a few long cuts, nothing major other than the dark bruises all along my knuckles, I got dressed again and headed to the mess hall with Eren at my side. He was really a good kid. He was driven, and kind. I feel bad that people fear him, the poor kid. We walked in and grabbed our food. I grab a coffee and sit down with Eren and his friends. I drown them out as I stare into my coffee, swirling it and location ally taking a sip. How could a man I barely knew have such an effect of me? How could I let it when we have much more problems to deal with. I take a glance over at Levi.
He was sitting next to Erwin, leaning back in his chair, one leg crossed over the other and sipping on coffee. He held his cup from the top. He glances over at me, meeting my gaze. I don't move as he just stares. His eyes flicker down to my hands and I swear I saw them twitch. I put my coffee down and hide my hands in my lap before looking down at them. Fresh blood had seeped through the small bandages Eren had put on me. I glance back at him just in time to look away. I looked back over at the people at my table. They were laughing and smiling. I couldn't hear what they were saying as I tuned out the world. I downed the rest of my coffee before getting up and retreating to the showers. I could feel stares on the back of my neck. Little did I know that Eren wasn't the only one watching me with a frown.
I hiss as I strip my clothing off, and walked to look in the mirror. My back sported a dark bruise, as bad as on my knuckles, right in the middle. "Was that man trying to kill me?" I mumble to myself as I hop into one of the showers, turning it on ice cold. I shiver at first before sighing and closing my eyes, letting my head loll back as the cold felt nice on my hot skin. I swear I stood there like they for minutes, not hearing a person step into the shower next to me.
"You'll get sick and be useless if you keep it that cold brat." I growled and switched it to steaming hot, gasping at the temperature. I let out a small moan as my muscles started to relax. I put my hands out against the wall in front of me, watching as blood ran down the wall and down the drain. Well that's annoying. I'm going to have to get that checked out. I fixed the temperature so it was just warm. The shower went on beside me as I washed down. I finally shut the water off and reach out of the shower to grab the white towel off the hook. I wrap it around myself and go and stand by the sink where my clothes were. I looked into the mirror above and just stared. You could see a few scars on my body above the towel, I glare at them. Because of them, no man would want me. Not like it mattered, I was growing older as the days drag on, and no man would want an older woman. I let out a sigh and scratch the back of my head.
"Hey brat. You going to hog the sink or what." I jumped forgetting that Levi was even in here. My towel fell to the ground around me and I blushed. I quickly grab it and wrap it around myself, glancing at him through the mirror. His eyes sunk down, staring at my back, and mouth somewhat ajar. He closes his mouth and looks away, the stoic expression back on his face. I look down at my hand that was folded on the sink, blood had poured down it. I looked at my other hand holding the towel on my body. It was soaked red. My vision started to blur. Shit, I must have lost more blood than I thought. I go to leave, but instead I fell to the floor, hitting my head on the sink on my way down, knocking me out. But not before heading someone yell. I couldn't understand what was said, but I know it happened.
I groan as I feel my head pound hard. Man what happened?
"She's waking up." Oh right I remember now. Shit. I feel someone sitting on the edge of the bed holding my hand. Wait a minute. My eyes burst open and I sit up fast with a gasp, pulling the blanket up to cover me, only to wince in pain and fall back on the bed. A hand falls on my forehead and another grab my hand again. "Calm down, you're clothed now." I give a sigh of relief as I look over at Eren. His brow was low on his face, as if he was unhappy with something.
"So what happened?" I watched as Eren retreated his hand from my head and held my hand with his two hands, running his thumbs on the bandages that was my hand. "You passed out after taking a shower and captain Levi carried you all the way here. Not only had you lost a lot of blood due to the cuts on your hands not clotting, like they were supposed to, but they said your blood sugar was low." I look down, yeah all my fault.
"I had noticed you don't eat much of anything recently, I didn't think anything of it. Is everything okay?" Other than the fact that I've been wanting to run because I have to a lead a team with no help from a sadistic, close-mouthed man with a look that could make anyone's hands clam up? I give out a sigh and turned to give him a smile. I reached a shaky hand up and cupped his cheek, making him loosen his tense shoulders a bit. "Honestly? I'm fine, just a little scared Eren."
"For a soldier who has been killing Titans for a long time, brat, you're actually scared of something?" My body tensed for a second. Not because I was afraid of him, but out of anger. I look opposite of Eren and see Levi sitting on a chair, leaned back with a leg over his knee. He was sipping on what looked like black tea, seeing as I didn't smell coffee. I tighten my jaw. I am so done with this man that it's not even funny anymore.
"The hell are you doing here?" He glanced up at me before looking back at his tea, swirling it around, like I had done earlier. "Waiting for you to wake." I raised an eyebrow at the man. Why would he care if I was okay? He sets his tea down and folds his hands on this knee and sets his cold, grey eyes at me. "The scar. Where did you get it from." My breath in my throat. I feel Eren tense up next to me as well. Probably too scared to have asked as well. I knew he saw it but didn't want to ask questions. I just stare at the man before me, his eyes still unreadable as ever.
"Bit by a Titan." That's all I said, not really wanting to return to that memory. I just stopped having nightmares about it. But the man doesn't look all to convinced that that was it. "How." I look down, wrapping my hands around myself. I'm probably going to have to tell him or he won't back off. Eren stood up, facing his captain. "Why are you pushing the issue sir?" I grabbed his hand and pulled him back down, I looked at him, he was a worried and a tad angry. Understandable. I look back over to Levi, giving him a bank expression. "I was saving a teammate when I got grabbed by the Titan instead. He went to bite me In half, but someone killed it before it could finish. That scar was all that's left. Happy now?" Eren's hand squeezed mine, fully knowing the fear that I had, having been in the mouth of a Titan before. Levi looked down and rubbed the back of his neck. Was this man showing emotion? Nah, it's just my imagination. He stood up and went to leave and stopped at the end of my bed. Not looking at me, he spoke.
"Come to my room when you're out. I want to speak to you about the upcoming exposition, idiot." I watched as he walked off. What is with this man? First he demands to know about a scar on my back, and then he's set on the mission! I could never understand him. I hear a sigh next to me. I turn to Eren and he's rubbing his cheek. He looks tired. I smile at him and squeeze his hand, making ho look at me. "Eren you're tired. Go get some rest. I appreciate all this concern, but I'm a big girl, I can take care of myself." Eren shook his head. This boy seriously gets too attached to things. He lays his head down on the pillow next to me and I scotch over, giving him some room. He lets off a small sigh as he closes his eyes. I reach over and move his bangs out of his face as it started to soften. His breath was getting slower, indicating that he was asleep. Poor kid was tired because he didn't want to leave me. I smile down at him as I trace my hand over his cheek. Why did it have to be him that shifted. He was a good and strong willed kid, so why him? I let out as sigh and look at the ceiling. Next thing I knew, nurses came by asking me how I was feeling and letting me know that I could leave whenever. I told them that Eren needed help to is bedroom and they just stared at him, scared. I told them that he was just exhausted, so it should be easy to move him.
They finally did get him up to his room and I got dressed in the clothes I presume Eren had grabbed from my room for me. All it was was a tank top and a pair of black cargo pants, along with my boots. I wrestle with my tangle of hair to get it in a ponytail. After finally succeeding, I make my way to my room, wanting to get some proper sleep. Those infirmary beds were hard as a rock. Just as I was about to walk into my room, I saw a light coming from the crack of the door across from me. I peak in to see the one and only captain Levi. He was sitting at his desk, hair disheveled, shirt unbuttoned completely, showing how strong he was, along with scars. That fire that long been put out, lit up again. Why did this man have to be so attractive, I would be be able to hate this man so much easier if he wasn't.
"How long are you going to stand their and stare." Shit I had been found out. I walked in and gave a salute. Without looking at me, he waves his hand, telling me to stop with the formalities. I close the door behind me before letting my hands fall to my sides. I just stared at him as he finished reading and signing a piece of people and putting it on a stack of papers. He looks up at me, his hands in his lap.
"Why did you join the survey corps." I raised my eyebrow, mainly at the question asked, but also because he hadn't called me a brat yet. "Answer me brat." There it is. I shifted on my feet. "Well it was because I wanted to help reclaim the land for humanity. I mean, I was scared, I saw how few of you actually make it back from the missions you go on, most of them unsuccessful, but determination burning in your eyes as you road in." He just stared at me. I don't even know why he was even asking me in the first place. It didn't seem like a question that he would need to know.
"If you wanted to help humanity why did you risk yourself for a teammate, almost getting yourself killed in the process." Ah, so that's why. "Stupidly going in to save a comrade, getting yourself caught, that's not helping humanity. That's just prolonging the inevitable of the soldiers death. You put others in danger by not being the best you can be. If other soldiers had seen you give up. They would do so as well. You need to keep yourself focused on the target. The mission. Not on whether or not your team is safe. You can save them by still being alive. Not half eaten by a titan. Idiot." I sighed. I knew he was right, but I want everyone to be safe before me.
" I am replaceable." His eyes flash before he quickly stands up, his chair knocked over, and the next thing in knew I was pinned against the door, his face starling. "No one is replaceable." I gulp, his face is so close, I can feel his breath on my top lip. He had to bend a little, seeing he was a tad taller than me. I look from those burning eyes to the side, my eyes drooping a little in sadness. He was right, but I didn't care all that much. I helped others before myself. That's the way it always had been, that's how it always will be. The grip on me loosened until it was finally gone. I look over just in time to see him pick up his chair and sit down with his head in his hair. He was frustrated. But why?
" Go get some sleep, we will talk about the mission tomorrow." I took this as a 'get lost' and I just left, locking my door as soon as I step inside. I was leaning against my door, my eyes stinging with the tears that were falling. What the hell is wrong with me? I'm usually so reserved, but ever since joining this new team, I've been beginning to feel things that I haven't in a long time.
I wipe my tears away with a sigh and get myself ready for bed. I slip under the covers, letting my heavy lids fall, bringing all the nightmares back.
I hope you guys enjoyed this! It's my first Attack on Titan fic so I'm hoping that I at least did a decent job.