So I'm trying this story again, let me know what you think there have been some major and some minor changes.

Disclaimer: I own nothing not the show and not the music.

Warnings: Mentions of Rape and self harm, and some pretty strong language.

Chapter 1

Just as I was putting the finishing touches on my make-up I heard a honk outside. Taking one final look in the mirror, I smoothed out my Cheerios skirt, grabbed my backpack and rushed into the kitchen to grab a breakfast bars. Right as I was about to kiss my mother goodbye I heard the chime of my iPhone.

Quinn Fabray

New Message

September 5, 2011 7:00 AM

Hurry up bitch

I rolled my eyes and shouted "See you later Mama" as I ran out the door.

"'Bout time San what the hell took you so long?" Quinn doesn't even give me time to be fully in the car before she asks.

"I was just trying to teach my good friend some patience." I replied sarcastically.

"Yeah well can you save your lessons for when we aren't already running late?" Quinn replies "Now hurry up and buckle up we still need to pick up Britt and Rach."

"A bit grumpy this morning are we?"

"Well it's the first day of Senior Year and I'm really excited! So I would like it if we are not late."

"Why? Same school same teachers same annoying classmates."

"True but I just have a really good feeling about this year."

"Well you go ahead and be little miss optimism I have a horrible feeling about his year" I said with a mock shudder.

"Whatever" Quinn said as she honked the horn to let Brittany know we had arrived.

"Hey Girlies! How are you this morning? Isn't this great? We are finally seniors!" Britt said immediately upon entering the car. She and Rachel have always been the carefree balls of energy in the group whereas Quinn and I were more serious and calm.

"Whoa, slow down Britt." Quinn replied laughing a little bit "And yeah this year is gonna rock!"

"Oh yeah its gonna be totally dank and all that shit" I said. Sarcasm was dripping with every word.

"Oh come on Mrs. Grumpy Gills, its senior year we are gonna rule the school" Brittany said

"And how is that any different from any other year we have been in school? We have run this town since preschool."

Quinn and Brittany shared a look and relied with "True" as they all laughed.

Rachel was next to be picked up and they all shared about their summer experiences. Well the second half of the summer. The first half we had all spent together at Rachel's family beach house in California. They all seemed really excited to be back at school. Well not me, my summer wasn't exactly a good foreshadowing of something good to come this year.

Rachel and I are both in honor classes and therefore have all but sixth period together where I would be at Cheerios and Rachel would be at soccer. Same going for Britt and Quinn they were both in regular classes but since they were both in cheer they had all of their classes together and 6th period with me as well.

Rachel and I went to Calculus first period and Brittany and Quinn went in the other direction to English. For both pairs the halls parted for our path.

Everyone knew not to mess with us ever since Quinn and I beat the shit out of Daniela Johnson and Courtney Davis in fourth grade for calling Brittany stupid and trying to turn the whole school against Rachel just because she had two dads and no mother. We were both suspended and when we came back the whole fourth grade was afraid to mess with any of us four. Its not like we were outwardly mean but if anybody messed with a member of our little family we just aren't gonna let that shit slide. And I'm not saying this to be conceded but we are the hottest shit in this small town. Not to mention my family is the richest in the town. So we are basically royalty here with all the necessities to get out when we graduate.

Anyway, Rachel and I took the back seats in our math class and Finn Hudson, Rachel's boyfriend of two years, took the seat in front of her. Noah Puckerman, more commonly known as Puck, sat in front of me. Puck has been trying to get with me since freshman year but I have always thought it was more fun to just string him and the rest of the school along. Like I always say, "Why tie yourself down to one when you could have all fun with all of them?" I never really had sex with any of them, although the rumors said differently, I just like to flirt and maybe get a little action but never the full thing. Truth be told I'm not ready and I don't care what the rumors had to say so I don't stop those either.

"So babe, how was your summer? Didn't get to hang with you much and I need my Latina fix" Puck said winking.

"Well, Puck, if you must know I was out of town for the last half of my summer at my sisters house in LA." I said and then threw in "but I don't think you would be interested in who I mean what I was doing there" Rachel giggled and Puck looked a little jealous. "But I'm sure you had plenty of company while I was gone. I mean with Sarah and Jessica and Michelle the list just goes on doesn't it?"

"I don't know what your talking about" Puck said looking embarrassed. Truth be told he had no problem telling the whole school about his sexual adventures but when it came to me he wanted me to believe he was an innocent little virgin. And as long as we are being honest I would rather that be the truth for him too.

The lesson started and us four turned to try to learn something. On the way to the next class Rachel was going on about how she thought it was finally time to go all the way with Finn and I was listening with half an ear. I didn't really mean to bring up my sisters house earlier, in fact I kinda wanted to forget it all together. Don't get me wrong I love my sister and I love visiting her but after what happened I just wish that this specific trip had never happened.

"So what do you think?" "San?" "Santana?" "Hey, whats wrong with you?"

I didn't get to far into my own head before Rachel grabbed my arm and shook me back into the real world. I jumped a little and it didn't seem to go unnoticed "You okay? Where did u go just now?"

"Huh? Oh I'm fine. What where you saying?"

Rachel looked and me skeptically but I put on my best poker face so she continued "I was saying that I think it is finally time for me and Finn to make love but I'm scared of getting pregnant. What do you think I should do?"

"Well, I think you should wait until you are absolutely ready but if thats the only thing you are worried about then just ask Quinn where she got her birth control she will take you. After her pregnancy scare I doubt she will want any of the rest of us going through that."

"Yeah that should work, thanks S you always know what to do"

The rest of the day was pretty much a blur. Same shit different classes. Sign the contracts show up tomorrow blah blah blah. It wasn't until Cheerios practice that the day really started.

So again let me know what you think.