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AN: The Sirius Black and Remus Lupin chapters contain slash, but the 'story' still makes sense if you choose to skip those chapters.
Of Living and Dying
Remus Lupin
Remus Lupin smiled in anticipation as he pulled out of the fierce kiss he had just been embroiled in. He imagined the dark hair falling casually across the defined, classically handsome features, the playful smile that always danced just on the edge of those lips, and the eyes. He could lose himself in those eyes. And now he imagined them alight with mirth and burning with desire.
But he knew, even before he opened his eyes, that that wouldn't be the sight that welcomed him. Since coming out of the proverbial cupboard, Remus had been hounded by males from all over the school. Suddenly, the elusive Marauders weren't so unobtainable. Some boys were just curious, some more serious. Sometimes Remus went with them, more often he didn't.
As he opened his eyes, he couldn't help but smirk. The anonymous boy was a passable – if somewhat superficial – imitation of the original. Hair painstakingly styled to suggest casualness, clear features still marred by childhood, and lips which smiled too broadly for the smile to be entirely natural. But they eyes were wrong. They were shallow, and boasted no life, but they did sparkle with lust.
And so, hating himself for it, Remus leant back into the embrace. Because it offered an easy distraction, and, in that moment, he just wanted to forget. Because it hurt, being in love.
He never expected it to be easy – Merlin, everyone knew it was damn near impossible – but he never expected it to hurt this much. Being in love with Sirius Black.