The wind stings against my bare skin. Tobias. Even his name flows perfectly on my lips, like a stream trickling through a lush meadow. I picture him: his strong face. His lips pulled into a thin line. His eyes. As Blue as the deepest oceans lighting up my world like the stars and moon, yet screaming vulnerability at the same time. His strong, broad shoulders holding the weight of the world. I imagine myself slipping into his arms, us becoming one person. Breathing and living as one. It's so easy to leave the rest of the world behind and melt into his hugs. It's the only time I feel safe. He makes me feel so innocent, like if I've never caused anyone pain. He takes away all the hurt from my body and leaves me free, but the second he lets me go I feel myself getting tugged back into reality. I will never see the boy I love again. I will never get to kiss his soft skin or listen to his soothing voice. But it's for a good reason, isn't it? His words come spiraling back into my mind, and my heart drowns in regret. The whole conversation plays over and over in my mind. I promised him I wouldn't go. I lied to the one person that trusted me. He believed me. I have now shattered what ever was left between us. But it wont matter, I will never see him again. I will die in the erudite compound in the place of people I love. I am doing this for him. For Christina, Uriah, Zeke, Lynne, my parents, Will, Marlene, and for everyone that has helped me or made me smile or made me love. I am doing this for them. And I hope that eventually they will realize this. I freeze in my tracks when I see the compound's doors. This is it. This is where I will die.