Quinn Fabray is perfect
The irony in that statement. If only everyone knew.
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Lucy Quinn Fabray.
Born of Judy and Russell Fabray. Younger sister to Frannie. The perfect family. The family that everyone looks at and immediately wants what they have. If only they knew.
If only they knew that Judy is a barely-functioning drunk, never able to tear her hand away from the tempting glass of alchohol.
If only they knew that since little Lucy was 7, her father brought it upon himself to 'prepare' lucy for the world. Raised under strict Catholic views and the blinding hits from her Father.
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Lucy Caboosey
When Lucy first started school, she saw school as a safe haven, free from the emotional and physical abuse of her home-life.
Oh what a rude awakening.
She wanted to be herself. At home, everything she did was to try and see pride in her daddy's eyes. It never came.
So at school, she wanted freedom. She finally felt at home when she was reading her books.
But like all good things, it has to end.
The other kids at school noticed she was different. They noticed that her nose was odd-looking. Pointed out how she had such a massive amount of useless fat. And she began down the path of self-hatred. Killed a blossoming plant before it could flower. The final action, get rid of the name given to her by all her tormentors.
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Quinn Fabray.
Just moved due to her daddy's job. With the new person she became, came new people to judge her every action. So she tried to be perfect. Whats a little eating disorder in the big scheme of things. Does getting a nose job really affect that much. Does the crave for approval from everyone she meets really change how she acts?
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HBIC Quinn Fabray.
Head Cheerleader. Captain of the Celibacy Club. Girlfriend of the Quarterback. The prettiest, most popular girl in school.
Except she was missing something.
She wanted someone to care about her.
She had Finn.
But did she really? She noticed how he stared at Rachel long before Glee Club. How he never remembered the simplest of things.
She had Santana and Brittany.
But once again, did she? They were best friends ever since meeting at that cheer camp. But the start of sophmore year also brought upon the start of something new. She didn't miss how they looked at each other. She felt herself slipping away long before it happened.
Then she got pregnant.
Noah Puckerman had come over to clean her, wait no sorry, Russell's, pool. She had been fretting all day, thinking she was gaining weight, so He slipped her wine coolers. She felt herself letting go. She struggled to get a grip at everything fading away from her, but it was too late. So the least she coukd do was make sure there would be no evidence, right? Except she trusted Puck the one time he couldn't be trusted. But hey, at least she wasn't fat.
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That Pregnant girl.
Slut. Cheater. Sinner.
She had everything taken from her, so she tried to hold on to Finn. He was safe right? But the truth came out. The truth always comes out.
Now she had no Finn. No Unholy Trinity. No family. No house. No popularity. She completely changed herself so she could have it all, but now look at her. But it's all okay, because having a bunch of people who hate you sing some songs to you just makes everything better, right?
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The new and improved Quinn Fabray... right?
She felt a hole in her chest now. She felt alone and empty. So she did what she does best and buries it i side of her. Finds comfort in the familiar sense of starving. With her dad no longer there, she finds the pain she knows she deserves from the blade of a razor. No one notices. Either they don't see it through her impeccable make-up talent from covering up bruises throughout the years, or they just don't care.
She believes that her 'friends' in glee just don't care.
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So she dates Sam. And she likes him. However, once she realizes why she likes him, she can't handle it, and finds Finn to screw it all up.
And why does Quinn like Sam? Because Sam is Nerdy. Guess who else was nerdy. Lucy.
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It's not so much the fact that Finn broke up with her that shatters her world. It's the moment that she realizes what he said is true.
"Do you even, FEEL ANYTHING ANYMORE?!"
The answer? No. No she doesn't. And her world crumbles.
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She breaks down in front of Santana and Brittany in New York.
She finally lets out that she just wants somebody to love her. She doesn't say how she doesn't think she deserves it, though.
Whats their solution?
A fucking haircut.
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She comes home from New York with Judy waiting for her at the door, mentioning how Mr. Schue called asking if everyhing was alright, that Quinn seemed out of it.
So now they care.
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Quinn Fabray turns off her phone for the summer. She begins to stay out late, and leave early in the mornings. Judy would later find out she was hanging with the Skanks. Smoking on a street corner and getting drunk all day. Wishing the pain away. Except, for one of the skanks, she wanted the pain. She just wanted to feel something. But more importantly? Quinn wanted someone to notice. To be proven that the glee club, or even Mr. Schuester, cared.
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They didn't. Instead, she felt even worse. She falls further in her descent.
Lose the Skank act already.
You only care about one person in this world, and that's yourself.
What happened to you? Are you even in Glee Club?
Stop playing the Victim Card.
Grow Up.
Since Day one, you have done nothing but sabotage the same Glee Club that has been there for you over and over again.
Now you're a train wreck? Well congratulations.
I don't care about you, I care about her.
The voices scream at her in her head. Deafening. Blinding. She is so far gone she can't even see any trace of the path anymore.
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She takes a shaky step forward. Left, right. Left, right.
All the way until she is out of the building. She numbly continues her journey to her house. She looks at her phone.
2:15.
Her mom will be home as 3z
She has to hurry.
As she is running home, she looks at her arms and realizes something.
She didn't cover them up today.
And the thought that sticks with her, convincing her to do this?
Nobody even cared.
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She makes it home.
2:30
Only 30 minutes. She has be quick.
It isn't like she hasn't thought about this before.
So she takes her pre-written letter out from under her mattress and props it up on her bed.
Quinn runs down the stairs, almost falling, to the medicine cabinet. She opens it, and dozens of pill containers fall out. She doesn't care enough to read them, so she grabs them all. She grabs a bottle of water, and bounds up the stairs again.
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Judy Fabray enters the house at exactly 3:00, no more, no less. She sees her daughter's bag laying haphazardly on the ground, so she calls up to her.
"Quinn? Are you there?"
She gets no reply. Sighing, Judy makes her way up to Quinn's room. When she opens the door, she immediately collapses to tears.
To be continued.
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Please review and comment if you want the next chapter! Thanks for reading! Sorry that the format is a bit odd. I wrote it one way but when published the format changed completely. Hopefully it still makes sense.