Together We Will Make It Through ! Chapter 1: Prolog, a criminal minds fanfic

January 1997

Alex was very nervous; she could hear the door open and knew that James was home. She had to tell him! It was a classic now or never situation, but she still had no idea how exactly she could do it, maybe she just needed to throw him into the cold water.

"Hello Love," said James happily as he walked into the kitchen and opened the shirt of his policeman uniform, he gave her a quick peck on her lips and Alex smiled, but it was faked and he knew immediately that something bothered her. "Hey…what's wrong?" he asked, a little worried.

Alex opened her mouth but the words just wouldn't come out, so she closed her mouth and smiled again. "Nothing," was all she said, but now he got serious.

"Alex!" he said firmly, "What's wrong?"

Alex slightly chewed on her bottom lip. She still didn't know how to say it. "James I-…" but she stopped, so he took her face in his hands and looked her deep into her eyes.

"Alex Blake, I did not marry you so you could have secrets from me, especially when they upset you! Whatever it is, you can talk to me about it, honey!"

Before she could think about it, the words already left her mouth. "I'm pregnant." James just continued to stare at her and tears started to form in her eyes. "I-I know you don't want to have Children…" When James finally came out of his shock and saw that she nearly cried, he quickly took her hand.

Part of Alex thought he would say something like: "Don't be silly, we always used protection," or "You just ate too much." But he said something she didn't expect:

"Why are you crying? It's okay!" he said and smiled at her.

Alex frowned. "I thought you didn't want to have kids?"

"Yeah I know I said that, I'll admit I'm not thrilled, with the house and everything, more money would help, but if you're pregnant, then we'll manage that alright, everything is going to be okay!" He took her face in his hands and kissed her.

September 26 1997

"Ow… Aahh! Oh my god get it out!" screamed Alex after 16 hours of labor, in which she started to push half an hour ago.

She was out of breath and wisps of her hair were stuck to her sweat-covered forehead. James stood by her side the whole time and didn't even wince as it seemed like Alex wanted to break his hand with her grip, he just kept telling her how great she did.

"I can see the head, Mrs. Blake! Just keep breathing, it's almost done!" said the doctor.

James smiled. "It's almost over, honey, I'm so proud, you can do it Alex!"

"I'm not so sure 'bout that…" panted Alex, who was exhausted.

"Of course you can! I know it!" James bent over to kiss her cheek.

"You're doing perfect, honey."

"Ready, Mrs. Blake?"

Alex just nodded. She couldn't find the breath for more words.

"Okay…one, two, three, push!...yeah just like that! Don't stop! Yes! One more time, take another deep breath," said the doctor and smiled at her.

"Last one okay?...now push! That's great, only-" But the two couldn't hear more, as the words were drowned by the most beautiful cry two people could hear, echoed through the room.

"There she is. Congratulations, it's a beautiful baby girl!"

They barely made out the words as they had only eyes for their little wonder that was placed in Alex's arms.

"She's perfect," muttered Alex hoarse and amazed by her daughter, while James counted the tiny fingers and toes.

"Everything is in place and she's beautiful, just like her mommy." James grinned with tears in his eyes and kissed Alex.

"Now Daddy will come with me and the little one, so we can see how much she weights and everything okay?" said one of the nurses and gently took her from Alex's arms and after he gave his wife another kiss, James followed her out of the room, while the Doctor took care of Alex and the afterbirth.

After he cleaned his daughter with a little help by the nurse, she was measured and weighed, their little angel was one foot and seven inches tall and weight 8 lbs. 4 oz.

"So, any name suggestions?" asked the nurse as James held his daughter for the first time.

"Kathrin Marie."

"That's a real nice name!" said the woman and wrote it down on the birth certificate. "You can go to your wife now." James didn't need to be told twice.

"I hope you didn't mess up her name." Alex said as James laid their daughter carefully into her arms before he sat down beside her on the bed, so they're both could watch their baby girl.

"What do you think about Kathrin Marie?"

"Yes, that's perfect for her."

June. 14 2001

Erin Strauss. Alex wouldn't forget this name any time soon, because this woman had just destroyed her Carrier within the FBI when she said that it had been all her fault when they arrested the wrong person. Now Alex and some colleagues had been degraded. She had worked so hard after her maternity leave and for what? Only to be nearly fired because of a woman, who was too much of a coward to take the fall herself, even if she screwed up like the rest of them.

Anger rose in her as she thought about that bitch and tears of pure frustration and rage rolled down her cheeks as she drove home. She had never been good with that woman, but she respected her and never thought she would do such a thing only to save her own ass.

As Alex pulled into their street she couldn't believe what she saw. There, at her house, was a crowd of reporters and cameramen. She quickly wiped the tears off her cheek before getting out of the car.

"Agent Blake, do you have something to say about the accusation against you?"

"Is it true that you're responsible that the wrong person was arrested?"

From then on Alex couldn't make out anything anymore as everyone talked at the same time and they surrounded her.

"Mommy!" Alex turned around and saw how Kathrin ran up to her bare foot and in a pretty dress and, except some reporters, everyone became quiet. Alex pushed the men and women who were in between her and her daughter out of her way, embraced Kathrin tight and quickly walked inside the house, while her little sunshine laughed. She didn't understand what was going on and probably also didn't care.

"Daddy and I have a surprise Mommy!" Kathrin said really excited.

"Really? Where?" asked Alex as she gave her a kiss and then let her slide off her waist.

"In the Garden!" the little girl than grasped her mother's hand and pulled her to the backdoor. Before Alex could open the door Kathrin stopped her. "Don't look!"

Alex then opened the door and closed her eyes. "Alright. They're closed."

She was then led through the Garden by a constantly giggling Kathrin. "Surprise!" said Kathrin and Alex opened her eyes. As soon as she saw the surprise she had to laugh, there in a hammock laid James, topless and on a little table beside the hammock were three glasses with orange juice. "You like it, Mommy?"

Alex smiled brightly at her daughter. "I absolutely love it! Thank you so much!" She bent down and gave her a big kiss.

"You know I was doing all the work." James mumbled as she got into the hammock beside him and he took Kathrin in his arms before he sat her in between them.

"You're going to get your reward later." Alex whispered before she kissed him, he then noticed that something was not right.

"Hey, are you okay?" Alex hesitated.

"Nothing … I'll tell you later," with that, she gently pulled her daughter closer to her, kissed her cheek before tickling her slightly and she than ran her fingers through the blond hair she inherited from James. Alex didn't want to talk about it, not even think about it, right now, in this moment, only her family counted, her daughter who she loved more than anything else and for whom she has had so little time lately.

June 18. 2001

,,Want to go to bed?" asked James while they laid cuddled together on the couch and Alex had yawned for the fourth time.

"Yeah, I'm tired" he switched the TV off and they both got up.

"I'm going to check up on Kathrin okay " Alex made it up the stairs and slowly opened the door and peered in, a voice in the back of her head told her that something was not right. It was dark, but thanks to the full moon outside, she could see that the window was open and that the bed of her daughter looked empty! Alex switched on the light, her eyes widened and her blood ran cold, her daughter was gone!

"James! JAMES! Kathrin is gone!" Alex screamed and she could hear something break downstairs before fast paces came up the stairs.

"What?"

"She's gone! Oh my God she's gone my baby is gone!" Alex panicked and pulled the empty covers away and then ran to the window. The ladder was still standing there but something else made the panic in her rise, blood. There was blood on the windowsill.

It's been already two days since their little daughter had been kidnapped right out of her bed in the middle of the night. Two days full of worry, panic and fear for their daughter and slowly the people working on the Case started to lose hope to find Kathrin alive, or at all.

They had received a video of the capture, showing them Kathrin in a dark basement, and chained to a wall, crying for her parents to come and save her. The captor told them, that Erin Strauss was responsible for the abduction of Kathrin and it had taken James and another Officer to keep Alex from beating the crap out of Strauss. But that wouldn't help them finding her, though Alex thought she would feel a lot better hurting that woman.

"Alex...let's go home." James said, as they had spent the last days on the local police station, without sleep or actual food, trying to find their baby girl.

"I'm not going anywhere until we find Kathrin!"

"Alex, honey listen, we can't do anything here...why don't we go home get some sleep and come back tomorrow." James said though he didn't plan to return to the Police Station again and laid his hand on her shoulder, but Alex shook it off.

"No. I won't leave!" Alex argued back.

"We can't do anything Alex, nothing!" he said louder and some of the Officers started to watch and listen to their argument.

"What? Do you want to give up? Our daughter is somewhere out there and-"

"Dead! You don't get it do you? She is dead Alex! She is dead! It's been two days, we both know the chance of finding her alive is zero!" he yelled. Alex stared at him shock and new tears rolled down her face.

"How can you say that? H-how can you say that she is dead? How can you give up? She's our daughter." Alex said shocked.

"Alex-"

"She's our daughter!" Alex screamed and he tried to take her hand but she flinched back.

"No! Don't touch me, don't you dare to touch me." she said and fled the room crying.

Alex didn't wait until the Officer parked the car in front of the house where the other police cars were standing, Alex immediately unbuckled herself and got out of the car, while he still parked the car.

The moment she was ten feet away from the car, another Officer walked out of the house with Kathrin in her arms. "Mommy! Daddy!" Kathrin cried and floundered like hell and reached out for her mother with her little arms.

"Kathrin!" Alex sunk to her knees when she was finally able to hold her little Kathrin in her arms again, who clung tightly to her. Two seconds later they were both in James arms, who wasn't any less relief to have his daughter back as his wife, but who was also feeling miserable for giving up hope to find her alive. When the corpse of the man who did all this was carried away, the two didn't look up, it didn't matter, he was dead and Kathrin was back with them again.

March 2003

"Honey?" asked Alex as she opened the door to Kathrin's bedroom and saw that Kathrin laid flat on her stomach on her bed with her face buried in her pillow. She stepped in and closed the door.

"Kat? Sweetheart?" she said before she made it over to the bed and sat down beside her daughter and stroked over her back in smooth circles.

"Hy we aveo go?" said Kathrin with her face still in the pillow, so Alex couldn't understand a word.

"What? Kat darling, I can't understand what you're saying when you mumble in your pillow like that" Alex answered and then Kat turned her head, her eyes and nose were red from crying and the tears were still flowing.

"Why do we have to go?" and then sat up beside her mother. Some Days ago Alex had received a teaching offer at George Town University as a Professor for Forensic Linguistics and after discussing it she and James agreed that she would take the offer. But this meant that they had to move, to Alexandria Virginia at the other side of North America to be specific.

"Because I have a new job there, I'm sorry Kat, but there is no other way" Alex then took her into her arms and kissed her temple while Kat snuggled closer to her.

"But then I can't see Ellen anymore!" just when Kat had found a real friend they were moving, it broke Alex's heart, just like her, Kathrin was an intelligent Child, which made her not very popular around Kids her age or Classmates, even though she was not a know it all, most of the time she tried to hide it.

"I don't want to go." Kat pouted, Alex pulled her even closer and gave her a long kiss on her cheek.

"I'm sorry Honey, but you know what? When we move to Alexandria, I'm sure you're going to find many great friends, 'cause nobody knows you there and you can make a fresh start, and be who you are Kat!".

"I still don't want to move!".

November 2006

They settled in in Alexandria really fine, they had a beautiful house and her new job was great, they had nice friends and most important to them, Kat also found some friends, who liked her without her pretending to be someone she wasn't and without the mobbing.

But somethings weren't as wonderful as they could, or should be. Their marriage was crumbling, James was working so much that they didn't see him for days. When he was home, he wouldn't talk much to her and Alex didn't know what to do anymore. She tried to be the perfect housewife, even though that was what she never wanted to be.

James was like a new person, at least he wasn't the caring and loving man she had fallen in love with anymore. But what was even worse for Alex, he started to push Kat away, he wouldn't play much with her, forgot school plays or performances of her music class and got angrier when she did something wrong.

Of course Alex asked him what was wrong but he refused to give her any answer or even a conversation for that matter. Slowly Alex found herself growing more and more apart from James. But one day things took for a worse, Alex found out she was pregnant again, she was beyond happy and hoped that maybe this would bring them back closer together, even though a small voice told her that this was wish thinking and that James wouldn't be happy.

So this evening Alex wanted to tell James that soon they would be parents of two. After Alex had tucked Kat in, she waited for James to come home. When he finally came home one and a half hours after his shift had ended, Alex had given her best to keep the dinner she had cooked warm, but James ignored it completely as he got himself a beer.

"Don't you want to eat something?" Alex asked him, but he only shook his head.

"No, I just ate something at the station."

"But it's-"

"I don't want to eat right now Alex." she closed her mouth and nodded.

"Kat asked if you could tuck her in tomorrow, she misses the stories you used to tell her." James sighted and took a long sip of his beer.

"Isn't she a little too old for them now?"

"James she is nine and certainly not too old for a bedtime story from her Dad, who she barely sees anymore."

"Is it my problem that I have to work so much? Don't you think I would rather be home than out there?" he spat angrily at her.

"No but-"

"But what? Yeah maybe I don't want to spend my little free time telling silly little stories or sitting in the audience of a damn fourth grade music performance!"

"But she is your daughter! Doesn't she deserve some attention from her own father?" Alex asked shocked that he would say something like that about his now not only child.

"Why is that so important for you?"

"Because I am pregnant again!" his annoyed and slight angry features disappeared and were replaced by a blank face. Alex herself was a bit shocked that she had told him like that.

"Are you sure?" he asked and still neither is face or voice gave away how he was feeling about this.

"Yes."

"And what do you want to do about it?" she blinked at him confused.

"What do you-" she stopped mid sentence and hoped that he wasn't implying what she thought he was. "You...can't be talking about an abortion? Please tell me that is not true."

"Alex...I know how it sounds, but...we already have Kat and-" he said, his voice calm as if he was talking about the weather and not about getting rid of their baby!

"No. Not in one million years! I will not kill my baby James, our baby!" Alex interrupted him and now it was her who was angry and slightly disgusted.

"Well seems like you already made your mind." he said, stood up and left her standing in the kitchen where she seconds later heard how the front door closed. For Alex it also felt like he had closed the door to their marriage, she laid a hand on the small bump on her abdomen.

I love you no matter what, you are my baby.

July 3 2007

Alex lifted the heavy groceries bag out of the car and was about to walk to the front door when the bag broke causing all the groceries to fall to the ground. "Damn" Alex cursed and crouched down to pick them up, which was rather difficult with her round stomach.

Suddenly there was a hand helping her up and when Alex looked at the person, shielding her eyes from the sun, she saw her neighbor Andy who was James' best friend, the husband of her own best friend Christina and the father of Josephine or Joe as everyone called her who happened to be Kat's best friend.

"Come on I'll pick the rest up for you." he said and Alex smiled.

"Thanks Andy." she answered and waited with the groceries in her arms which she had already picked up.

"Sure no problem, hows the little peanut doing today?"

"Wonderful he decided to finally settle down after he jumped around in there the whole day." Alex answered still smiling and let a hand trace over the left side of her belly, where her son was currently laying. "How are the twins?"

"Still a handful, but we finally found a sleeping pattern that fits all of us, but they are still amazing and Joe loves them too, it's just great you know?" Andy asked and Alex hesitated to answer. No she didn't know what it was like because her own husband was less than thrilled about having a second baby, he didn't even care that they were having a son.

While he had been to as many ultrasound appointments as possible with her when she was pregnant with Kat, he never had been to one once this time. She wasn't even sure if he had looked at one of the ultrasound pictures Alex had brought home. Kat was even happier and more interested in the baby than James. Alex swallowed down her sadness and put a smile on her face.

"Yes, I know I'm so happy and I can't wait for him to be here." she said and unlocked the front door, Alex didn't see how Andy watched her and noticed that she wasn't telling the truth. "Do you know when James will be home?" she asked now it was him hiding the truth.

"No sorry, I guess around eight." he lied, he knew that he wouldn't be home by then, James was done working but he wouldn't come home, he most likely would go in a bar.

"Oh...okay, thanks again Andy." Alex said knowing that Andy was lying and that James wouldn't come home tonight.

Around six thirty that evening when she was making dinner, Alex grimaced and rubbed her lower back. Since a while she had an intense back pain which seemed to spread out to her abdomen, as she was beginning to feel a dull pain there too.

"...then it was Mary's turn but she lied and said that she was afraid of heights and started to make a scene and nearly cry! But Joe had to climb the rope though she is really afraid of heights!" Kat told her about her gym class, while she was doing her homework at the kitchen isle.

"You're right that wasn't very fair." Alex answered closed her eyes and took a deep breath, the pain was getting worse and it didn't feel like the normal back pain she would have in this stage of pregnancy.

"Momma are you okay?" Kat asked when she saw the pained expression on her mothers face, also noticing the thin layer of sweat glistening on her forehead.

"Yeah Honey I'm fine you-" but then such an intense pain throbbed through her body outgoing from her belly, that she yelled out in pain and doubled over. Alex tried to get a hold of something, but only got the handle of the frying pan, which fell to the floor seconds later.

"Mama!" Kat jumped up and ran around the kitchen isle to her mother, who had bend over and was panting heavily because of the pain, which made it hard to breath. But when Kat stood in front of her mother she stopped and just stared at her horrified.

Only then Alex realized that her sweat pants were wet, not with amniotic fluid but with blood. Fear pulsated through her body and she sunk to her knees, what was wrong? What was wrong with her baby? Or her? She couldn't loose her baby son!

"Mommy-!"

"Kat! Run over to Christina's and get help, hurry!" Alex said before her daughter could say one more word. For a moment Kat didn't move, but then she turned around and ran out of the room like the devil was on her heels.

Kat ran over the street shouting for her best friend parents, in her panic she didn't even rang the door bell, she just pounded on the door crying for help. When the door was pulled open by a confused looking Andy, Kat grabbed his hand and tried to pull him out of the door.

"Jesus Kat! What is going on?" Andy asked.

"We need help! Mama is in pain and bleeding, please you have to help her!" Kat cried and immediately Andy was in cop mode, he turned around were he could see his wife walking towards them, about to ask what was wrong, but he was faster and shoved Kat into Christina's arms.

"Call the ambulance! Something is wrong with Alex, Kat says she is bleeding and in pain!" he called out to her and then sprinted towards his friends house, through the open door and inside.

"Alex?" he called out.

"Kitchen!" came the painful answer and he ran into the kitchen were he stopped for a second as he too was shocked at what he saw. Alex sat on the floor in a small puddle of blood leaning back against the kitchen counter.

"Christina called the ambulance, help is on they way, what happened?" Andy asked as he kneeled next to his friend.

"I...don't know, I had a stronger back and abdomen pain all day...then it got worse and-and I was bleeding...oh god please I don't wanna lose my son." Alex cried and he took her hand.

"You won't lose him Alex, you hear?" he said, but then her sight already began to blur. The last thing she heard was Andy calling out her name but she already couldn't respond and then everything was black.

When Alex woke up again, it took her a moment to realize where she was, inside a hospital room. It also took her a moment to remember what had happened, and the last thing she could remember was seeing her blood soaked pants. Her baby! What had happened to her son? Was he okay? Was he even alive?

She looked around and saw a figure standing in front of a window so she could just make out the silhouette of the person standing there, but she guessed it was a man.

"James?" she asked hoarse the figure turned around and walked closer. Her heart sunk when she recognized Andy.

"No it's me, good to see you awake Alex." he said and smiled.

"Where is my son? Is he okay? Is...is he?" Andy shook his head and walked a few feet away and when he turned around he held a small bundle in his arms.

"No he is a healthy little baby boy." he said and then Alex held her son for the first time, her beautiful little son. He was fast asleep and looked so peaceful, with his pink lips, little button nose and he had a lot of dark hair. Alex didn't even try to hold back the tears that ran down her cheeks.

"What happened?" she asked and Andy's smiled vanished.

"You had a placental abruption, they had to do an emergency c-section to get him in time, but everything went fine and both of you are okay." he said.

"Where are James and Kat?" she asked and stroked over her sons cheek.

"Kat is outside with Christina. James was here but..." Alex found herself not surprised that her husband wasn't here, though she was deeply hurt and disappointed.

"Did he hold him?" Andy hesitated to answer and Alex looked him in the eyes.

"Andy?"

"No." Alex closed her eyes, so he would see how much that hurt her.

"Did he even look at him?" Andy didn't answer, but in this case Alex knew the answer, she knew that James hadn't even looked at their son. When she opened her eyes, she looked down at her son, who had woken up and was now looking up at her heavy lidded. But Alex could still see the beautiful shade of blue his eyes had.

"I love you Ethan, you are my son and there is nothing on this wold I could love more than you and your sister."

September 27 2007

After she cooked the dinner that evening Alex went into the living room where Kat sat on the sofa with Ethan in here arms. It was one of the rare moments in which he wasn't crying, because of his colic's, but luckily they finally started to fade. That made life as a single mother a lot more easier for her, as James was nearly never home and refused to help her with Ethan when he was.

"Kat could you lay the table please?" asked Alex as she took Ethan from her.

"Yep!" she then ran to the dining room. Alex was about to start breastfeeding him when the doorbell rang. She laid Ethan back in his bassinet and went to open the door. When she opened it, she saw Andy and Marcus, later was also a colleague of James and she could sense that something wasn't right.

"Andy, Marcus? What are you doing here?" she asked without smiling, her heart began to race and she prayed that they were not going to tell her the one thing she feared since she and James had married.

"Alex…I don't know how to say it…James…he had an accident on his way home…and he did not survived it." Marcus said, as Andy had to fight his own tears, James had been his best friend and they were like family. Alex starred at them, and then shook her head.

"No…no he- there must be a mistake, he's just late, he- no!" tears burned in her eyes and she knew that this wasn't a mistake.

Alex felt like an ice cold hand had griped her heart tight. She had curled up in a ball under her blanket and cried silently in her pillow to neither wake Kat or Ethan whom she had just laid back down to sleep after feeding him. James was gone, she still couldn't believe it, even though they marriage had been nearly non existent lately, she had still loved him, better said the memory of how he used to be, hoping that one day this man would be back.

But now he was gone. She knew that the chance to survive this accident was more than low but why hadn't they found his whole body? Why didn't he come back to her if he had survived? Was she this horrible that he had to fake his own death instead of getting a divorce? There were so many questions inside her head and she had no answer to any of them. She was sad, scared and angry, could she really raise two kids on her own? What if she was going to fail?

"Mommy?" Alex quickly wiped her tears away and looked up.

"Kathrin? What is it?" she asked, as an answer Kathrin closed the door and walked up to her.

"Can, can I sleep here to night? I-" she stopped and Alex lifted the blanket so Kat could crawl under it and snuggled close to her. Alex laid her arm around Kat and took her hand in hers. "I miss Daddy Momma" Kathrin said after a while, she pulled her a little closer and kissed her forehead.

"I know Honey…I miss him too!" and instead of wiping her own tears away she wiped away the ones running down her daughters cheeks. "But never forget how much your father loves you sweetie." suddenly Kat turned around and clutched tight on her mother and cried into her shoulder.

"I know it's hard Kat…but I promise everything is going to be okay again." Alex whispered while tears ran down her cheeks as well and she stroked over Kathrin's head until she has fallen asleep in her arms.

When Alex woke up the next morning Kat was still cuddled up next to her in bed, she ran her fingers over her face and placed a light kiss against her forehead, before she got up. She changed Ethan's diapers, dressed him and made it down stairs where someone was in her kitchen.

"Hello?" she asked and saw that it was Christina, "What are you doing here?"

"I let myself in with our key." she answered and placed a mug of tea in front of her.

"We never gave you a key." Alex stated and narrowed her eyes at her.

"Yeah I know, you should find a better place to hide it." she then waved at someone, Alex turned and saw Miranda, another good friend of her, who was in her late twenties.

"Did I miss something?" she asked and patterned Ethan's back as he began to whimper.

"No you didn't, give me this little cutie pie!" Miranda said and took Ethan into her arms.

"Alex, we have been talking and Darling you are not alone, we are all going to help you! When you're ready to work again, then I can take Ethan in and when you're not able to get Kat from school than Christi can do it!"

"We're here for you, you hear? You don't need to do this all on your own!" Christina said and hugged her. "You only need to say a word and we're here to help you! No matter what, we are going to stand by your side." she mumbled into her ear.

For a moment Alex didn't know what to say. "Thank you, really I don't know how to do all of this alone"

"No trouble at all Honey! Come on, go upstairs wake Kat and we'll have breakfast together." Miranda suggested. When Alex went upstairs to wake her daughter, she realized what great friends she had, they would stay by her side and helped her as much as they could.

July 14 2009

"Well thank you again Dr. Reid, that was a great lecture!" Alex said to the long haired man next to her as her students began to shuffle out of the auditorium.

"You can call me Spencer by the way."

"Alex" she answered and shook his hand.

"And I think I have to say thank you too, it doesn't happen every day that a now famous authoress invites you to guest lecture!" she laughed.

"Now, we don't want to exaggerate a book about Linguistics isn't something someone would buy for a cozy evening in front of the fireplace."

"I would-" he was interrupted by the sound of her ring tone.

"I'm sorry, could you excuse me for a moment?" he nodded and she answered her phone.

"Blake?".

"Hey Alex it's Miranda"

"Hey, what's up?"

"What's up? How about my Musical debut? That's up!"

"Oh man…Miranda, I think I'm not able to make it"

"What? Why not? Alex your one of my best friends! You have to be there!"

"I know I'm sorry, but I can't leave Kat alone with Ethan and everyone I could ask is at your Musical debut!"

"She's nearly eleven! You don't have to stay all night!"

"I thought it ended at half past eleven?"

"Yes…"

"I can't leave her alone for over four hours with her two year old brother! I'm really sorry-"

"If you need someone I could watch them if you want!" interrupted Spencer, Alex turned around and looked at him surprised.

"Oh…no! Well, not no! just-…no! I don't know you really " Alex said slightly embarrassed to turn him down.

"Is that the cute Doctor I saw you with some weeks ago? Take the offer!" But Alex already hung up, she chewed on her bottom lip.

"Your always on call for the FBI anyway aren't you?".

"Ah…no I'm on vacation…forced vacation to be specific …but if you don't want me to watch them it's okay!" she glanced at her phone, Miranda would hold this against her forever. And he wasn't exactly a stranger, they've had had a some cups of coffee together and he was an FBI Agent for god's sake!.

"Could you come over at seven?".

Punctual at seven the doorbell rang. "Kat? Could you open the door?" yelled Alex as she was still in the bathroom drying Ethan with a towel.

"Did you really had to play my flowerbeds today?".

"Yes!" Ethan cheekily grinned at her.

"Yeah I can imagine!" she dressed him in his pajamas and lifted him up and made her way down where Spencer was already waiting. Kat leaned at the stairs with her arms crossed over her chest.

"-Have you ever killed somebody?".

"Kat! stop asking people things like that ! I'm sorry if she was outrageous " said Alex and sent her a glance which clearly told her to behave.

"Oh no problem " he said "Well, that's my daughter Kat and my son Ethan " she said and let the boy slide from her waist.

"Well Kat? Ethan needs to be in bed in half an hour and you're in bed by half past eight!"

"Yeah, yeah"

"Okay, oh just one more thing, Ethan's pretty swift so make sure he's not going to steal something from that drawer," he sent her a questioning look "Sweets."she added. "Ok, I try to come back as soon as possible yeah? I love you Kat." she kissed her and Ethan goodbye.

"My number is next to the phone, if something happens call me!" said Alex and left.

"My Mom is also an FBI Agent" said Kat as they finished her school project which was due the next day and as Kat had delayed the project until know, she needed some help to finish it in time.

"I know-"

"Do you also teach at George Town?"

"No, but sometimes I guest lecture, but mainly I'm with the FBI." Spencer answered and glued one side of the pyramid.

"Are you in love with my Mom?" he looked at her surprised.

"Wha-?...N-no."

"Then why are you here?" asked Kat.

"Because me and your mom are friends and you help your friends if they need your help and she is married to your dad isn't she?" he said remembering the wedding ring on Alex's finger. Kat stopped smiling and lowered her head.

"No she's not…my Dad disappeared two years ago after an accident."

"I'm sorry…"

"We manage all right." Kat mumured and frowned. "Oh no…you didn't leave the drawer with the sweets open did you ?".

"No…" he turned around and saw the little bench in front of the drawer.

After they chased Ethan through the whole house and finally managed to put him to bed, it was eleven o'clock and both him and Kat were more than tired.

"I'm not going to tell your mom that you have been awake until now, when you promise not to tell her that Ethan had some sweets."

"Deal…I'll go to bed now and thank you for helping me with my school project." said Kat and turned around half way up the stairs.

"I like you, you're pretty cool Spencer…Good Night!" to say he was surprised was understated, after all he was the one who named the Reid Effect. But Kat really seemed to like him.

"Thanks Kat, Good Night!"

March 10. 2010

By now it was the most beautiful day of the year, sunny, warm not too hot and he wanted to be everywhere, but not here. He stood several feet away from the other people who were here. In front of him where maybe sixty people who said their last goodbye to James Blake. They had found his burned body a week ago in Annapolis, they had only been able to idenify him with his wedding ring.

He mostly saw Policemen honor a fallen companion, he saw an elderly couple most likely his parents and he could see a young man next to Alex, who looked like her brother. But Spencer had only eyes for her.

She wore a black dress, her hair went a little past her shoulder blades and were slightly curly, she had nothing in them, no black veil or something like that and it suited her better. She wasn't sobbing or anything like that, trying to keep it together for her children.

He only saw how she hugged Kat tight and after a moment he himself felt being watched. When his eyes searched through the crowd in front of him, he saw that Kat looked at him through the gap between her mother's arm and chest, her brown eyes were red and filled with a kind of sorrow which should never be seen in the eyes of a twelve year old girl.

After the Ceremonies were over and the coffin was lowered into the ground, he heard how Ethan cried and swallowed the lump in his throat. This cute little man would never know his own father, the only one left were his mother and sister.

As everyone started to walk away, Reid saw that Alex's brother, took Ethan in his arms and laid one arm around Kat, only Alex was left at the fresh grave, he waited, but then decided to go to her. He laid a hand on her shoulder and she flinched before she quickly turned around, her cheeks were soaked with tears.

"I-I didn't want them to see me like that." she stopped, he knew she meant Kat and Ethan, one moment Spencer didn't know if he could or better said should hug her, but as she tried harder and harder not so cry, he laid his arms around her. At first she only cried a little, but then all the pain and sorrow seemed to break out of her and he had to hold her on her legs. In this second he promised himself to never leave her alone, he knew she couldn't do this all on her own and he would help her, because they were friends…and because her heart started to beat faster while he hugged her close.

July 12. 2012

After the second time he rang the doorbell, the door was opened by Kat.

"Hey Spencer! Come in, Mom is in the garden." she said and led him in, he followed her through the house and when they stood in the garden, he saw Ethan and a friend who played in the little pool, but Alex was nowhere to be seen.

"Mom! Stop hiding it's Spencer not Mr. Paxton!" Kat yelled and rolled her eyes as her mother stepped out behind the corner of the house.

"Thank god…you wouldn't believe that 3 rebuffs were enough to make it clear that I'm in a relationship and that I don't want to go out with him! Hi Spence!" Alex said with a smile and brushed some earth off her cheek.

Before Reid could say something he was interrupted by Ethan.

"Uncle Spencer!" he had a big grin on his face and ran towards him so they could high five.

"Hi Ethan!"

"Will you stay for dinner?" he asked and Spencer looked at his mother.

"When your mom allows it?"

"Pretty pretty please?" she rolled her eyes, as if she would ever say no when it was about Spencer.

"Sure, but now go and play with Hunter, in five minutes you have to come in, Hunter's Mom is going to be here in twenty minutes."

"Super Cool!" Reid laughed and looked at Kat.

"You haven't taught him more?"

"Hey! In one week he' s going to say super awesome and Holy Sh-"

"Stop teaching your little brother such words!" said Alex reproachful and hit Kat on the back of her head with her gloves. They then went inside and Reid leaned to Kat.

"If Ethan's able to say deoxyribonucleic acid in two weeks you'll get 50 dollars." Spencer whispered.

"Deal."

"So why did you come over? Not that I mind!" Alex asked as she took a sip of water.

"Well, I want to bring you something. They wanted to send it to you, but I said I would bring it to you personally." he then handed her the sealed letter, her eyes then widened in shock as she saw who sent the letter.

"Mom? Everything alright?" Kat asked.

"What does the BAU want from me?"

"Read." he said and gave her no chance to read the content of the letter off of his face, she opened the letter and with every line she got more shocked and leaned onto the kitchen counter.

"Am I dreaming?" she asked and he shook his head.

"No, totally they're serious. We want you to come back and work with me in my team." now also Kat's jaw dropped.

"They want you to work for them again?"

"What do you say?"

"Do you have something to do with this? Because I said I would like to work with you again?" he scratched the back of his head.

"Well…no, you have been under the top three from the beginning, but maybe I recommended you a little bit."

"I-I don't know…I can't leave Kat and Ethan alone for two to five days"

"Yes you can Mom! I'm not alone, I have Christina and Andy to help me and I'm not eleven but fourteen, you told me that you want to work active for the FBI again! Now you have the Chance! Don't say no because of me and Ethan, I don't want you to regret one day that you stayed home." Kat said and Alex laid down the letter to hug Kat tight, before she took her face into her hands.

"Never ever say something like that again okay? I would never regret staying here with you, yes I miss my old job but you two are the most important and wonderful things in my life Kathrin! And I'm going to tell you now that you or Ethan can say anytime that you want me to come back and quit! And I'm going to do it, you say now that it's okay, but maybe someday you want me to come home again." Alex kissed her forehead and Kat grinned at her.

"Okay I promise"

"So does it mean you're going to say yes?" asked Reid, who had watched the scene between Alex and Kat with a smile, of course he knew how much she loved Kat and Ethan, but the chance to work with her was really compelling.

"Okay…I'll say yes!" Alex said full of anticipation. She didn't how much her life would change because of this job.

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