A/N: Hola, it is ProcrastinatingRavenclaw001 once again, still don't understand why I introduce myself, obviously because I am not using my real name because I really don't like it. But anyways...I'm bored, so I'm writing. Note: I don't like writing in 1st Person so I'm not sure how this will turn out.
Started On: Monday, July 6, 2015 (EST)
Finished On: Tuesday, July 7, 2015 (EST)

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Saturday, May 2, 1998
Hogwarts Castle, Scotland, Greater Britain.
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Dear Fred,

We won Fred. It's all over. Voldemort is gone and is never coming back. I never thought that Harry would actually do it, even though I have full faith in him. It's just hard to think that the Specky, Scrawny Git actually killed the most evil man in the world. We saw it happen and it was insane. He was killed by a backfire of his own curse.

The enchanted ceiling in the Great Hall is showing a light blue sky with clouds, absolutely breath taking. It's almost showing as if nothing terrible has happened in these last twenty-four hours. But the truth is, the mourning is only beginning,

I'm hurting Fred. I really am. I'm in so much pain, not from the Battle and the hexes I took from those egregious Death Eaters. The pain I'm feeling right now is something that won't be fixed with a spell or sort of medicine that Madam Pomfrey is giving everyone. This pain is worse than all the hexes I got. I am never going to be okay after this. The pain that I'm feeling right now is the pain of loosing you.

I should've been right next to you during the battle at all times. Merlin, it's painful to think about how dumb I was. It's my fault that you're gone. I know it is. It was my idea to split up. It was my idea for you to go with Percy and I'd go with Charlie. I am so stupid! Do you understand how stupid that was? If we never split up, you'd still be here with Me, Mum, Dad, Bill, Fleur, Charlie, Percy, Ron, and Ginny.

Why did you have to go?

The whole castle is celebrating the down fall of Voldemort but it seems that only few are mourning over the loss of many people! Bodies are still being collected around here. Remember Colin Creevey, the one that followed Harry around with a Camera? I saw his body being carried by Neville. He was so young, only sixteen. But then again, so were you.

The Great Hall is cleared of every body that was in here and moved somewhere safer. It hurt so much when I had to move you. I'm not sure you knew it was me. But Percy and I volunteered. We brought you to that old classroom that we made our WeasleyxWeasley projects instead of going to History of Magic, remember that?

Mum is absolutely ruined. I've never seen her cry so much. She hasn't stopped since Percy and I moved you somewhere safe. You should've seen Mum a few hours ago. Remember the woman who killed Harry's godfather Sirius Black? Bellatrix LeStrange? Mum killed her. She tried to kill Ginny and was taunting about your death and Mum lost it. I didn't think she had that in here but she killed her.

Dad is taking it somewhat better than Mum. You can tell it's hurting him. He's cried but that was when he saw your body for the first time. I've noticed he's been freezing up every time he looks at me. I can understand, and it hurts. Dad has been comforting Mum the whole time but I just know that he's hurting.

Bill and Charlie are still shocked from everything that happened. I've hardly ever seen them cry, even when we were younger, I never saw them cry. Charlie was torn up and he has dealt with deadly Dragons but he was the last to appear in The Great Hall where your body was, he truly thought we were lying but once he felt that there was no heart beat in your body, he just lost it. Fleur was a bloody mess, Bill was trying to calm her down as she just repeated everything she would miss about you.

Ginny broke. I know right, I couldn't believe it either. It wasn't until it was just me and her with your body in the classroom while everyone was talking to Professor McGonagall. I haven't seen Ginny cry ever since she was a baby, or the time that she was released from The Chamber of Secrets in her first year. I lost it as well while I was with her.

Ron lost it as well. He went on about everything that we did to him while we were younger and how you were always the one to come up with the ideas. I tried to smile as he told a little joke, I really did, however, I couldn't. I don't know when I'm going to smile again but I do know it's not going to be any time soon.

Lastly, Percy. We all knew that Percy was an ungrateful git in his young years as we grew up. That's why it was so fun to torment him. It was hard to keep a dry eye with Percy as we sat in the classroom with you. He told me everything that happened. How he told a joke, that you replied laughing with a retort when the wall blew. Then you were gone, with a smile still on your face. I think Percy is going through a lot of pain like me, but I know mine is worse.

Harry and Hermione talked to me. Hermione was crying and told me that she always had a crush on you when she was younger, then she said it was both of us because we're identical. Harry apologized over and over even though I told him that it was not his fault, he just kept apologizing. It was hard.

They told us that we could leave the school later tonight, with you.

You could tell Mum was on the verge of breaking once again as her and Dad started talking about funeral arrangements. I broke as Mum asked me an opinion on what we should do since I knew you the best. Next thing I knew was that I was hugging mum as we both cried.

Your death is leaving a permanant scar on me, along with every one in our family.

I haven't ate anything since we left Muriel's two days ago. She doesn't even know yet, I know she'll think we're lying. But Muriel's an old bat, she probably doesn't know that Voldemort is even gone.

We saw a lot of people come to mourn the loss of their loved ones. Your room wasn't empty, we agreed on letting Harry, Bill, Charlie, Ron, Ginny, Fleur, and Hermione carry in the bodies of Remus and Tonks. Remus was always an awesome professor, I couldn't believe he was gone too. Ginny was crushed seeing Tonks. She looks so different not having bubblegum pink hair, but now a mousy-brown.

Ms. Tonks came in not long after Ginny left the room. She was miserable. I felt like we were both on the same level. She had lost her husband to Snatchers just Months ago, but you remember that as you told everyone on Potterwatch. Now she lost her daughter at a really young age. But what made me stop was seeing a bundle in her arms.

Remus and Tonks son is an orphan now because of that egregious Bellatrix, how sick is it for someone to kill family because of blood. Tonks was Bellatrix's niece and was a half-blood, it's horrible. But now Teddy Lupin has to grow up as an orphan.

I don't know how I'm going to last without you Fred, I really don't. It's hard already. I was going to clean myself up, finally leaving you just for a few minutes but here I am, I'm still covered in dirt and blood, now my hand is covered by a bloody bandage. I broke the mirror in the bathroom because I saw you.

How am I going to last the rest of my life like this? You were my twin. My identical twin, not one thing about us different. Mum can hardly look at me. I don't blame her, I can't even look at myself. Everything I look at that has a reflection, I see you.

I'm not sure how long it's going to take for me to heal.

Only time will tell.

There's only three words that I know that can explain how I feel:

I miss you.

A/N: Not going to lie, but I am shaking right now as I type this. Yes, this will be multi-chapter, but this is just for the first one. Please review and tell me what you think. I know I am not the best at writing first person at all. I prefer third but oh well. Please tell me what you think.

P.S: Everyone go and read "Always the Tone of Surprise" by Crona4 because it absolutely perfect and the author is amazing.

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