Missing You
"No one is eligible to ask what fate has planned for you" -- August 2000
There were times like this before, a long time ago. I awoke in the middle of the night and could not go to sleep. Staring up at the ceiling, I started thinking. Thinking about life and my friends, but most importantly, thinking of you.
It never occurred to me that I would miss you so terribly. When Adonis revealed his true self to me, I was given the memory of the past... and of you.
I tried not to think, but my thoughts would never stop haunting me. All the time.
The Silver Millennium had been a heaven, the utopia for everyone. I was the leader of the Moon and you the Earth. You stepped into my path and changed my world. I was the happiest person I ever knew.
We both knew it was forbidden for us to meet each other, but you came to me though your life might be the cost. All the secret meetings in my room were still fresh in my memory. Those had been some of the best moments in my life. Sweet little kisses and compliments were what we shared, but being able to be with you was the greatest blessing ever.
I thought we could be together for eternity. How optimistic I had been? Everything was ruined when Beryl leaded the strike.
I had you killed with my own hands in the final battle. The guilt I felt had been very overwhelming that I killed myself as well. You know why I did that? Because I thought we might get together again in another form. But I was wrong, yet again…
Despite it was against the laws of the gods for the Terrans and Lunarians to fall in love, our love was forgiven. Her Majesty wanted us to be happy, thus she pretended nothing had happened. She really did love us all so very much. It might have been the reason why she sacrificed her own life for all, thereby letting the children of the Silver Millennium to live again.
By the power of the Ginzuishou, we were reincarnated.
But the Wheel of Fate had changed. Things were never the same again.
There were men who resembled you, my love, but none of them had been you. Melancholy was all that I felt knowing I might never see you again.
Perhaps fate thought I deserved to be sympathized, we did meet again. Only the meeting gave me another heartbreak.
You were reborn as my enemy instead of my lover.
The fateful night we met, I returned busting all the confusion and depression into tears, as was the night I defeated you in this lifetime.
I did not understand this: why did I have to be reborn if it meant I have to take your life again? I am the Goddess of Love and Beauty, more like the Goddess of Death for killing you. What kind of a Goddess of Love I am if I have no love?
Every time I think about you, I discovered my face was always wet with my tears unconditionally. Artemis had often probed me for the cause, but he never receives a reply. I don't want to let him know his 'daughter' is crying for a long, lost someone she had once love and defeated twice.
I am curious, could you be in Elysian praying for our reunion at this moment, my love? Or are you actually here protecting me, but in another shape?
I am unsure, but I can often feel the bond. It is so strong.
Can it possibly mean we will meet again soon?
You have been missed, Kunzite my love, you have been dearly missed.
Will there be the day when I can rest in your affectionate embrace once again?
-The End-
Last Updated: September 21, 2002.