Funeral Of Hearts , a Bleach story…..
A/N : I don't own Bleach , and this story is not with a happy ending so don't you dare come and tell me that you want a happy ending cuz you will never get it …..
Ichigo : way ?
Start : because I'm starting to hate all this happiness and it really sucks….TT….i mean….way cant there be some tears …..i only sow few story with a sad ending….and it rocked .
Ichigo : you're the boss
Star :Thanks ….i am
Chap . 1 : Sorrow
Fighting …… Killing …..Blood ….. Tears …..
" Ichigo!" you yelled out to a figure that was rapidly eaten by the darkness .
" I am going to kill that Hollow ….. The one that killed my mother !" he said turning to you .
You tried to get to him . Pointless . Your hands and feet were shackled . You barely could move from your spot .
" Ichigo !" you cried his name . Your throat was getting sore .
" I will be back …. Wait for me Saya !" he said and smiled .
"You shouldn't care for a half – Hallow ." a cold voice said , as 2 pair of strong arms rapped them selves around your neck .
" I will wait for you ! " you whispered as he disappeared .
Then …. as you thought that all will end , another figure came and attacked Ichigo . They started fighting , and you soon realized that it was Grimjow the one that wanted to kill Ichigo . You tried again to free yourself . Again you failed . Soon another figure , much more hideous than the first came and ripped one of Grimjows arms , cutting Ichigo in the process . That creature was all white with black and red at the sleeves of her kimono . You knew how it will end even before it started . You tried again and again , to get to your friend . Impossible .
You turned your head to see Byakuya Kuchiki .He was the one holding you .You cried at him and tolled him to relies you . He didn't even flinch . Blood was now dripping on his face and a deep wound was forming on his chest . You looked very scared and your eyes threatened to spill out the tears you were holding back . You wanted to get away from him , but he wouldn't let you go . He turned you to look at the 3 figures that were fighting .
You heard the bones cracking , the blood dripping . You tried to cover your ears , but you could still hear the sound of the sword piercing the flesh . A husky voice started to laugh .
"Don't try to get out of this Saya !...This will be your torment …. You couldn't help the single person that was there for you …. You were useless …..Useless ….way did you even try ?... All you did was hurt him !" a white figure of you , appeared in front of you .
The heavy tears rushed down your cheeks . You were just like Ichigo , but there was a difference between you and him .
When you were little , your parents died killed by a Hollow , who tried to kill you . He couldn't because you absorbed him , in you . Since then , you had cat ears and a tail , all white . You could easily transform into a white cat and then into a white tiger , and then back into a human . You were the only Shinigami that had this power , that had this past . You were one of the most powerful Shinigami , but there was a very wrong thing at you . Every time you got very angry , you would lose control of your body . That's when the Hollow inside you got to the surface . But you could restrain her , so the only thing you could do was to stay out of fights .
But during a mission with Ichigo , you lost control of your body and transformed . You attacked every Shinigami out there , including Ichigo . You barely managed to return to your normal you , if you could call yourself normal , and heal some of his wounds . You cried over his body , looking around you . All of your friends were severely damaged and had multiple cuts ,made by your blade . When he woke up , he didn't blame you . He blamed a Hollow , and Grimjow , but you couldn't fell more guilty then you felt then . You were the one that injured everybody . Your sword was implanted , by your own hands in his stomach . You wanted to see him death . YOU !
- " Saya….you know that your hands will always bare the mark of their blood …. The stains of the injuries you caused them !" the Hollow- you said .
You looked at yourself and your eyes got big . Your red kimono , with blue , black and yellow flowers , was torn and had stains of blood . You felt something warm on your hands that was dripping of and as your gaze moved to them , you realized that it was blood . You stepped back and felled on your butt , because of the chains that your legs and hands were bond with . You began to tremble and mumble excuses .
" Don't you dare to apologize now ! " the cruel figure tolled , practically yelled at you . You tried to think about something else , and covered your ears once more . But now you could hear Ichigo scream in pain . You looked up to see that Thing implant the sword deep within Ichigo .
You screamed too , but not in pain …in terror …in fear . You realized that his will bring the end of you ,and you could never be what you were .
You woke up screaming your lungs out , with tears in your eyes . You had , again , torn the bed sheds and your weapon , your unique Zanpaktow , was glowing . You put a trembling hand on your forehead , as to try to assure yourself that it was nothing , but a dream .
Your short red hair was messy and wet , from the fact that your didn't sleep too well , and your amber eyes were a little red and puffy . You hugged your legs at your chest as you heard voices coming to your door . There were lots of people there , but they couldn't get in cuz the door of your office was closed . You shed some tears , trying to wipe them away as soon as possible , but the memory of you transforming into a Hollow and almost killing Ichigo , and Renji , and Rukia and…and ….. Your friends faces came into your mind , with those sad and scared expressions ,and that made you cry even more . You looked up at the black ceiling as to make the tears go back and you almost made it . A yellow light , from the window that you had on the left side of your bed , made your room a bit brighter .
In this room all the things were black , or white , or red or blue . No other color . The floor , the walls and the roof were black with blue and red roses . You were the one that painted this huge room this way . The room was separated into 2 other smaller rooms : your office and your bedroom , by a very thin wall and a door .
A huge black desk made from hard wood , with some yellow butterflies on it , attracted your attention on it . It was in the opposite side of your bed , 6 or 7 feet way from your bedroom . The thin door was slightly open so you could see the desk , the mountain of signed papers , the 2 book-shelves ,full of rare books ,the blue chair that you usually took a sit in and a round red table with a huge black rose in the middle , plus some wooden chairs . Two of the chairs were throne on the floor , among other things .
You got up as Byakuyas voice vibrated in the room . You didn't want to see him or any other Shinigami . You sighted and closed the thin door . You turned your gaze to the small bedroom you had . The big bed occupied half of the space . You had a little night table and a big round mirror . You also had a bathroom , and the white door , was on your left now ,as the bed was in front of you . This bathroom was the smallest of them all . You couldn't ask for a bigger room or a different one . You knew your place too well , to step on boundaries .
You were a freak , and outcast , and so you rarely went to lunch with other people . You were skinny , but fit and tall . Your boobs were big , but not as big as Matsumoto's . You laughed a little as her image came to your mind . You were one beautiful girl . Tall , with very nice curves that would put a any man on his knees and hands , strong , smart , in one word , everything a man , or a Shinigami , would want from a girl . You weren't very hyper , and you liked to read a lot . Nothing was impossible for you . But you didn't want a boy-friend and the people around you were few , dew to the power of your spirit . You didn't want to hurt anyone , so you stayed alone .
Ichigo was the only one that made you come out more , that made you enjoy life . You sow in him a big brother , although you were the same age as him . When he came , you were happy for the first time in many years , till that day . You HAD to get angry ! You HAD to transform !
The bloody images hunted every step that you made , every thought that came into your mind . You could never try and forget ,or move on this . You hurt the only person that came to you , although you rejected him .
You took your pajama off and stepped in the bathroom to take a shower .The cool water cooled your thoughts and washed away your tears , your fears , your sorrow .
" Saya!? " Renji's and Byakuya's voices vibrated in the bathroom as they bought stepped in , seeing a very naked and wet woman .
" GET OUT !!!" you screamed after a couple of minutes , when you realized that they were now staring at you , all red in the cheeks .
You threw some things at them , a rubber ducky hitting Byakuya and a small bottle of shampoo hitting Renji . They bought rushed out , breathing heavily .
" What happened ? " Toushirou s voice rang in the room .
" PERVERTS !!! " you screeched , as you got out of the bathroom , and bought of the men jumped 3 feet high .
" We thought that you were in danger !...in trouble ! " Renji tried to explain , but you drew Hayashi , your Zanpaktow ,the biggest weapon in the Soul Society , and placed it under his chin .
Hayashi had a very long handle , made from iron and 2 huge blades , one on each edge . The blades were almost round , having on the tip a sharp and big needle-like blade , smaller than them . The edges were so sharp that you could cut anything with them . They were a bloody-red and had right in the middle a silver half moon .
The needle-like blade , rubbed its self on Renji's neck . You turned your attention to Byakuya who was looking lustful at your wet body , now rapped in a warm towel .
He gulped as he sow your eyes glowing red and your ears and tail appearing .
- " Now…. Now ……Saya ….. You don't need to get angry ….We just tried to help ! " he said , trying to calm you down.
You took a deep breath and looked at him . He had one of those nervous smiles on his face . You smirked and pulled Hayashi from Renjis neck , throwing him on your shoulder .
" Now ….. What in the Hell are you all doing here…in MY room ?" you asked looking at everyone . They just sweat-drooped , not looking at you . All of your friends were there , wearing either their pajamas or the black kimono , the Shinigami uniform .
"Well….. we…" they said in a low voice .
"If you don't mind…… Get out and let me scream or yell as much as I want ….. but I will try to put some kind of barrier around this room…." You said out loud . " I mean…there isn't any other way …" you added under your breath .
Those last words were heard only by 3 men …. They knew what you were afraid of …they knew because they were the ones that tried to stop you ….
You mumbled something , as all of them got out and left you alone .
' Way are they like this ? …… I mean …… I started to scream in my sleep 3 weeks ago , right after a woke up from a 3 days sleep …. Right after I did what I did ….Since then every night they hear me scream , Renji , or Byakuya , or Toushirou come rushing down to my room ….Sometimes all the squad comes and trite me like I am some kid …. But this is the first time they barge in and see me naked …. ' you thought , blushing a little as the 2 faces appeared in your mind .
You sat on your bed , still red and still shaking .
" Mist me Saya ?" a husky , but familiar voice , said .
" Oooo….. Just get out Karo ! ….. I don't want to see you ! " you tolled a white figure , that came from God knows were .
"So that's how you speak with the only person that comes to you?" she asked coming a little closer to the bed , in witch you stayed with your eyes closed .
She was all white and had the same shape and form as you . The only thing that was disturbing this apparition were her eyes. Black in the middle , or better yet , all black with a tiny red and yellow circle in the middle .
" I never thought at you as a person ! " you mumbled , but didn't get up .
- " You know that these nightmares will never end unless you would try to forgive yourself ! ….. I mean , till now I liked to see you crying and yelling , but now …. I am getting tired of this game ! " Karo , your Hollow , said .
- " I cant forgive myself …. I nearly killed them all …. If I didn't heard Ichigo s voice at the last moment they could all be dead by now ….. Thanks to you ! " you said opening one eye and looking at the visitor .
She just smirked and bowed , sighting .
- " I try my best ! " she said giggling .
- " Hn…..Now get out before I kick you out ! " you said and finally got up and started to dress properly .
- "Then…. Ok…Shish …. I'm going , I'm going…..!" Karo said wail you gave her a Death Glare .
You dressed in the black outfit , the same outfit like any other Shinigami , only that yours was torn into some very short pants and a mini T-shirt . You sighted again as you heard a knock on the door . It was 5 in the morning….Who could possibly be at that hour at your office door . You walked at the door and opened it . There stood Ichigo and Renji , fallowed close by , by Byakuya and Toushirou , and after them came Rukia , Hinamori and Matsumoto , holding a basked in her hands .
- " What ,in God's name , are you guys doing here ? Have you looked at the clock lately ?" you asked crossing your arms to your chest , making Renji and Byakuya gulp .
- " I heard something that doesn't feel right about you….. These guys here , tolled me that you refuse to get out of this blasted room ….. And that you have stayed in here for about 3 weeks , after that day….. what is wrong with you ?...Can you tell me ?" Ichigo said , in the same way he talked when he was angry .
You were taller than Rukia with half a head , but still short compared to him , so he still looked down at you .
- " Not really ! …. Besides , I do get out of this room…Right now I want to go for a walk….. ALONE ! " you said , looking very pissed off at every one of you nosy friends .
- " Your not going alone , anywhere…… I am coming with you ! " Ichigo said putting his hands on his hips and treating you as a child .
- " Kurosaki….. Don't make me punch you !... I said I will walk alone and that means you are not coming ! " you said looking in his eyes .
- " And I tolled you that I will come …..And you WILL tell me way you are locking yourself in this dam office and don't eat ! " he said in his usual tone .
- " Ok…Then lets make a bet …..If you can keep up with me and catch me in 20 minutes , then I would talk to you ….you can ask Renji and the others of help if you want …. " you said , now stretching .
- " It's a deal ! " he said nodding .
But when he opened his eyes , you weren't there . You had already started to run and he had some major catching up to do . Ichigo didn't say a word and started running after you . Renji and Byakuya followed him, but none of them could catch up with you , or even get close enough to you . Ichigo tried to catch you using his sword but you easily dogged his attack . Byakuya tried the same thing , but you were running to fast and jumping too much for his attack to get you . They ran after you for about 5 minutes when Renji stopped and started thinking about a way to catch you up much more easily .
- "Oh……. Shall we go after them ?" Matsumoto asked looking out from your office window .
- " If you want to be killed ….. Go ahead ! " Toushirou said stretching .
- " Then lets think ….She's 18 …..She is very strong , has a lot of stamina ……. Is in a great condition ….her powers are huge …the only person that ever beat her was Captain Byakuya ….. ya …she is unstoppable ….. they don't stand a chance , especially since is 5 o'clock in the morning ." Matsumoto said , a little too happy .
- " Then…lets get in and place the food on the table and wait for them…. She will probably bring them back one by one …. " Hinamori said .
- "Fine with me , as long as she doesn't throw them in using the window ! " Rukia said .
IN THE MEAN TIME
- " What is it boys ?...cant catch me ?" you asked , running with your back .
- " Can …. you ….slow ….. down ?" Renji said , stopping a little to catch his breath .- " You know that you have 10 more minutes till the time expires ….And Renji …I didn't hear Ichigo calling you ….So don't you dare tell me to slow down ! " you said turning your head .
Big mistake . Byakuya launched another attack at you , and couth you , by pleasing his arms around your waist . He then hoisted you up and putted you on his shoulder . In a blink of an eye , Ichigo got to you and the captain , holding Renji who was still panting .
- " Fun spoiler ! " you mumbled , crossing your arms , and giving Byakuya a Death Glare .
- " Hn ! " was all the captain said , smirking and giving you a side-way look .
- " Now ….. we have to talk ! " Ichigo said , pointing with his head to your office .
- "No!!! " you said frowning .
- " Oh….yes you will !!! " Byakuya said throwing you up and catching you again , on his shoulder .
- " I wont talk ! " you said again .
- "What good will this do to you ! " Renji finally asked .
- " These are my problems!... I don't intervene in your problems , so live me alone ! " you whispered , the happy look in your eyes being replaced by a look full of sorrow and regret .
- " But I really want to know what is going on with you…. Everybody makes mistakes ! …. I made huge ones too ! " Ichigo said , getting behind Byakuya to look in your eyes .
- " Sorry , Ichi-nii-san , but I cant tell you !... I will have to find the answers in me ! " you said .
- " Ok…. Do what ever makes you happy …But remember ….you do have friends ! " he said .
' That's what I am afraid of ! ' you thought .
" Are you nuts ? How can you let her go when she could now tell you how she fells ! " a very angry Renji yelled at the orange-head .
- " Ya,I can let her go , because she will tell me when she is ready ! " Ichigo said his brown-chocolate eyes looking into yours .
- " Arigato ! " you said in a happy tone ,as Byakuya let you go . You kissed him on the cheek and then ran to Ichigo and kissed him on the cheek too . You looked at Renji , and smirked .
- " you were mean to me ….You don't get a kiss ! " you said in a childish voice .
- "Way only me ?" he asked , still puffing.
- "then…shall we go ?" you asked them .
The all nodded and started walking . Renji moved so slow that you had to take his hand and give him a kiss on the tip of the nose to make him walk faster .
' Nothing new in the Kingdom of spirits …. Nothing but my sorrow …. But that will change soon ….. I can feel it ! ' you thought as you entered you office .