Disclaimer: Not mine. But a girl can dream…
Don't necessarily have to read Out of the Grey to read this. But some little details may be confusing.
It's been so long. So very very long since she's made love to someone. Will hasn't touched her in at least a year, a lifetime it seems like. But that's okay because here she is with this beautiful man. Her best friend and she couldn't trust anyone else to do this with. This is the first time she would be giving herself to someone that isn't her husband. She's scared but she's anxious more so. She's been secretly imagining this moment since the day he comforted her at Remy's. She's wanted to make love to him not only for herself but as a thank you for all that he's done for her. And right now she's willing to thank him generously.
She started off in control, leading him to do the things she wants. She's willing to take him right here in her kitchen because she's just so eager to have him but he stopped her. Or better yet surprised her by taking over. Before they could walk any further he grabbed both of her hands and tore them from his body, never letting his lips leave hers. He backed her up and held her firmly against the refrigerator door and pushed her hands up above her head. He kissed her mouth hard and deep as if this was the first time she'd let him explore her.
She couldn't help but moan into him. It's just that…it's been so long since someone has kissed her like this, since someone has held her like this. It's like it's all new to her, as if she's never experience making love before.
But she hasn't has she? Not really. With Will it was always just sex. But right now what she's feeling just from having Castle kiss and touch her this way is so much more than Will could ever give her. Every inch of her body is aware of him being so close, being so warm against her. She just wants him. Not this teasing thing he's doing to her. Although, she could give it right back to him.
Before she could make her next move Castle placed both his hands on either side of her waist and lifted her up. She instinctively wrapped her legs around him and when her pelvis came into contact with his lower abdomen she grimaced from the pleasure that shot through her from between her thighs. His large, warm hands started to slowly explore her body. But just having him touch her this intimately is enough to have her coming before they even did anything.
The passion from his mouth, his touch, his caresses are enough to put her mind in a foggy haze. She can't comprehend anything but the feel of him. He walked her upstairs never slowing his stride or removing his mouth from the attack he was doing on her lips.
"Second door to the right," whispered breathily in his ear. He didn't acknowledge that he heard her, just followed her instructions and flew into the guest room. No way would she make love to him in the bed that Will cheats on her in. she respects Castle too much.
He dropped her on the bed and before she even had a chance to realize what happened he's climbing on, pushing her to lay back. He started savagely kissing her which only fueled her even more. She was getting closer and closer to the edge every second as he touched and kissed her. Soon she won't be able to withstand the agony. She'll need him inside of her.
Then suddenly as if some invisible force had come over and taken control of Castle he stopped. He stopped touching her and kissing her and doing all those wonderful things to her body. But when his eyes connected with hers she saw it. He tried to hide it, push it down deep within himself, and keep locked up but she saw. She knows. She saw it dawn on him just then. The realization that this is real, that what they have is stronger than what either of them could have possibly imagined. And her heart started beating harder in her chest. Does he see it in her too? And if he doesn't he will by the time the day is over.
She can still see the love in his eyes. He can't hide it from her, he can't push his feelings down. Especially not while they're doing what they're doing. During this time is when it's going to come out the most. Slowly he leaned over her and pulled her shirt up and over her head. Sweeping all her hair to one side of her face. With the newly revealed flesh he took his time drinking her in, gliding his fingers over her exposed skin. It was like he wanted to memorize her: know every single detail on her skin and she couldn't help but feel more exposed over that then the fact that he was taking her clothes off.
His fingers went lower, teasing the waistline of her jeans. She could feel her need for him throbbing harder as his hands started to unbutton her pants. He pulled them down, peeling them off her skin. He tossed the discarded clothing on the floor and focused his attention back on her. He kissed his way up her legs to her inner thighs. Her eyes closed on their own volition and she began panting from the anticipation. When she didn't feel him touching her anymore she opened her eyes and saw him taking off his own clothes. He was busy with the buttons on his shirt so she'd thought she help him with his pants.
Never letting her eyes waver from his she undid his belt and pants and pushed them down to his ankles. When they both were in nothing but underwear Kate moved languidly up the bed knowing that he'd follow her. They knew what was next and neither of them could stand to hold back anymore. Although it wasn't spoken the love between them was undeniable.
Their breathing picked up as the last of their clothing came off and ended up in the heap on the floor. She's so nervous now. It has been a while for her. She's scared but she knows he wouldn't do anything to hurt her.
He kept his gaze on her, waiting for her. It's all up to her now. She could either push him away or encourage him to continue. And for some strange reason she finds herself smiling. She's the one who wanted this. She had to convince him and yet here he is asking her permission. He's so thoughtful of her. She doesn't deserve him. He doesn't deserve being only able to have half of her.
Kate reached over to the drawer next to the bed and pulled out a silver packet and handed it to him with a smirk. He smiled back, clearly understanding and accepting the challenge.
When Castle entered her for the first time all bets were off. She never- couldn't ever have imagined this. He fills her and warms her with every stroke, grind, and undulation of hips. She didn't think the intensity would be at full capacity. She's never experienced this before. With Will it was always the same now boring hump until you come. But this? This is magical.
All she can see his stars. All she can feel is him. All she hears is them. The sounds of them creating a bond that could never be broken. It'll forever be between them, connecting them to each other for all their lives.
She clenched him. She wants him to come inside her. Its becoming too much, she can't handle it anymore. She did it again. And again until he growled. Yes growled and the sound had her whimpering. He roughly placed a hand on her hip to get her understand how serious he was.
"Stop," he demanded. And the harshness in his tone has her spiraling and before she could stop herself her walls are clenching tighter as she comes. Forcing him to come with her. She could feel him filling her. Warm and loving. She's never felt like this before.
Once they were both able to catch their breath she turned to him and smiled which quickly turned into a fit a laughter. He soon joined her. Laughing at how content they both are right now. At themselves for their behavior.
"Are you okay?" He asked her when they both calmed down.
"Never- Ahh!" Castle interrupted her answer by pulling out of her quickly and without warning. "Better."
"I'll bet," he said sounding off. Kate looked over at him and looked down the sheet in astonishment. She never expected that to happen.