Kelly was looking at himself in his bathroom mirror tears in his eyes with mixed feelings washing over him his best friend just got married he was happy yes but a part of him was also sad he had hidden his true feelings for so long he never got a chance to tell matt how he truly felt and it sucked why didn't he tell him along time ago? He thought as he punched his mirror glass had shattered everywhere he looked at his hand seeing what he had done it was coated with cuts and blood Kelly then slumped himself down in the floor next to the bathtub he then started to cry into his hands full on this time he felt empty and alone and no one was to blame but himself if only he had just spoken up years earlier
Soon enough he heard a knocking at the door he didn't want to see anyone right now he thought as he got up and left the bathroom before answering he grabbed the hand towel from the kitchen and wrapped it around his hand as he went to the door it took him by surprise by who was at the door
Antonio? Kelly says furrowing his brows
Hey sev is everything okay i noticed at the wedding that you were a little..off you weren't yourself asks antonio
It's okay antonio I'm (sighs) fine says kelly
Antonio of course didn't believe him
Um why don't i come in for a little while you look lonely says antonio
Sure says kelly
Once antonio came in he noticed Kelly's hand
What happened there? Asks antonio
Oh this it's nothing i burned myself fixing noodles on the stove says kelly
Sev it's bloody it looks bad here let me look says antonio trying to grab Kelly's hand
No just stop i don't need your help! Shouts kelly
Antonio then looks at kelly with sadness
I'm sorry antonio i didn't mean to yell at you I'm just upset about.. Says kelly catching himself before he said anything else
Upset about what kelly?
Kelly just stood there froze he wanted to let out all his feelings to somebody but at the same time he wanted to forget about it and keep it all inside
Soon enough he started crying again
Come on let's go to the bathroom and get that hand cleaned up then you can talk okay? Says antonio patting Kelly's back
It surprised antonio what he saw after getting to the bathroom seeing the broken mirror and glass shattered everywhere
What the hell happened sev?
It's nothing don't worry about it says kelly
Nothing your mirror is broken there's glass everywhere did you get robbed?
No says kelly
Did someone break in and try to attack you? Asks antonio
No shouts kelly
It all started to add up in Antonio's Head the broken mirror the hurt hand kelly being upset
You did this says antonio
Kelly just nodded along
But why what upset you so much that you felt the need to break your mirror?
Kelly just stood in dead silence
The wedding you were upset at the wedding but why were jealous that your best friend got married and you didn't?
no kelly says in a soft tone
It was who was marrying matt wasn't it? Your upset matt got married cause you wanted to be with matt that's it right? Asks antonio
Kelly started crying once more running out of the bathroom
Kelly wait says antonio following him
Why didn't you tell Matt how you felt about him? Asks antonio sitting next to kelly at the table
Cause i thought everyone would hate me once i came out including matt and i didn't want to screw up our friendship and i figured he wouldn't feel the same way and it's clear he doesn't cries kelly wiping his tears away
Can i tell you something kelly something i myself have been keeping from the world? Asks antonio
Sure whatever says kelly
When i was fourteen i started hanging out with this boy named Robert long story short i started to feel things for him and it scared the hell out of me when i figured it out cause I've always liked girls my whole life but after meeting him things changed and at the time it wasn't really acceptable to people for boys to like or date other boys it was passed as a phase which i knew it wasn't but since my dad was an ass and would kill me if he knew i was bisexual so i just never said anything and before i knew it Robert's family moved back to new York (laughs) i lost my long time crush cause i was afraid of what people would think i mean even if Robert didn't feel the same way it still would've been a relief to be out and proud cause I'm not at all ashamed of who i am it's the fact that others will start bullshiting you saying it's wrong or it's not God's way which I'm guessing is why you haven't came out yet says antonio
That's true that is why I'm not at all ashamed of myself either i mean look at me i can get anyone man or woman says kelly smiling
See that's what you needed to see kel you might be in love with matt but you can easily fall in love again and the good thing is matt isn't going anywhere he's gonna be in your life forever maybe not as your boyfriend but your best friend and that's a good thing in my book says antonio
Thanks antonio i didn't know you were full of beautiful words says kelly laughing
I'm not just a tough cop kel says antonio getting up from the table
So i have one question did you ever have a thing for hank voight? Asks kelly
What do you think says antonio winking
Kelly started laughing as he got up
He then grabbed antonio from the back hugging him it startled him at first but antonio eventually settled in Kelly's embrace hugging his arms tightly
I'll take this as a thank you? Asks antonio
You bet it is
Antonio then laughed turning around releasing himself from Kelly's arms
They stared into each other's eyes for a good few seconds
I better get going says antonio
Alright hey you wanna hang out at Molly's tomorrow? Asks kelly
I'd like that says antonio going out the door smiling
Kelly couldn't believe it but he thinks he just found someone new
The end