I Couldn't Forget You If I Tried

Disclaimer: I don't own the characters.

Prologue BPOV

I've been to a lot of places in my life. Italy, Spain, Australia, but nothing prepared me for the summer I spent in France. It was a group tour, and the only people I knew were my best friends Alice and Jasper. We've been inseparatable since we were five. Alice was a tiny girl, just turned 18. Short, spiky, ink black hair and a huge appetite for fashion. She was loud and outgoing, everyone loved her. She's the one that brought me and Jasper out of our shells. Jasper was tall, around 6'3. Surfer length blonde hair and eyes as blue as the sky. He was handsome at 19, but shy and reserved. And then there's me, Bella Swan. I'm 18 and plain as the day. Long brown hair, boring brown eyes, average height. The very definition of a plain Jane.

The three of us joined the tour group as our final adventure before we went off to college. 32 other people were going with us, not that I remember most of them, and we'd be spending 2 weeks traveling all throughout France. I made some new friends and made new mistakes, what every teen would have gone through that summer anyway. But it was also a summer or love.

His name is Jacob Black. My first love. We didn't get along during the beginning of the trip. He thought I was one of those stuck up, snooty girls like Jessica because I'm shy and I don't talk often. As the trip continued, we got to know each other better and hung out more. We talked about life back home, he'd be going back to college for his Junior year up in New York somewhere with his girlfriend Leah. I'd be going to school in Rhode Island with Alice and Jasper. I knew well on that he had a girlfriend, but I couldn't help the feelings I was getting for him. I remember it all started when we went to a club in Toulouse one night.

Alice dressed me that night. Electric blue skinny jeans, a floaty leopard tunic, and black pumps, I had to admit I did look good. She curled my hair and smoked up my eyes before she perfected her look. Alice looked like the fashionista she is wearing her intricate black ruffled mini dress with black floral stockings and silver platforms. She wore silver eyeshadow and red lips and of course looked fantastic.

The club was empty when we got there around 10pm. Apparently people don't start showing up until 1am around here. Either way, we all took advantage of the lower drinking age and started the night off well. A little while later I felt eyes on me. I turned around to see 2 pairs of eyes looked me up and down. In the front was an old French man, and behind him, Jacob. The old man finally worked up his nerve and started to approach me. I'd never been in a situation like this before so the look of panic on my face must have been noticeable. Right when the man got to me, I felt a pair of strong arms wrap around my waist and hot breath fan across my neck. I jumped before I noticed the tan hands that were around me. Jacob kissed my cheek and stared down the man before the man frowned and turned away.

"Wow, Jacob…thank you" was my clever response. Jacob just laughed, but made no movement to remove himself from me. I took the time to admire his looks. Tan skin covering chiseled cheekbones. Deep, black eyes that you had to look up to see. He was even taller than Jasper.

"Bella? Bella are you okay?"

I was brought out of my trance when I heard him calling out to me.

"Huh? I'm sorry Jacob, what did you say?"

He chuckled. "I asked if you wanted to dance with me Bella."

I blushed crimson. "I'm sorry, I didn't hear you. But to answer your question…sure." And with that he led me to the dance floor. We spent the whole night dancing with each other. Grinding to the beats, slow dancing. It was fantastic. There was this spark between us I just couldn't ignore. His girlfriend didn't enter my head at all.

Things were back to normal the days after. The spark wasn't there like it was. We still flirted and hung out. Things were dull until the last night. Alice, Jasper, Jacob and me decided to go bar hopping to celebrate our last night. Naturally, we all got drunk. It's a miracle we even made it back to the hotel. Once I was all settled into my bed, there was a knock on my door. Jacob.

"Hey, what's-" I was cut off by Jacob's big, strong hands pulling my face to his. The feeling of his lips on mine was incredible. We made our way into my room to continue what we were doing. We must have laid there together for hours before he went back to his room. He never once pushed me to do more, he was perfect to me.

The guilt didn't hit until the next morning. I woke up with a hangover, and a clear view on the night before. I couldn't believe I let myself do that, he has a girlfriend! I later found out that he called Leah long distance and confessed what happened between us. He looked miserable. I didn't want to look at him, talk to him. I just felt too guilty.

We got back home and days went by with nothing from Jacob. Finally, one day I had a message on my face book from Jacob Black. He told me how much he missed me, how he missed seeing my smile every day. He told me that he didn't regret anything that happened and that he was confused, but he still wanted to see me. I let my heart get the better of me. I saw him every day that summer. When I wasn't with him, I was always in contact with him. He was my life. Now, I'm no virgin, but I promised myself I wouldn't have sex with him. I knew it would hurt me even more when he left for school and was with his girlfriend again. That didn't stop me from fooling around though. Nighttime sleepovers kept me satisfied. The things that boy could do with his tongue were sinful. But it still hurt when we went off to college. I missed him every day. Text messages were my drug. I texted Jacob every chance possible. Text messages were also my down fall.

Bella, Leah found out about this summer.

She's so pissed; she almost broke up with me.

I can only be your friend from here on out.

I'll always be your friend…

-J

My heart broke that very moment. He never wanted me.

Ok so, this is really rough. I just had this idea in my head and I had to write it down.

True story for most part..but we wont get into that.

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