hi everyone.

I'm very sorry for the short notice.

I reconstructed the whole flow of the story.

- this part was supposedly chapter 9 however the whole construction of the plot will be ruined.

so there .. it'll just serve as the prologue just to clear any further confusion.

This is my first fanfic ever so please bear with me for all the changes.

I guess I would really need them to enhance my way of writing.

I think the pairing was clear in the summary. This is kaishin.

Maybe coz I've read a looooot of yaoi stories, I learned to love them and well, now I'm writing my first fanfic. yay!

WARNING: mild/not so good languages | there will be some lemon/yaoi on the latter part of the story.

NOTE:

text | TEXT - emphasis

"text " - conversations

text- thoughts

i'll try to clear up all the confusions later on as we progress on the story :)

after all the corrections and rephrasing and starting from scratch all over again,

here's the final form of prologue.

R&R s'il vous plait :))

Shinichi owns Kaito | Kaito owns Shinichi | Gosho Aoyama owns them both so that leaves me with nothing but this irrelevant story.

SWITCH

'You do know right? Who I was when I wasn't me...'

- Shinichi Kudo

oOo

My name is Kudo Shinichi. Born on the fourth of May never mind the year, formerly in love with a childhood friend of mine –- Mouri Ran and a living proof of Apotoxin 4869. Many people say that there are times that it is better to let things happen, rather than insisting on how we want them to be done.

You can call me an exception to the rule, or simply just a rule breaker. I believe that humans were created with brains and with the ability to think and decide because we have our so-called freewill.

I was the 'Great Detective of the East' - past tense. Reality hurts, I know, but I still believe that there is only one truth. In addition, that truth is screaming on my ears all the way inside my head.

When I went out to Tropical Land with Ran, I accidentally eavesdropped on a case involving the fucking organization who took my life away.

One of their members forced me to take the prototype Apotoxin 4869, a drug that is used by a secret criminal syndicate, which I call "The Black Organization," to commit murders without leaving any trace in the body. Although it is unknown to the syndicate, APTX4869 does not always kill the victim. I was part of the 0.03% whose body reacted differently with the drug. It changed the structure of my body cells and physically regressed my body into a younger state making it 10 years younger. I suffered for more than a year living in Edogawa Conan's body as a seven-year-old kid before finally taking down the B.O with the help of Kaitou Kid. I was the first victim and the second victim was Shiho who took it in order to escape the organization.

Shiho Miyano; A.K.A. Sherry of BO turned into Haibara Ai after taking the drug. She became a secret ally of mine and since she was the original developer of APTX 4869, she started developing prototype antidotes that could last a few days - days that I spend with Kaitou Kid, uhh, well... outside his heists.

Kaitou Kid—he knew who I was when I wasn't me. I was surprised to see an overjoyed Kaitou or I dare say Kaito the moment I told him about my secret. He told me he was so relieved that he was NORMAL—I wonder what he meant about that 'normal' because I do know that nothing about him could be considered one. Plausibly, he got a huge crush on Conan and was attracted to me at the same time. I only gave him a look that clearly conveys 'Are you fucking serious?' while raising one of my eyebrows. He nodded his head and he squeezed me so tight until all the air was sucked out of my lungs.

Days turned into weeks, weeks into months, everything happened in a fast pace and we were drawn closer to each other that we decided to live together. With a big PERMISSION from both of our parents, I moved some of my clothes to his place and some of his things to my place.

His mother decided to go to Los Angeles to visit my mom who was an old friend of hers, thus leaving us the privilege of staying in their sanctuary—alone. I usually sneak out while he was fast asleep and hide at my place, which was a LOT quieter and stayed in the library, reading Arthur Conan Doyle's books. I wasn't practically hiding from him, just finding a way to go back to my peace-loving home and enjoy the serendipity of the place.

I didn't know if he just knew me too well or he's currently watching me coz after a few hours of silence, I'll be receiving a short message from him stating that I left him all alone and cold again. I don't know what has gotten into him but I surely know that we share the same unspoken feelings.

I knew about his feelings for me and I do feel the same way. But I don't wanna commit myself into some kind of relationships- thought I know he already committed himself to me, that's a fact.

Everyday is a brand new day.

He would teach me a lot of things about magic and I love the shock look on his face- poker face aside, whenever I successfully pull off the same trick he just showed me.

He's a person with Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder- you can't leave him alone for one minute without him doing something or else he will ruin the stillness of the class[which he normally does...]

I can still remember the first time I saw Nakamori Aoko. She was Kaito's childhood friend and the first victim of the game we called switch. I was still studying in Teitan High back then, when I went from Beika all the way to Ekoda just to surprise him by changing my hairstyle to a replica of his. I would've successfully pull off the trick if I hadn't forget to bring my contact lenses to change my eye color from blue blue into deep purple, damn irises.

I waited at the school gates and she was with Kaito. Series of emotions showed on her face and she reminded me of Ran so much that I couldn't help but smile and seduce her. Funny, ain't it? I learned a lot of things from Kaito, from poker face to the art of seducing people. I watched her emotion change from amused to shocked when she saw Kaito's ecstatic expression upon seeing me. Then the shocked look came to a fast transition to pained expression as Kaito touched my lips with his own. I may be dry and boring but I never thought I was good at hurting a person's feeling until then. I have no idea about the thoughts running in her mind but one thing is clear to me - if she's not attracted, then she's in love with Kaito- MY Kaito.

Ironic ain't it? The one an only daughter of the head of Kid task force was attracted slash in love with Kaito. That's the only thing that made me worry. I hate dealing with a jealous best friend of my special someone - accept it. I don't wanna call him my you already know what!.

We don't usually see each other, except for the times that he frequent my premise without my knowledge. After a few weeks of persuasion, he managed to convince me to transfer to his school- provided the consenquence that if I ever turn back into Conan, then I'm not gonna join him at school.

I transferred to his class and was seated next to him due to his insistent demand to the professor. He said he can't stand a day without looking at me and I felt so damn embarrassed with his announcement that I felt the urge to cover my face with both of my hands.

After that day, he told everyone in the class that I am already his property and girls should stop flirting with me or else they'll get what they deserve. It's so funny how one by one, the girls in our class dispersed like germinating seeds. I found it rather amusing playing switch in school. I pretended to be him and he perfectly imitated my features and attitude. That idea was mine. You see, I'm a prankster myself. I told him we could do it in heists and he was so excited with the idea. Truth is- whenever I attend his heists, I get this eerie feeling that something not good is going to happen, and I don't wanna risk Kaito's safety at that. I know Kai's target and I don't wanna do something that could adhere him from achieving it. He's a very determined person and that would never change.

Nakamori Aoko and I became very good friends. She's always with us whenever were at school but I never told her about my secret. Whenever I can't attend school because I changed back into Conan, Kai would always pretend to be me and I would stay at home and call Aoko using Kai's voice.

Kai openly express his feelings toward me even when there's a lot of people staring- God knows how he loved the attention! Both our fan girls, yes you heard it right. Our fan girls were squealing with delight whenever they see us together, which happens all the time.

ADHD aside, Kai was a very sweet and romantic person. Talk about red roses on the table at the side of my bed whenever I would wake up and tons of notes proclaiming his undying love for me, oh yes redundant but I still consider that sweet.

I still remember the first time we made love, I woke up wearing a ring with his name engraved inside of it. I may not admit it openly but I love him. I love him too much that I can give up everything just to make sure he's safe. I just hate it whenever I go back to being Conan. I feel like a hopeless, and useless earthling. But he stayed by my side and that alone made me feel so contented.

After carefully planning his new heist, I knew right then that something was off. So I told him that I'll be the one to perform the heist. He agreed not knowing the danger that would soon come my way...

On the day of the heist, I took two prototype antidote without anyone knowing and everything was perfect according to how I planned it. I instructed Kai to keep himself busy with a case as Shinichi and told him we'll be playing our favorite game. I entered the building using my real identity- as Kudo Shinichi. And as the lights went off, I dropped the smoke bomb and changed into the Kaitou Kid outfit.

With a flick of my fingers, the lights turned on and I was holding my prize. That's when I heard a gunshot and a copper-like smell filled my nose. I felt something cold ripped my flesh and passed through my chest. I was so thankful that no one knew who was shot as everyone was occupied searching for the source of the shot. I quickly dropped an emergency smoke bomb and changed back to the casual outfit I wore upon entering the place.

When the smoke cleared out, everyone panicked as they saw me [Kudo Shinichi] fell from the rooftop.

True enough, I fell but I managed to hold on to the rope that I prepared earlier that day. I made sure that all sorts of evidence pertaining to my survival that night was gone.

I need to hide from everyone else except from Haibara, for a cause that even I do not know.

So there, I stayed with my parents in LA for a few months until Haibara finish the perfect antidote.

I tried to keep in touch with Kaito but my father said it's better to leave things as they were. I keep on fighting against what's destined to happen that's why it always end up like this. So I decided to wait impatiently patient and in vain until everything subsides.

Kaito's silence bothered me but Haibara assured me that he's alive and surviving each day so my wariness subsided a little. After a few months of hiding, Haibara was able to create the perfect antidote. She told me that it may permanently turn me back to my old self but she wasn't aware of any side effects that it might include.

Oh yes, it worked.. perfectly until... my worst nightmare happened!

Evidently, this is NOT what I expected to happen. Dying perhaps but turning into a girl? NO WAY!

So there, I tried to run from my fate- Haibara assured me that it'll be temporary as she will create another antidote but that wasn't enough! How am I suppose to live a life like this? Worst comes to worst? After how many months of silence, Kaitou KID reappears. What should I do?

there .. for those who was able to read the entire thingy up to chapter 8 uhhh , I made some major changes [again]

so this will serve as the prologue.

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