Human
Auther: me, myself and I.
Warning: Shonan-ai. Don't like, don't read. Mention of self injuries. Oh, an lots of angst.
Disclaimer: I don't own Naruto, Sasuke does. I also dont own the song "Just One".
Summery: Songfic. Narotu's thoughts after his and sasuke's battle in the valley of the end. SasuNaru. I know it was already done, so sue me.
A/N: Well, I listened to this song and suddenly I thought: " wow, it really fits Naruto". So I wrote this. My first songfic. Oh, and if you want another chapter with Sasuke's thoughts tell me and tell me what song I shouls chose, please.
I wanna live
I wanna leave
I wanna open up and breathe
I wanna go
I wanna be
I wanna feel it constantly
This sure sucks. I'm lying here, after my "best friend" almost killed me. You know, Sasuke, when you are on a verge of death, you suddenly think about a lot of things.
My life, for example. Ever since I was small, I was always hated. I was beaten and cursed by the village people for a reason I didn't know until I was 12 years old. So I formed a mask. A mask that was supposed to protect me. But you saw right throw it, didn't you, Sasuke?
I just wanted to live like a normal person. There were moments I even thought to leave. But I couldn't, it's my home. I was born here and raised here. Here, I have friends and family. Here, I have-had-you. the last Uchiha and my best friend.
I guess I just wanted to leave my mask and breath.
Gotta show
Gotta say
I've gotta feeling that wont go away
I've gotta know
If they go away
My opportunities...
Ever since we were little, I always felt different about you, Sasuke. Back then, I didn't know what it was, so I mistaken it for hate. But now I know what it was, Sasuke.
It was love.
I need to show you how I feel Sasuke. I need to tell you those three little words I couldn't tell you until now: I love you.
Please don't go away. Please don't leave me alone. Please don't take mo only opportunity to feel loved. To feel human.
Just one chance is all I ever wanted
Just one time I'd like to win the game
From now on I'll take the chance if I can have it
Just one
Just one
All I ever wanted was one chance-one chance-to feel like ordinary human being. And that chance is gone with every step you take. What did I do wrong, Sasuke? What?!
It's not like I was a treat for you or something. Sure, one of my goals was to beat you, but let's get serious. Me, the Dobe as you like to name me, beat you, the Uchiha prodigy? Don't make me laugh.
I need to think
I need to feed
I need to see if I still bleed
I need a place
I need a time
Cause I need to step outside that line
Now, that I look at my life, it looks just like a TV show that's called 'Naruto'. You know, one of those shows where the hero has a horrible past, and then he discover he has super powers? The sad thing is, it isn't a TV show.
Sometimes, I cut myself. Yeah, I know, you probably think what a loser. Or maybe you think that I'm a masochist. But the truth is, I'm doing thus to see if I'm still alive.
And the whole Hokage thing. Really, who am I kidding? How will someone, anyone, give me this honor? This status? I only did it so I wouldn't be ordinary. So I would be special.
Gonna give
Gonna take
I'm gonna scream till I'm awake
I'm gonna push
I'm gonna pull
Open up the door...
There are nights were I get nightmares. I wake up in fear, screaming, only to see my small and lonely apartment. And not those stupid ones with monsters under the bed. Well, mine has a monster, but not under my bed, but in my head.
Sometimes I think if maybe I should just… let go. To open the door that cage the monster ant let it take over. But that would be running away, right Sasuke? And you hate cowards.
And if I knew when the door was open
I'd go through
I would go on through
And I can say
When I do I'll never be the same
Never be the same...
But did you know, Sasuke? One night the door did open, and all I had to do was to go through. But then I thought of you, Sasuke. And I realized that I didn't want to leave you.
But maybe… I should have gone. Then I wouldn't have to face this loneliness, this sadness one feels when their most precious person leave them so they could have more power. And it hurts, Sasuke, it hurts.
But then again, that would just ruin my whole wants in my life, my hole dream. If I went that time through the door, I would have become a monster.
I wouldn't be human.
A/N: like? hate? please review!!!!!!