Fear, Shoot, Love- Soy Sawce

Characters: Sakura K., Syaoran L.

Genre: Romance, Drama

Rating: M !

Author's Note: Oh yes...an Author's note. As much as I dread author's notes I decided to put one in...because I can. Please continue reading the story! I've been on hiatus and I'm ready to write, write, write!

Appearances:

Sakura: Light Hair, Suntanned skin (Not Jersey Shore Tan), Glowing Green Eyes, Struggling Actress, 23

Syaoran: Dark brown hair, same skin as Sakura, Amber Eyes, CSI, 24

Tomoyo: Long Black Hair, pale skin, Purple eyes, Fashion Designer, loves Eriol, 25

Eriol: Navy hair, pale skin, silver eyes behind glasses, CSI, loves Tomoyo, 25 and a half

Chapter 1- The Help

Tomoeda-Sakura

"Sakura Kinomoto, please come this way." A nurse said, motioning for me to come to a checkup room behind a desk.

I laid on the table as a woman rubbed an ultrasound on my large belly.

"Is the picture coming into view soon?" I questioned, looking at a screen to show a picture of the baby inside of my stomach.

"Usually it would come into view now..." A picture did come into view, but it was nothing like what I—or the doctor—would've imagined.

"Fuck."

I drove home slowly that day, taking in the images of what could've been or what should've been. I went home to the house I shared with my half-sister, my sister's boyfriend, and my own fiancé.

"Hey Tomoyo." I opened her front door and gently closed it as I hugged my sister.

"You look a little down...are you okay?" I asked with a soft voice.

"I need to talk to Yukito." Sakura said quietly, referencing to her fiancé.

"Upstairs...don't do anything you'll regret."

"I'm okay right now. I'm in the zone."

"Pregnant women are really quite irrational sometimes. Don't break Yuki's heart...he loves you."

"I don't plan on that...and I'm not irrational and I can't be." Sakura said walking up the stairs, leaving Tomoyo in the kitchen.

"Huh." Tomoyo said softly as she chopped some carrots.

Sakura had tears coming out of her eyes. Every word she was about to say could affect her life entirely.

She knocked on the door. "Hey Yuki..." She said embracing him. That's when the tears really started to flow.

"Sakura-Chan, what's wrong?" His silver hair swooped in his eyes and his maroon eyes framed with glasses looked at Sakura in a way nobody had ever looked at her before.

"I'm a failure. A bad mother. What could've I had done?" Sakura said. By now Yukito knew what she was talking about. Miscarriage.

"You didn't do anything wrong...it's not your fault. Maybe it was just too early! You'll be an excellent mother—when the time is right. For now we can focus on the marriage. And now you'll look even sexier in your wedding dress." He said, moving his lips towards hers in a comforting way.

"Yuki...stop." She said, pushing him off of her.

"Sakura...I know it's hard..." Yukito tilted his glasses.

"Enough. Every time I look at you I think of the baby. I can't...go on."

"What are you saying."

"Leave...now please." She said.

Crime Lab- Syaoran

"Syaoran Li to my front office." Takashi Yamazaki, head CSI, called over a walkie-talkie.

"Roger that, on my way." I replied, eager to find out what could possibly be in store for me.

I was also a little nervous. What the hell could Takashi want? I devoted every hour of my free time—and time working—to the CSI. There wasn't anything wrong with that...was it? If I got a promotion, I would have more of a reason for not having a personal life. If I got fired...I didn't have any personal life to resort to. My only friend was Eriol Hiiragizawa, my partner, and possibly Takashi.

"Hey Takashi, what's up?" I asked.

"No need for small talk, man, just sit down for a sec." He said, pointing to a chair.

"Syaoran, who is your best friend?" Takashi asked.

"Um...Eriol..."

"But you work with him. Outside of your work life I mean?" Takashi said, rubbing his brown beard with his fingers.

I didn't respond. I had an apartment but the landlord didn't even make me pay rent since I never used it; always being at work.

"See what I mean. I'm not saying this in any kind of spiteful or rude way, but Syaoran, you seriously have no life. That's why I'm giving you the entire summer off, with pay for overtime hours. Think of it as a retreat—a time to find a girlfriend, and just live life to the fullest. I accomplished that when I was 19 and then began training for this business, and look where I am now. Happily married to Miharu and always getting things done. Pack your things." He told me.

I stared at him blankly. There was no way in hell that I would skip out on the CSI. They needed me. What if because I wasn't there the most valuable cases we had opened would fall into the hands of the FBI? That couldn't happen. But what if...

"Sir...you must be making a mistake..."

"Find a lady." Takashi said, throwing a tape roll at me to get me to leave.

For some reason, that afternoon, a great weight was lifted off of my shoulders—even though I didn't want it to be, it just did. And for some reason...it felt...good.

Tomoeda-Sakura

"Eriol-Kun, can you spare a moment?" Tomoyo kissed her boyfriend as he walked into the house.

"Of course, anything for Tomo-Tomo!" He said, kissing her neck. I never found such public intimacy heartwarming. It was as if people were showing off their perfect relationships. And now Sakura could never have that.

"Okay...okay..." Tomoyo said, getting him off of her as if she read my mind.

"Um...what did you need to talk to me about?" Eriol blushed with embarrassment.

"It's not about me...it's about Tsukishiro-San and Sakura." Tomoyo said.

"Tsukishiro-San? What happened to Yuki-Kun? I can predict what happened already. You guys broke up didn't you? I could tell you both didn't love each other...but what about the baby?"

"Eriol...oh shit...please babe, don't speak up like that..." Tomoyo said as I uncontrollably broke down to the floor.

I had lost my entire future. I had lost something that would glue Yukito to me forever. I had always been insecure as a child. My hair didn't grow as long as all the other girls. It was some gene condition that I had inherited from my mom, Sonomi Kinomoto. Hell, I don't really know what it was. Anyway, when I got a man as handsome and charming as Yukito...I couldn't explain it. I just...I needed something to hold us together.

I had lost it.

Eriol embraced me then, realizing what had happened.

Days later, I continued to shrink down to my normal size. I had to work out a great deal to get back to my old size.

"Tomoyo, I'm gonna go for a run! Be back soon!" I said as I closed the front door.

Tomoeda was such a small town—yet an amazing city. I had had so many adventures as a child...my friends Chiharu, Misaki, Naoko and I would all slide down the sides at King Penguin Park, which I was running by now.

The year after I entered 2nd grade, when I was 7, my father told me that a long time ago, two years before I was born, he had married a woman named Nadeshiko Daidouji, who had a baby named Tomoyo, and since Nadeshiko had died, Tomoyo was coming to live with us and my brother Touya.

Thinking about all of this put me into a confused daze. Before I knew it I bumped into something really hard and fell over a bridge and into a pond at the park.

"Fuck...my iPod's ruined." I said angrily...and wet.

"That wasn't my fault. You got into a daze." A muscly man pointed out.

I hated muscly men. But something about this one was mesmerizing...but weird...but seductive...but forbidden. And I wasn't one to let a man have the upper hand. During sex with Yukito I was on top of my game...and him.

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