Title: Illogical
Author: devilluck
Rating: K
Warnings: Reads as slash, although could be taken as close friendship. Spoilers for movie.
Disclaimer: Nope, nada.
Summary: The Narada didn't create a new timeline, it erased the old one.
A/N: Unpolished and written in about 15 minutes. Just something that struck me about how Spock Prime.
Illogical.
It is totally illogical, and Spock knows it. It is not their fault the Narada came back through time; if anything, it is his own doing, yet he cannot stop the anger that courses through him. He cannot resist giving into the human urge to assign blame to someone, anyone. Despite his Vulcan upbringing, he is all too willing to acknowledge and accept the grief in him, something that would no doubt perturb his younger counterpart greatly.
They are visiting New Vulcan now, the whole of the Enterprise given shore leave. The knowledge that they are not his friends, that they do not belong with him, does nothing to quell the joy that rises in him each time he catches a glimpse of them before logic catches up with him. Nyota, for all her intelligence and beauty, is not the same woman who served with him for years on the bridge. Doctor McCoy, as grumpy in his younger years as he ever was later on, has not spent endless hours arguing with him, teasing him, berating the crew with him. Montgomery Scott, Sulu, Chekov – all familiar faces, all as brilliant in this timeline as in the next, but none of them his.
To see his own self walking around was perhaps the most jarring experience, save for one person.
Jim.
His Captain. His friend. His t'hy'la. But not in this timeline.
He could not deny feeling flashes of joy when he saw the young man, but these came tempered with ones of utmost grief. This was not the James T. Kirk he knew. This was not the Jim who he had helped through many missions, who he had spent much of his time with. This was not the Jim who would do anything to find him. For in creating a new timeline, the Narada had to wipe out the previous one first. And Spock…Spock would kill Nero for that.
This Jim had been different right from the moment of his birth. They were similar, no doubt about that, but the difference in upbringing became painfully clear to see whenever Jim was around. As fun as it was to see a young Kirk, just starting out on his five year mission, he selfishly wanted his own Captain back – but he had been erased from time, as had many more people, each affected by the Narada.
Spock had not thought anything could be worse than believing his t'hy'la to be dead. He was wrong.
This was not an alternate reality. This was a redo. And Spock's Jim had never existed.
Thoughts?